Day Forty-Four…

This is what I have to say… I can do this. Even when I’m not feeling 100% I can do this. Even though sometimes it is hard to track, weigh, and measure my food I can do this. If I just take the time to think it through and reflect on why I’m doing this, I will see it’s worth it. Living in a healthier body is worth the work.  So… even though it’s been hard to do lately, I will keep at it because I am worth the effort.

So are you.

Day Thirty-Nine…

Today the cookies won. It wasn’t a total defeat but I ate two more than I wanted to eat. At the moment I made a rationalization as to why I should eat them, and then I did. However, I did not keep going, and I tracked them. So while it’s not a “blue dot day” it also wasn’t a washout.  That feels pretty good.

I hope you are well on your journey. I hope you are taking care of yourself and doing something for you every single day. Think about everything you do for everyone else. Part of living a well-balanced life is caring for others. Part. The other part is turning that kindness inward and caring for yourself.

Day Thirty-Five…

This is yesterday’s post (my blog wouldn’t let me post it last night):

So… I gained four pounds this week. I don’t know what to say about that. If you read my blog you know that I’ve been struggling. This is what maintaining weight loss is. I am trying to rewire my brain to understand that there are limits when it comes to food. I’m pretty disappointed about the gain. I know there are lots of people who understand how I feel. They understand because maintaining weight loss can be difficult. However, when I think about my life, I have accomplished many difficult things so really, why not this?  

I am determined to accomplish this goal. The rest of my life cannot be “less than” it could be. I want to have as much energy and physical strength as a possible. In order to make that happen, a big part of my  “why” has to do with maintaining my weight loss. I want to be able to wear clothes that I like and feel confident and (for me) that involves maintaining my weight loss. These are very good reasons to keep at this.

I am very proud of myself for making my weight loss journey happen. It took a lot of effort, care, and attention to get to goal. I worked hard at this, and manged to enjoy the process throughout my ups and downs. Having goals to work towards is great, but it is also very important to recognize and appreciate “the now” and where I’m at right now is pretty good.

My plan for the week:

  • Track all my food
  • Meet my fitness goal
  • Monitor my emotions
  • Eat mindfully

Hopefully this time next week, I’ll be celebrating “Lifetime” status. Fingers crossed wish me some luck because a little good luck never hurt anyone.   

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Day Thirty-Three…

This week is shaping up to be a rough one. Lots of stress, and poor choices. It’s time for a reset. This is a journey for life, so I don’t know why I’m surprised that I’m struggling it’s just unrealistic to imagine that there wouldn’t be some struggle along the way. The questions I have to ask myself are: What do I do next? How do I handle this?

I don’t really have all the answers. I wish I could make a quick bulleted list of next steps to deal with this that would help me and others too. I really just want to share that I’m having a hard time this week. Sometimes this is very hard and especially when there is a lot going on. I think just admitting that truth is a sign of some personal growth.

Thank you for reading my post and know I am here rooting for you and your success.

Day Thirty…

I made good choices today. I avoided eating bread at lunchtime and as a result, I am rolling over 2 SmartPoints. Another positive, I am scheduled for spin class tomorrow morning. These are small choices but important ones, these little choices are the stuff that makes weight loss possible.  I encourage you to reflect on your day. What small (important) choices did you make? What do you plan on doing tomorrow? Just remember you can do this. Believe it.

Day Twenty-Seven…

The Christmas season has begun in our household. We bought this beauty tonight…

We went with the Fraser Fir. I love the color, the smell, and the whole ritual of picking out the tree. All of it, the music, the decorations, and let’s not forget the cookies! Well, moderation is better than no cookies at all.

This time of year is so thick with nostalgia and I am grateful for my childhood memories of home and family. I do my best to make the season festive and happy for my own children. They are starting to leave subtle hints about what they may like to find under the tree this year.

I’m thinking about how special it is to give the people you love a special gift that they will truly enjoy. I love making them happy and am willing to wait on lines, save up money, and search out the deals just so everyone gets what they want.

As I reflect on this year, I realize this time I’ve spent on my journey has been a gift I’ve given to myself. Getting to goal and working towards Maintenance is my ultimate gift because I got back my own sense of self. Sometimes, it doesn’t seem real, and sometimes I can forget how I once felt. It’s very strange to be so transformed.

My wish for you is that you are feeling well as we enter into a season that is marked by love, generosity, and faith. Believe you can do this because that is the truth.

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I forgot one more thing! I did make my 5:15 am spin class and it was so much fun. People were happy to see me and I felt amazing for the rest of the day… Find some kind of activity you enjoy it really helps.

 

Day Twenty-Six…

Ever eat something first and then scan it for the SmartPoints values? Well, I was on my way home after an extremely long day (7:30 am – 8:30 pm) of parent-teacher conferences and I ate a snack bag of almonds that my husband bout me. Then I scanned it, 8 SmartPoints! Tomorrow is another day.

It’s looking like I’m going to get enough sleep to go to early morning spin class, and that is very exciting to me. Before I sign off for the day, I’d like to leave you with these words, I think it’s better to think about this journey as a choice, not a fight. Yes, some days are very hard, and yet if I always think about it as a fight it makes this so much harder. When I think about this journey as a personal choice it shifts from being a burden to a form of enlightenment.

So make a choice that gets you where you want to go. Be kind to yourself. Honor all your efforts even when things don’t work out as planned. More tomorrow.

Day Twenty-Five…

Anyone who has been serious about weight loss, and who have committed themselves to weighing, measuring, and logging their foods will relate to what I’m about to share. Sometimes it seems like everyone wants the #WW foods I’m relying on to make this all work.

It all started when I came home from work and was emptying out my lunchbox.  When what do I see in the garbage? My WW Mac & Cheese Potato Sicks! At 2 SmartPoints per bag, they are a nice little treat that makes lunch a little special. My daughter fessed up to eating those, and I couldn’t help but be annoyed. We have other snack bags of chips and that was my last one.

Later, while dinner was cooking, I found myself really wanting a little something. So, I measured out a quarter cup of Wonderful Pistachios and tracked them as 2 SmartPoints. When who should come into the kitchen? My husband who summarily takes a handful from my tiny bowl and now my 1/4 cup went down to a 1/8 of a cup!

Then later, after dinner, I sliced up some apple and baked it in the oven with some pumpkin spice seasoning. When I pulled out of the oven, there was my son saying, “What’s that mom?” So I scooped some up and sprayed some fat-free Redi Whip and made us each a bowl. It was way better than I thought it would be.

Anyway, still on plan and doing my best over here. How’s it going by you? I hope you are making it work. Just remember, you’re amazing. More tomorrow.

 

 

Day Twenty-Two…

The holiday season has begun and I am feeling conflicted.  I am in a rut and I think I have to change some things up. Today began with a great spin class but it was a struggle most of the day to stay on plan. I went food shopping yesterday, and I bagged all my vegetables today.  After I finish writing this post, I am going to pack and track my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow.

Thanksgiving marks a tricky time of year for me. I struggled this time last year too, and I pushed through it. I just have to gather up my resolve and keep moving. I love feeling energetic, and I also enjoy wearing a smaller size, and I know this is a much healthier way of living. Everything has a price and the cost of living this way is paid through constant effort and reflection.

It would be easy to fool myself into believing that this is my natural way of being. That it doesn’t take work to get to goal and to maintain it.  I could just turn off the reflective part of me and just ignore the warning signs that lead me to gain and lose and gain and lose and continue to the cycle.  I’ve come too far for that now.  I’ve seen the truth about myself and I can’t unsee it – so, here I sit writing these words for you to read.

I’m struggling but I’ll get through it. Want to know why I say that? I believe I can do this. I truly believe in myself. When I feel the tug of old habits I am going to lean into my newer ones. Habits are both a prison and key. Sometimes, they bore you into submission; while other times they set you free. It’s complicated.  If I can keep going, so can you. Just believe in yourself and trust that you can do it. Ok?

As always, thank you for reading and sending me your support. It feels good to know there are others who understand, and also know that I am sending my support back out there to you.  Go us! We can do this… together.

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Breakfast: 0sp Lunch: 4sp Snack: 1sp

Day Four…

Short post today. I went over my points because we ate dinner at a local Greek restaurant and it was really good.  I went into my “weeklies” but I think it will be ok. I tracked everything and used a total of 32 SmartPoints. Now, I’m still kind of full and sleepy.

I hopeè you had a good day too. I hope that you are getting the results that you wanted. Know that fast or slow, just taking time to plan out your meals, get active, or examine your emotions is the way to take care of YOU.

So make a promise that you will do something special for yourself tomorrow. I wonder, what will it be? I plan on going to spin and going to bed earlier tomorrow. I think I’m a little sleep deprived. How will you take care of yourself tomorrow? Say, it; jot it; do it.