The emotional mind and the rational mind are like two strong-willed children who don’t always get along. Sometimes they double team me and I find myself doing my best to cull out what really matters the most between them. When this happens, I feel like a sleep-deprived mother who is trying her best to make and keep the peace.

Despite my efforts this week I went up two pounds on the scale. My emotional son greeted me with a slew of disappointment at his heals. That pang of resignation that the body does what it does and in the end, I cannot control as much as I think I can. Questions come up like: What did I do wrong? Was I really being honest about portion sizes? Followed by a made-up narrative like: People won’t believe that I really did follow the plan now that I’ve gained. I sound defensive because I didn’t get what I want.

With this swirl of emotion churning in my brain, my rational daughter cleared herself a path right in the center and began to tick items off her checklist: 1. Did you weigh and measure all your foods? Yes, check. 2. Did you meet your three time-a-week fitness goal? Yes, check. 3. Did you eat mindfully? Yes, check. She ticks through her list sounding more like a metronome clicking methodically back and forth. The voice I give her has a slight air of superiority (as if she were above all the noise that the emotional son was making). Obviously, something needs to change.


I say in my best exasperated mother’s voice.

Someone else reading this post may be like, “What’s her problem? Drama queen, it’s just two pounds.” Yes, that’s true. Someone else who is on a similar journey as me may read this post and be like, “That so sucks! It’s so unfair when you put in the work and actually gain.” Yes, that’s true. My point is this, there are so many ways to see the same exact thing. It’s all about what perspective I decide to take.

This is what else I think… I think I need to acknowledge my disappointment because I am human and no good can come of ignoring my emotions. It is unfortunate that it worked out this way for me this week. Plus, I have not sat in my free seat in a while – that makes me sad too. Even though I did my best I didn’t get what I wanted and that stinks. However, this is also an opportunity to rally. I am going to keep at this and I’m going to try some new things.

Things I’ve done so far today to help myself:

  • I used the Elliptical machine at the gym to burn off some negativity.
  • I attended a Yoga class because I have wanted to for a long time now.
  • I thought about the good things the berries and nonfat yogurt were doing for my body as I ate.

As I close out this post, I wanted to share my new perspective on my current situation. I have decided to celebrate that I have been maintaining my weight within this “healthy” zone since November 2018. For the past three months, I have stayed in this weight zone and that feels amazing.

Maybe my body is just following its own rhythm. Who knows? One thing I do believe for sure, had I not been actively working to maintain a healthy lifestyle I could easily slip back into old habits. Old habits that would compromise my health and wellbeing.

This is the story I am telling the emotional and rational voices in my head just like tucking two children into bed. It is a story of the good winning out over the bad. That is why I will keep at this, even though sometimes it is hard to do. I will keep at this because I respect and love my body. I will keep at this because I can do amazing things. So can you. So keep at this will me. Is a journey not a destination. Thank you for reading.


I’m thinking about the things I am grateful for as I get ready for bed. I can’t express enough how much it means to have a kind word of encouragement. Isn’t amazing that we all of have this enormous power for good within us? Of course belief starts from within, but it’s just so nice to have someone else come along and back you up.

Maybe that’s why I love teaching. I love being that voice that says, “Let’s try it.” or “Wow, look at what you’ve done here.” or “May I just give you a compliment?” My students all know that I believe in them. I think that understanding helps them to work so hard even when things are difficult. I think we could all take a lesson from the children in our lives. They know a thing or two about overcoming struggle and living joyfully.

Joy and struggle are two sides to the same coin, aren’t they? Today I pushed myself to get to spin at 4:30 pm and I did it. It was a struggle to make it out of school and to the gym on time. Usually, I let myself get caught up in work or a personal commitment. Not today! I feel really good about this. Plus, I am also rolling over 4 SmartPoints which also feels pretty fantastic.

I think dreams are just as important as reality. Having a dream to strive towards, is helping me to discover how much I can really do. I’m just so grateful I am figuring this out. I could have lived my whole life and never have known what I could become had it not been for my dreams.

If you have something you are dreaming of – keep it safe, keep it close to your heart. If you have someone in your life who has a big dream – be an encourager. Be the one who says, “Yes, you can do it.” The truth is, you can do it – whatever “it” might be. It just takes a lot of work and dedication. I guess the one question you have to ask yourself is, are you willing to put in the time it takes to make a dream happen?

Be the light, be the hope, keep the faith.


I read a blog post that made me think today, Running 4Meyer called Baby Steps Are Boring. It made me think about all the little things I have done to set up the strong habits that are helping me today.

Beginnings are hard because there are not any results yet – just the hope it will work. Hope is essential to the process of weight loss but so is discipline. Saying “No thank you…” to tempting foods (especially when I’m stressed) is not so easy. It has a lot to do with my “baby steps” that laid the foundation I rely on to make weight loss happen.

I say, celebrate it all. Celebrate the crawling it takes before you take that first step! Today I am rolling over 4 SmartPoints. Woo Hoo! I did not get into spin class for 5;15 am. I was Waitlisted so I withdrew my name. I’m going to try to go after work. I’m not sure if I can pull that off but I’m going to try. Step-by-step I can do this and so can you.


Busy, busy, busy. Today moved along at a brisk pace. A lot of things came together and jived from morning till now:

  • I made spin class at 5:15 am. There were three people there waiting to get in – isn’t that amazing? So many people are so dedicated to their health goals. This is very inspiring to me.
  • Work moved along well and I felt productive and good about what I was able to complete.
  • Dinner went over well, 9sp chicken with pasta and tomatoes. Everyone seemed to enjoy it. Plus, I am in the Blue Dot zone, that always feels good.

I am doing some great work keeping my goals in the forefront. I am working out, tracking, eating mindfully. I am prepping my foods and trying some new recipes. These are all choices I am making to help myself. What have you been doing for yourself lately?

In case you’re wondering about my featured image… it is Brooklyn, New York. At the end of the month, I’ll be going to school there for training. I’m nervous about it because it’s something I’ve never done before. I am working on a plan for how to handle it. Right now, I just feel a little queasy about the whole thing. Anyway – Brooklyn, I’ll see you soon.


I came into work and was greeted with a nice surprise this Monday morning – Yoga. As part of a health initiative my school is offering a yoga class before school. Luckily I could do it. It was a lot of fun, and was a really nice way to begin my day. I have to figure out how to do yoga more.

Short post tonight, because I’m off to bed so I can get up and go to spin class tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.


Self-care means sitting on my loveseat and writing this post. It means spending some time with my kids and just talking. Self-care is part of my journey because it is kindness turned inward. Do you believe in self-care? What are you doing to take care of YOU?

I weighed and measured all my foods for dinner. I have used a total of 23 sp today and I feel pretty good. My only regret was that I had to cancel my spin reservation for 5:15 am. Working late really impacts my ability to go. I’m not giving up. I’m going to try for Thursday.

I’m so grateful I’m learning how to maintain my weight loss. I feel so much better physically and I am more confident. Weight loss hasn’t solved all my problems, but it has helped me to feel better about myself. Better, because this was something I wanted to change and I did. Thank you for taking time to read my little blog. I appreciate your support.


Sometimes I have to push myself to get past the barrier that separates productivity and procrastination. I’m a pro at both. However, today was good day. I accomplished my goals and that is a relief.

Another positive for today was that I kept my cool and got rid of some foods that were tempting me. It feels so good to just say, “No” sometimes and to make that “No” stick. Sometimes it feels like old habits and new habits are competing inside my head and that is when I have a choice to make. If I think about the cookies, I find, I choose the cookies. If I think about how healthy my body is now I choose health.

In many ways I think the key to weight loss is that we are what we think. It has become very important for me to reflect on what I want and why it’s important over the course of this journey. The more I reflect the great my resolve becomes.

I tell myself every day that I can do this. I can be the exception to the rule. I can beat the odds and be that person who loses a lot of weight and maintains that weight loss. I wonder what do you tell yourself? If you are looking for a tip, I find, it helps to write your reflections down. A journal, a scrapbook, a sketchbook, a blog are all ways to get your thoughts out of your head and make this process more visible.

Tomorrow is weigh-in I might be out of that two pound range. I will be disappointed if I am, but I don’t want to dwell on that. My last words for tonight, be proud of everything you’ve accomplished because you made those things happen. You. You are amazing.


Worries followed me like my shadow today. Plus, I was very unlucky and lost my seat at the 5:15 am spin class. I left my breakfast and lunch home. On top of that, I dealt with some difficult conversations at work, and then I ended up staying late to help manage a situation after school. It was a stressful day.

On the other hand, my husband took the 40 minute ride dropped off my food at school. What a guy. I had a great day coaching and teaching. I was there or my colleagues when they needed me. Even if I can’t please everyone I am still worthy and good. I am enough.


The best thing any of us can do is to fully engage with our authentic selves. There is no one else like you, or me and we are exactly what the world needs. My advice to you is don’t be an imposter in your own life.

14 grams pecans and blueberries 3 sp. The Black Cherry Merlot candle is amazing! Get one you’ll love it.

If you want to lose weight and transform your physical health; first, make it a goal and then keep that goal really close to you. Clarify why you want to do this and then you will see, it will begin to happen.

Lunch and breakfast are packed for tomorrow: Breakfast: 2 sp. (yogurt/banana/14 grams slivered almonds) Lunch: 6 sp. (2 slices Schmidt 647 bread, 2 oz Ovengold turkey, Vegetable sticks, 1 Mini Babybell Cheese, 1 green apple, 1/3 cup Wonderful Pistachios).

Have patience, because it may take a long time to happen. That is the truth. In the meantime, the happening can be an amazing experience. It is a dramatic act of self-love and caring to lose weight (if that is what you want for yourself). Be your own cheerleader because I’m cheering for you too – I’ll just sit back and watch you be amazing because I’m positive you are.

I understand the significance of resisting the urge to eat when you’re not hungry. I understand the power that resides in the moment when you keep your cool and walk away from temptation. You do that because you want to achieve your goal more than to soothe stress.

There are many moments that have the potential to sabotage your efforts. However, there are also many opportunities to show yourself how strong you really are. Make a mantra, I am amazing. You really are.


Sipping on some water out of my brand new water bottle (more Christmas loot) I am feeling really good. The sun is shining and the skies are blue. It’s New Year’s Day and I am full of optimism.

3 sp for each pancake &

I began my day with pancakes. It is very comforting to know that I can eat pancakes on WW and still lose weight. It would be pretty sad for me if pancakes were off the menu.

Yes, I do have to lose some weight even though I’m at Lifetime. I need to stay within a two-pound range of my goal weight if I’m going to continue to sit in a free seat. There are a few ways I can think about my current situation.

  1. Old habits can be subtle and creep back in without realizing.
  2. If I’m going to maintain my weight loss I will have to defend it.
  3. Sometimes I will make bad choices.
  4. Sometimes my resolve will win out.
  5. My new habits are very powerful and I can decide what happens.

All of these statements describe me and what I’m going through every day. If weight loss was easy, obesity wouldn’t be an epidemic. It is an epidemic because according to a 2017 report published by the Centers for Disease Control (CDC) 70. 7% of Americans are either overweight or obese. This means being a healthy weight is now the minority.

Losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle is really difficult. Difficult because it’s so easy to make unhealthy food choices everywhere I go. It can be tiresome to be so aware of food. That’s one way to look at it. On the other hand, losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle is liberating. Liberating because it can be done. I’m living proof it can be done. I lost so much weight and I am now in a healthy weight zone.

Do you want to get at the heart of the matter? I’ve been reading a new book, Fierce Conversations and when I think about weight loss these are the questions that come to mind:

  1. What is keeping you from achieving your weight loss goals? Write it down in one or two sentences.
  2. What will happen to you if you don’t achieve your weight loss goals? Write down what is at stake for your future if you give up on this goal.
  3. Answer the: How? When? Why? Where? weight gain started happening. Summarize this background information.
  4. What have you tried so far? Either successful or unsuccessful. Write it down. Now you are ready to make a strategy for how to keep going.

Discussing weight loss is a tough thing to take on because it’s so personal. However, I look at it like this – I can always be honest with myself. I think the most important thing is to just think deeply about my current situation. In the book, it’s called “interrogating reality” and I sort of love that expression. I love it because it gives me permission to think objectively and critically about something I’m sensitive about – my weight.

I really hope this post helps you if you are looking for help that is. If you are in a good place, “Go you!” I mean it since this is a hard thing to do, if it’s going good then go with that.