Day Four Hundred-Two…

Sadly, I did not make goal:

October 13, 2018
Some images from the week: my neighbor’s house all decked out for fall; revenge of pumpkin baked goods a constant temptation of fall; a beautiful sunset I snapped during a walk with Sadie and my hubby; an early morning spin class (still proud of that); the hole in a fence a big dog like to stick out his nose and park at Sadie (they got a new fence probably saw me snap this picture).

I am feeling frustrated, and no one would understand unless they have been on this side of weight loss struggle. It’s a productive struggle though, I am improving the quality of my life, and making long-lasting changes. This is true, but this is also true – enough already! I went to the movies last night and ate an apple and some carrot sticks! It’s not as though I’ve been slacking.

So, what’s a girl to do? Turn to her friends! I went to my “workshop” this morning and it turns out I’m not the only frustrated member this week. There were at least five people who could share in my feelings of frustration. It does help to see others who are working the program and are in a similar situation.

So, I shared my feelings and then I listened.  Now I have a plan for the week:

  1. Prepare meals and foods ahead of time. Know what you’re going to eat.
  2. Track everything, if you eat it you track it no matter how big or small.
  3. Acknowledge all that you’ve accomplished and be kind to yourself.
  4. Switch up foods don’t just revert back to the same old foods.
  5. Build up meals with zero point foods around an item with points.
  6. Set an activity goal for the week, and work towards keeping it.
  7. Share how you’re feeling with others.
  8. Pay attention to your actions, think about why you do what you do.
  9. Use the “Quick Add” feature to write something that you look forward to every day.
  10. Keep looking for beauty every day no matter how busy you get.

 

This came in the mail and it was an unexpected early delivery! This was something I was looking forward to:

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Seven…

This post has to be a short one tonight because I’m pretty tired. I have to celebrate because I am very proud of myself, I accomplished something important in my work and it looks like I’ll have another grade level completed by tomorrow. This is one of the hardest assignments I’ve ever had to complete and I’m not giving up. I think I will have discovered new reserves in my ability to keep going under pressure. To be able to say I did this will be a remarkable accomplishment. I really want to contribute something of value to the world.

If so much attention is going into this one part of my life, it’s only natural I will have to make sacrifices in other areas. I wasn’t able to get any activity points today because I spent the entire day working. I’ll have to pack my meals tomorrow morning and that takes time. So it looks like I’m going to have to cancel my spin class. I wish there was another way but I’m going to need the sleep and the time in the morning. I’m going to try for Thursday and Friday classes this week instead.

I had a decent day on plan. I thought I was going to roll over four points but I decided to eat dessert so I used them. Tomorrow is another chance. I’m going to set a mini-goal to roll over 12 points. I’m going to have to be strategic to do it. I’m going to save some fruit and tea for an after-dinner sweet. I have fat free Redi-Whip I can add to it. Another option is to plan in a savory evening snack. I have to think about that little more.

I hope you are doing well on your journey. I hope you are accomplishing things that are surprising you and that reveal your personal power to make changes to your life. You can do this, and so can I.

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Three…

I am still getting used to my body. I am wearing a size medium or small in dresses and shirts and a size six or four in pants and jeans. Sometimes when I look down I at myself, I do recognize who I see. Today I was able to walk around someone easily with room to spare and that still blows me away! I feel more confident and so much more energetic. Being this close to goal is an amazing feeling.

Since I begin this journey in earnest I have been very connected to my “why”.  My “why” has entered my thoughts daily throughout this process. Now things are a little different. Different because my “why”, what I imagined for myself, has come to fruition. I am living in the body I wanted to have. I don’t think my next “why” can only be about keeping this body. I think it has to be about something more than that.

Mindset

I want my motivation for living a healthy lifestyle to come from a generous place that makes my life about what is next instead of just trying to hold on. The reward for this body is about living and moving with ease. It’s about feeling strong and confident.  It is about a path to growth and self-awarenesses. My next “why” may have something to do with making a plan to face the hard stuff that I always try to avoid or hide from.

On that note, I am also thinking about what I will share when I do finally reach goal. I am a believer in the power that words possess to change us. I am indebted to my family, my Saturday Morning friends, and all my virtual friendships.  All of these people have been messengers of hope, inspiration, and wisdom. So, more to come on this one.

I hope you had a good day on plan. If you didn’t don’t wait to start again, think it through and get your bearings. Think about what it is you really want to believe about yourself. I believe you can do this.

Day Three Hundred Seventy-Five…

This post was from yesterday… 

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I am reflecting on my week. I have taken action to keep going, even though it’s been difficult for me lately. I went to spin two times, I packed my lunch and breakfast, I tracked everything, I weighed and measured everything, I practiced mindful eating (especially when I waited too long to eat) so I didn’t just wolf down my food I tried to really show my appreciation for having food to eat. I helped a friend who was struggling by going through a hard time on her weight loss journey (I went through the three steps for taking a strategic stance for weight loss and they worked Day 374)!

think

So… if my results do not show up in numbers this week how will I feel?  I have decided this stall before goal is like a test. How much do I want to get to goal? I really want to get there, as much as I have since the beginning. Once in a while, I will also really want to eat two scoops of gelato,  I can have both – the gelato and goal I just have to understand my choices at the moment. There will be times when health issues may interfere with weight loss, that’s life. There will be weeks like I had this one that will be extraordinarily stressful, that’s life too. This is not easy, and that’s why a lot of people give up.

I’m not going to give up, and maybe I’m thinking about goal as a destination when it’s really the path. In some ways, I’m already there because my goal was to change my lifestyle I’ve definitely done that I live my life completely differently when it comes to food.  Even though I (really really) want to see a particular number on the scale, the number itself is really secondary. I’ll let you know.

 

Day Three Hundred Sixty-Seven…

It was a challenging week. The day before weigh-in is here again and I am dedicating myself to the plan. I am afraid my efforts won’t match my result in numbers because, although, there is so much within my control, I don’t control everything!

Words of Wisdom

So instead of focusing on these last 3 pounds to goal. I’m going to celebrate that I have radically changed my life for the better. By doing the work, and making the choices I’ve made I am doing something that remains elusive for many people.

Words of Wisdom Serendipity

If you are on this journey, keep at it. Sometimes you’ve got to keep your head down and keep working whatever program (I do love Weight Watchers) and stay positive inside. Be your own light and change your life.