Day Four Hundred-Seven…

Last night, before I went to bed I was reading The Power of Habit and it turns out that researchers are very interested in willpower.  It seems that willpower is like a muscle and the more demanding the task the more depleted your stores of willpower can become. That’s why it can be hard to go for a run after work. You’ve used up all your willpower to get through answering a stack of emails and or reading some new protocol.

In the old days, a full day of professional development would have been a struggle when it comes to staying on track with my SmartPoints. There are always granola bars, candy, and sometimes cake, chips, or cookies to nosh on throughout the day. I was not tempted, not once. I did have one piece of candy (2sp) after lunch but that’s it – that’s all I wanted. My habits have become so rooted in my daily life that it doesn’t take the same amount of effort (or at least as far as today is concerned) to say no to food.

It was a full day of learning and I have lots to consider as I wind down tonight.  I’m thinking about the kind of language I use with my students. It is so important to be careful with language. Having the privilege of being part of a child’s education means that I get to be the one who cheers young readers and writers on as they learn to find their voice in the world. I get to amplify their success and honor their struggles. Learning cannot happen without some struggle. There is always a flip side: success and failure; safety and vulnerability, courage and fear. The thing is, we need both and we have to make both ok if we are going to continue to evolve into the best version of ourselves.

  • There is no success without failure so give yourself permission to fail. Fail without shame and lean in and learn more about yourself.
  •  We will never truly feel safe until we have put ourselves out there and opened ourselves up to vulnerability.  Share how you feel especially when the feelings make you feel small or unsure about who you want to be.
  • There is no way to be courageous if we don’t feel fear. Fear is the thing that makes courage so extraordinary. Do something new that you’ve never done but have always wanted to try. Grow into the person you want to be don’t just take shelter in a lesser version of yourself.

Learning and struggle are part of the journey. Whether you are learning to read and write or trying to change your habits to sustain a healthier lifestyle. Eventually, you learn and what was once a struggle is now just part of what you do, like saying “No thanks”  to candy. If you’re not there yet, it’s ok to be kind to yourself. Every single day your willpower gets a workout, life is hard sometimes. I think just acknowledging that makes it better.

Day Four Hundred-Six…

I was reading my notes from past WW meetings. It’s very motivating to read about others’ success stories. Some members lost five pounds their first week, what a great way to grow momentum. Other members are feeling very motivated by the app and accumulating Wellness Wins points.   While other members find themselves eating in more thoughtful and strategic ways. All of these reflections are seeds for changing habits around food. Reading my notes was the perfect midweek boost I need to stay focused on why I’m doing this.

I can control “My Why” that is my choice.  I cannot control life. Life will come at me from every angle. When times get tough I need to separate the unpleasantness from the reality that food is not the answer. I can do this I believe it and that has changed the journey.

Day Four Hundred-Five…

I am enough. I am doing the best I can and I am enough. If my mom were here she would say, “I’m so proud of you Jennifer. You are amazing. You can do anything you set your mind to and I love you.”  I really hope whoever you are, if you’re reading this post, you take some time to say some positive about yourself.

Live your life in the body you want, believe it, you can make it happen.

 

Day Four Hundred-Four…

I’m in day three of my week (according to WW) and I am determined to get closer to goal this time around:

  1. My breakfast and lunch are packed and tracked for tomorrow.
  2. Tracking all my foods – check!
  3. “Jennifer, you are doing great!”
  4. I’m eating flounder, vegetable patties, rainbow carrots, and dark chocolate.
  5. Building a meal around a higher SmartPoint value with zero point foods – check!
  6. On target with my activity goal (I go to spin tomorrow morning).
  7. Does blogging count? I am sharing how I feel through my posts.
  8. Driving home, I was thinking about how I had started a habit of saving a portion of my lunch and snacking on it in the car. I don’t know if this is good or bad I’m just aware of it.
  9. Saturday I looked forward to my new candle. Sunday I looked forward to getting my eyebrows done. Monday hands down pajamas 🙂
  10. Beauty: I think my featured image is a beautiful display.  Over the weekend I cleaned my curio and now I’m enjoying looking at it.

This is a journey of self-reflection, determination, and most of all kindness. Losing weight, changing how I deal with food, and finding time to get active is all challenging. This is especially true when life is so busy.  I’m worth the effort and if this is a goal you want for yourself you are worth the effort too.

Day Four Hundred-Three…

Today was a successful day on plan – go me! I prepped, packed, and tracked breakfast, lunch, and snacks for tomorrow. I continue to track any foods I eat.  Insofar as getting more variety in the foods, I’m eating today was a small win there too. We had flounder and it was terrific:

I went to spin class and that’s a step in the right direction when it comes to my weight loss journey. I did a lot of other things too but it’s late and I have to keep this post brief. My point today is that even though I still have a lot going on I’m completely engaged with my weight loss efforts. More tomorrow.

 

Day Four Hundred-Two…

Sadly, I did not make goal:

October 13, 2018
Some images from the week: my neighbor’s house all decked out for fall; revenge of pumpkin baked goods a constant temptation of fall; a beautiful sunset I snapped during a walk with Sadie and my hubby; an early morning spin class (still proud of that); the hole in a fence a big dog like to stick out his nose and park at Sadie (they got a new fence probably saw me snap this picture).

I am feeling frustrated, and no one would understand unless they have been on this side of weight loss struggle. It’s a productive struggle though, I am improving the quality of my life, and making long-lasting changes. This is true, but this is also true – enough already! I went to the movies last night and ate an apple and some carrot sticks! It’s not as though I’ve been slacking.

So, what’s a girl to do? Turn to her friends! I went to my “workshop” this morning and it turns out I’m not the only frustrated member this week. There were at least five people who could share in my feelings of frustration. It does help to see others who are working the program and are in a similar situation.

So, I shared my feelings and then I listened.  Now I have a plan for the week:

  1. Prepare meals and foods ahead of time. Know what you’re going to eat.
  2. Track everything, if you eat it you track it no matter how big or small.
  3. Acknowledge all that you’ve accomplished and be kind to yourself.
  4. Switch up foods don’t just revert back to the same old foods.
  5. Build up meals with zero point foods around an item with points.
  6. Set an activity goal for the week, and work towards keeping it.
  7. Share how you’re feeling with others.
  8. Pay attention to your actions, think about why you do what you do.
  9. Use the “Quick Add” feature to write something that you look forward to every day.
  10. Keep looking for beauty every day no matter how busy you get.

 

This came in the mail and it was an unexpected early delivery! This was something I was looking forward to:

Day Four Hundred-One…

I weigh-in tomorrow, I’m feeling good. Reflecting on my week I can say that it’s been hard to focus on myself. I’ve had to put my needs on the back burner while I handle everything life is throwing at me. It’s a pretty safe bet to say if you’re reading this post you can understand.

I had a few small wins this week. I went to spin two times, I was mindful about my food choices, I tracked even when I knew it would put my weeklies at -4 SmartPoints. I’m ending the week with a +2 so that makes me happy. I had some cravings for comfort foods that I didn’t indulge. When I thought about how far I’ve come and why I’m doing this it was easier to say no to temptations. The rational part of my mind understands that it’s not really the food I want as much as a reprieve from stress.

So either way, no matter what, I am better off today than I was a year ago. Even if I don’t make goal tomorrow I’m proud of myself because I’m not giving up. So, stay at this with me, ok? Believe it, I can do this and so can you.

Day Four Hundred…

I did it. I made it to the gym and I’m proud of that. Now, it’s late and I’m tired. I spent my night working away and I’m really glad it’s Friday tomorrow. I had a “blue dot” day. I just don’t know if this is my week to get to goal. I’m sure taking my time towards the end of this part of the journey. We shall see.

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Nine…

Two nice things…

We took Sadie for a walk:

I had wild salmon for dinner and it was delicious.  Another good thing, I packed and pre-tracked my lunch and breakfast for tomorrow.

The plan is to go to bed early, I am determined to wake up and go to spin in the morning.  Plus I really do need a good night’s sleep, I was tired today and it’s hard to teach when you’re tired.  Getting enough rest is part of the journey to good health and wellbeing and it’s something that I tend to neglect.

Well, I just yawned as if on cue with this post! More tomorrow…

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Eight…

Tonight’s post is going to be even shorter than last nights because I am deliriously tired.  However, there are TWO things I can celebrate about today:

  1. I am going to bed having accomplished my work goal for the day
  2. I rolled over two SmartPoints

I’ll take it and keep going tomorrow.  A little beauty found me while I was working: