Why is Right Now…

Right now, I am feeling very positive about my weight loss journey. I think my feelings about maintaining this healthy lifestyle are a strong part of my new “why”. The journey is becoming part of my self-image, taking time to care for myself is important enough for me to keep going.

Somedays I’m either one or the other, lol

Right now, I am feeling strong on my weight loss journey. I have this feeling inside that makes me want to shout, “Energy!” I am grateful that I can move around, and that I’m healing from my accident in May. If I weighed what I used to, there is no doubt in my mind that my recovery would have been much slower.

Right now, I am feeling hopeful that I will get back to Lifetime status and achieve my goal. If I weren’t hopeful, I don’t think I could keep it going. My hope for future success feels all wrapped up in dinnertime. Figuring out the big family meal is still so much effort. It’s my hope that I can find a way to manage getting dinner on the table, feed everyone, and still be able to track the meal accurately that keeps me at this. Dinnertime is difficult, but I am still hopeful I can find a solution. If I want to eat good food, then I need to invest time and effort towards the cause.

I will get dinnertime under control!

Right now, I believe in me. My confidence is high and that feels really good. I think it’s so easy to get down on myself. The times I overindulge, the times when I struggle with certain foods, the times when I decide not to be active. All of those times feel bad and it’s no good to wallow. Instead, I’m just happy to acknowledge the good – I got this.

Keep looking for beauty

I wonder, where are you on your journey? Are you on the high end, the low end, someplace in-between? If you had to describe your resolve for this work, what would it be right now?

Something to think about

Re-Examining My Why…

In November 2018 I made it to my WW goal. My motivation for getting to goal was to get my energy and confidence back. I wanted to get back that sense of “lightness” that sense of ease I used to have moving around in the world. That why was enough to sustain me and carry me through over a year of effort. I was elated.

I’m the second one to the left.

Since achieving goal, I have gone on to be a Lifetime member. In WW world that means you no longer have to pay so long as you maintain a two pound range. I was able to maintain that until August this year. Right now, I am above that two pound range and have some work to get back to my “free seat”.

Things are a bit different this go around though. Even though I’m outside my range, I still have the energy I strived for, and I do feel that same sense of confidence. My clothes fit; although some of my jeans are a little tight, which I don’t care for that very much… I am 13 pounds away from Lifetime. This time, getting back to goal has to be driven by a why, it has to be one that fits my current situation.

I don’t want my why to be driven by fear of gaining back the weight. I want my why to be a positive thing, something that will inspire me and (I hope) others. I want to learn how to be mindful, someone who understand herself better. I want to try to grow beyond this struggle. I’m not sure exactly how I will do this yet… but this is what I’m thinking. My why is a work in progress but I think I’m getting closer.

Sleep On It…

WW’s focus this week was about sleep, and now I’m thinking about how important getting quality sleep is to my weight loss journey. I think the reason I gained weight in the first place was because I would stay up late to work and wouldn’t get enough sleep. I would eat when I should have been sleeping. Here are some reasons to consider:

  1. Studies suggest that poor sleep leads to obesity.
  2. Sleep depravation increases appetite.
  3. Well rested people can stave off cravings and make healthier choices.
  4. Late night snacking can becomes a very unhealthy habit
  5. Muscle loss results in poor sleep.
  6. Sleep improves physical performance.
  7. Poor sleep over a few days may result in insulin resistance

If you want to read more about sleep, click here it’s a good read, and very informative.

A couple of things…

I couple of things I did today that in the moment was hard to do but afterward made me feel great. I bought good options when I went to the food store including: cotton candy grapes, cauliflower, snap peas, lean pork tenderloin, and chicken. Later, I wanted a snack, and I put it into my tracker first, when I saw that it would take me out of my “Blue Dot” zone, I decided to pass on it. Then I selected a lower point snack that was satisfying and I am still on track.

#Dailyjournalchallenge

It was my turn to submit a journal challenge to the group. I named it, “On Fire! Tools Spark Weight Loss & Wellness” I found reflecting on my tools to be very useful and I thought other people might too. If you would like to do the challenge… here it is::

Thank you, everyone!

Day Eight…

I decided I’m going to keep counting days until I get back to goal. I did lose a pound this week, and that is very welcome news. I worked to recapture a beginner’s mind this week. Giving up dessert was a good way to get in touch with those feelings. Insofar as my mindset, gratitude is the word of the day. It’s easy to feel grateful when things are going good isn’t it? However, while it’s always good to be grateful, it’s even more important when times are tough. It is also easy to be grateful for the big things, like my children, my husband, my family, and my friends. I am deeply grateful – they are all the most important people in the world to me, I am so blessed to have these remarkable people in my life. Sometimes, it is important to recognize the less obvious sources that make me feel grateful. These are three small things I’m grateful for:

  • the way the sun comes through my dining room windows.
  • living in a small town close to the water.
  • being able to have this time to reflect and write.

So, yes I am grateful for the biggest blessings but I also don’t want forget the small ones too. I realize that to someone reading this post, it may sound strange to write about gratitude here (since this is a blog about weight loss and maintaining weight loss) but I guess the thing is anything that is difficult to do requires a lot of energy. Energy that comes from gratitude is better than energy that comes from struggle. I aspire to keep a grateful heart no matter what comes my way.

Break it Down…

What if today was the first day of the journey? This was a strange and unexpected thought I had as I was getting ready for the day. l was thinking about all the ambition and hope that gives me the boost to take on big work. Life is so consuming, so hectic and it’s really easy to to take my health goals for granted. Ironically, taking my health goals for granted, would be a big mistake.

When life gets hard, that’s just when I need to dig in and bring my best self to the table. Eating berries and non-fat yogurt is an act of self-love precisely because it is good for me. It’s something beautiful that I am eating to make me stronger. Going to spin class is the thing that helps me to be strong for the challenges ahead. Working together, these are the actions I can take to run into the fights that life doles out.

We fail because we forget about ourselves. Weight loss, living a healthy lifestyle is becoming a practice I keep, not a means to an end. I couldn’t have had these insights without all the experiences I have had. My perspective is earned and has been shaped by my community. The people I trust and share with on Saturday mornings, and in this virtual space.

My heart is light, and I filled with gratitude and appreciation, and that helps take on the heavy burdens that we all are given. Thank you for walking this path with me, thank you for inspiring me, thank you for helping me to see beyond myself.

Day Forty-Four…

This is what I have to say… I can do this. Even when I’m not feeling 100% I can do this. Even though sometimes it is hard to track, weigh, and measure my food I can do this. If I just take the time to think it through and reflect on why I’m doing this, I will see it’s worth it. Living in a healthier body is worth the work.  So… even though it’s been hard to do lately, I will keep at it because I am worth the effort.

So are you.

Day Twenty…

 

The day after Thanksgiving was met with a lot of enthusiasm to celebrate wellness and good health. I missed my 8:15 am spin class because it was so warm and snuggly in bed; however, I did get into the 9:30 am class, and the instructor was amazing. The class offered a high-intensity fun workout and I left the gym feeling fabulous. I am very grateful that I have found an activity that I truly enjoy. I keep thinking about Robert, a fellow #WW member, who shared a study that said people who maintain active lifestyles are more likely to maintain their weight loss. (Click here to read more)

The bagel store was hopping when I got there. I bought three bagels, hard-boiled eggs,  3/4 pound of Boars Head Ovengold Turkey, and a small vegetable cream cheese.  I still have not had a bagel because I am just not ready to give up all the points to eat one. It will happen one of these days just not today. I think if I ate all those carbs, I would crave more and in an effort to do a little post-Thanksgiving detox (as it were) today would not be the ideal day to indulge! So instead…

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3 ox BH Turkey; 1 hard-boiled egg; 2 oz cheese, vegetables, raspberries: 6sp

I really enjoyed breakfast. It’s so important for me to eat a variety of foods and that I really like my food. I could have eaten lower fat options for the cheese, but it wouldn’t taste as good to me. I’d rather spend the points on the foods I like to eat.

Word of the Day: Rise

I belong to a community of writers, (#TeachWrite) Teachers Who Write. Each day, Jennifer Laffin sends out a writing prompt into the internet and today I wanted to try my hand. She sent a little push with the Word of the Day, “Rise”.  Being a huge fan of words, I did a quick search and this what I found.

Rise Define

Words of Wisdom

So how do I take this potent word, rise, and apply it me and my experiences? I am not so bold as to think that I am where I am because of my efforts alone. No doubt, I have had to work and sacrifice to be here; however, my rise is like a wave in the ocean. I am brought up by generations of hard work, love, and devotion. Then there is that bit of luck that is thrown in that may or may not be a kiss of divine intervention. I believe in the latter because I believe that this world is more complex than we realize.

I believe the rise is fueled by the embers of a personal belief that burn brightly from within the heart. I believe there is something sacred within each of us that we must stoke with both inspiration and grace. Going into this holiday season, I hope that I may meet that challenge and give more and be more and burn brightly so that I may rise and be worthy of this beautiful life.

Day Four…

Short post today. I went over my points because we ate dinner at a local Greek restaurant and it was really good.  I went into my “weeklies” but I think it will be ok. I tracked everything and used a total of 32 SmartPoints. Now, I’m still kind of full and sleepy.

I hopeè you had a good day too. I hope that you are getting the results that you wanted. Know that fast or slow, just taking time to plan out your meals, get active, or examine your emotions is the way to take care of YOU.

So make a promise that you will do something special for yourself tomorrow. I wonder, what will it be? I plan on going to spin and going to bed earlier tomorrow. I think I’m a little sleep deprived. How will you take care of yourself tomorrow? Say, it; jot it; do it.

Day Four Hundred-Seven…

Last night, before I went to bed I was reading The Power of Habit and it turns out that researchers are very interested in willpower.  It seems that willpower is like a muscle and the more demanding the task the more depleted your stores of willpower can become. That’s why it can be hard to go for a run after work. You’ve used up all your willpower to get through answering a stack of emails and or reading some new protocol.

In the old days, a full day of professional development would have been a struggle when it comes to staying on track with my SmartPoints. There are always granola bars, candy, and sometimes cake, chips, or cookies to nosh on throughout the day. I was not tempted, not once. I did have one piece of candy (2sp) after lunch but that’s it – that’s all I wanted. My habits have become so rooted in my daily life that it doesn’t take the same amount of effort (or at least as far as today is concerned) to say no to food.

It was a full day of learning and I have lots to consider as I wind down tonight.  I’m thinking about the kind of language I use with my students. It is so important to be careful with language. Having the privilege of being part of a child’s education means that I get to be the one who cheers young readers and writers on as they learn to find their voice in the world. I get to amplify their success and honor their struggles. Learning cannot happen without some struggle. There is always a flip side: success and failure; safety and vulnerability, courage and fear. The thing is, we need both and we have to make both ok if we are going to continue to evolve into the best version of ourselves.

  • There is no success without failure so give yourself permission to fail. Fail without shame and lean in and learn more about yourself.
  •  We will never truly feel safe until we have put ourselves out there and opened ourselves up to vulnerability.  Share how you feel especially when the feelings make you feel small or unsure about who you want to be.
  • There is no way to be courageous if we don’t feel fear. Fear is the thing that makes courage so extraordinary. Do something new that you’ve never done but have always wanted to try. Grow into the person you want to be don’t just take shelter in a lesser version of yourself.

Learning and struggle are part of the journey. Whether you are learning to read and write or trying to change your habits to sustain a healthier lifestyle. Eventually, you learn and what was once a struggle is now just part of what you do, like saying “No thanks”  to candy. If you’re not there yet, it’s ok to be kind to yourself. Every single day your willpower gets a workout, life is hard sometimes. I think just acknowledging that makes it better.