Day Four Hundred-Two…

Sadly, I did not make goal:

October 13, 2018
Some images from the week: my neighbor’s house all decked out for fall; revenge of pumpkin baked goods a constant temptation of fall; a beautiful sunset I snapped during a walk with Sadie and my hubby; an early morning spin class (still proud of that); the hole in a fence a big dog like to stick out his nose and park at Sadie (they got a new fence probably saw me snap this picture).

I am feeling frustrated, and no one would understand unless they have been on this side of weight loss struggle. It’s a productive struggle though, I am improving the quality of my life, and making long-lasting changes. This is true, but this is also true – enough already! I went to the movies last night and ate an apple and some carrot sticks! It’s not as though I’ve been slacking.

So, what’s a girl to do? Turn to her friends! I went to my “workshop” this morning and it turns out I’m not the only frustrated member this week. There were at least five people who could share in my feelings of frustration. It does help to see others who are working the program and are in a similar situation.

So, I shared my feelings and then I listened.  Now I have a plan for the week:

  1. Prepare meals and foods ahead of time. Know what you’re going to eat.
  2. Track everything, if you eat it you track it no matter how big or small.
  3. Acknowledge all that you’ve accomplished and be kind to yourself.
  4. Switch up foods don’t just revert back to the same old foods.
  5. Build up meals with zero point foods around an item with points.
  6. Set an activity goal for the week, and work towards keeping it.
  7. Share how you’re feeling with others.
  8. Pay attention to your actions, think about why you do what you do.
  9. Use the “Quick Add” feature to write something that you look forward to every day.
  10. Keep looking for beauty every day no matter how busy you get.

 

This came in the mail and it was an unexpected early delivery! This was something I was looking forward to:

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Five…

No, I did not get to goal.

Progress October 6 2018

I will get there just not today.

I’m not worried, or disappointed. Well, when I first found out,  standing there next to the scale that I went up.4 pounds, I know I made a “face” but after that, I was really ok. It’s not that 1.6 pounds are going to make a difference in what I’ve accomplished or how I feel it’s just a marker of the accomplishment. It’s to say, “Yes I did this.”  That said, this is not to say this isn’t important to me.  It is really important for me to achieve this milestone.

With all the many changes to the program, I am grateful that WW understands the value of keeping Lifetime Membership because it’s something that I’ve aspired to for such a long time – years.  Just the word “Lifetime” means so much. This morning, as I attended my workshop, I listened carefully as a Lifetime member, Theresa, shared how she will always have to be mindful about her food choices. This is my truth too. My old habits are there and will never fully leave me. Last night I looked at the Klondike bars in the freezer and thought about how many points one would be. I didn’t eat it but the desire was still there. A desire that (for me) stems from living with so much stress.

Anyway, be well on the journey. Believe in yourself and know you can do this and then you will.

This is what living on plan looks like:

Day Three Hundred Eighty-Three…

A year from the month that I started my journey I am officially one pound away from goal. I almost can’t believe it. My message to you is this, power through the challenges. Sometimes you may have a perfect week and not lose an ounce or worse gain! Other weeks you may lose when you were sure you would gain, and you feel like you’re getting away with something. You cannot ever control the scale. When you understand (and believe) this the journey becomes about something greater than the numbers. It sounds so phony, but weight loss has very little to do with the scale. Next week if I don’t lose my pound, it will be ok. It will be ok because I know I eventually will lose it. This is really happening. Amazing.

Day Three Hundred Eighty-Two…

I will be donating the food in my featured image towards the Weight Watchers Good campaign. I am glad to be part of something that makes a positive contribution. As I think about my weigh-in tomorrow I am hopeful.  I am ending this week -1 Smartpoint, The point is I know what I ate this week because I tracked weighed and measured everything. That’s good news and more good news? I went to spin class today and had a fantastic ride and a nice cup of coffee afterward.

Now I’m back with the books. I’ll be posting tomorrow, I’ll let you know what happens. But before I go, I want to take a moment to appreciate how far I have come. Both of these pictures were taken at a local festival, Cow Harbor Day. They are about six years apart. I am almost at goal. If I’m up tomorrow, I am just going to power through it. I can do this and (if you really want it) so can you.

Day Three Hundred Eighty…

I wish I had more to share. For the most part, all I did was work today. I’m making progress, but I have so much more to do. I just have to keep at it.

I ate sort of sporadically  I used a total of 24 SmartPoints. I had a salad with chicken for dinner and I decided to eat half of it and use the other half for lunch tomorrow. I still have to pack my breakfast and lunch and get myself ready for the workday.

I am going through this phase where I’m not hungry and then I’m starving. I think I am waiting too long to eat between meals. I did sign up for spin again. So, maybe tomorrow is the day I actually make it there.  I’ll let you know.

Words of Wisdom

Day Three Hundred Seventy-Nine…

The day was busy, there was so much to do at work that I barely had time to eat. I ate most of my lunch on my ride home. It was not a “blue dot” day but it wasn’t a disaster. I had my basic breakfast (greek yogurt and fruit), and lunch (sandwich, fruit, 1/3 cup pistachios, cut up vegetables, mini baby-bell cheese, low-fat Triscuits). Dinner – two tacos, a chocolate graham cracker from Starbucks with a tall nonfat skinny latte. So, I used 29 Smartpoints (one over the limit). I really enjoyed the graham cracker, unlike yesterday’s sugar-free ice cream, it was a big ticket item at 7 points.

As far as activity goes, I have been signing up for (and canceling) spin class. I have not gone because of all the late nights. When it comes to spin or sleep, sleep has to win. However, I did sign up for tomorrow, and I really want to go. Fingers crossed I get what needs to be done tonight at a reasonable hour so that happens. There is still so much work for me to do so work is taking priority.  However, this is a temporary (albeit extremely demanding) situation that will eventually come to an end.

So in the meantime, I am grateful for the latte and chocolate graham I enjoyed so much. I am grateful that I took Sadie for a walk the other day. I am even grateful for washing my face before I go to bed. These may be very simple things but they help. I am learning that even though I can’t control everything that comes my way, I can always appreciate what I have. It feels good to take this moment and think about the good because I want the good to grow.

My last words for today are I am rooting for your success on your weight loss journey.  This is a day-in-day-out kind of endeavor. It’s hard to see progress sometimes, and other times you wake up and feel totally different. I am 89.2 pounds and I made this happen. You can do this too,

Day Three Hundred Seventy-Five…

This post was from yesterday… 

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I am reflecting on my week. I have taken action to keep going, even though it’s been difficult for me lately. I went to spin two times, I packed my lunch and breakfast, I tracked everything, I weighed and measured everything, I practiced mindful eating (especially when I waited too long to eat) so I didn’t just wolf down my food I tried to really show my appreciation for having food to eat. I helped a friend who was struggling by going through a hard time on her weight loss journey (I went through the three steps for taking a strategic stance for weight loss and they worked Day 374)!

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So… if my results do not show up in numbers this week how will I feel?  I have decided this stall before goal is like a test. How much do I want to get to goal? I really want to get there, as much as I have since the beginning. Once in a while, I will also really want to eat two scoops of gelato,  I can have both – the gelato and goal I just have to understand my choices at the moment. There will be times when health issues may interfere with weight loss, that’s life. There will be weeks like I had this one that will be extraordinarily stressful, that’s life too. This is not easy, and that’s why a lot of people give up.

I’m not going to give up, and maybe I’m thinking about goal as a destination when it’s really the path. In some ways, I’m already there because my goal was to change my lifestyle I’ve definitely done that I live my life completely differently when it comes to food.  Even though I (really really) want to see a particular number on the scale, the number itself is really secondary. I’ll let you know.

 

Day Three Hundred Seventy-Three…

September 2018

This is my word for September. I’m learning a lot about my limits this month. I am not able to write a long post but I can tell you, I have not turned to food in an attempt to alleviate my stress. I am very proud of that. I am booked to go to spin class tomorrow morning and that is another victory. I just have to keep my head down and keep going. Believe it, it will happen.

Day Three Hundred Seventy…

Today was another crazy work day! And tomorrow is going to be another. There is no time for me right now.  I can’t imagine why I did this to myself. Oh yeah… money. Ok, so I’m in the thick of it right now.

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I used all my points today but I did make some very good food choices. For breakfast, I had nonfat Greek yogurt and berries and banana. A few hours later I had some vegetable sticks and a cheese stick as a mid-morning snack. For lunch, I had one cup of three bean chili with cheese and diced tomato on top. Later, I had a small sweet potato with 7 grams of butter (yup I weighed the butter) as a late afternoon snack For dinner,. I ate a cup of rice with black beans and cilantro and 5 oz of turkey kielbasa.  For dessert, I ate two sugar-free dark chocolate jellos (yeah, I probably only needed one but I wanted two) with fat-free whipped cream. As I look back on my day I could’ve eaten less cheese but either way, I would say it was a good day on plan.

I’m turning in because I’m tired. I did do my little nighttime ritual, washing my face with my favorite soap, applying my facial cream, and (of course) flossing and brushing my teeth. These small acts are a way to practice a little self-care amidst my professional chaos. I am so grateful to be where I am right now even though I’m not at goal yet. Every day I remind myself that I can do this. I tell myself every small step gets me closer to goal. I can do this, and so can you.