One Quarter Cup of Kindness…

I was proud of myself for not eating candy at professional development, tonight. I said it aloud a couple of times, “I’m not eating any candy.” I left for home (two hours after the end of my school day). I ate my apple on my drive home, and when I arrived had dinner in the crock pot all ready to go. These were all the good choices I made.

Well… I just ate a little more than 1/4 cup of chocolate chips. How bad can it be? Pretty bad… 16 SmartPoints. The taste of chocolate still lingers, and I know this decision will have an impact on my weight loss this week. Maybe I should have eaten a piece of candy before, but I really didn’t want to, I want to reach my goal. Now I feel a little too full, and a bit disappointed. This blog is my place for reflection and truth so there it is for all of you to read.

The good news is, I don’t have to be perfect to be successful on my weight loss journey. Perfection is for sleeping babies, rolling landscapes, and a nice hot cup of coffee. My weight loss journey is about reflection, practice and personal growth. So after I hit “Publish” I will head into the kitchen pour myself a nice big glass of water and initiate a “do over!” I will forgive myself for a poor choice, one that takes me farther from my goal. Then after that, I will just add the decision to forgive and move on over to another good choice for today.

A Day Well Done…

I intended to write a longer post than the one you’re about to read. I had a great day on plan:

I created a little gift to share so we can all start 2020 out with some daily goals that will help us take action to make meaningful change. I hand wrote the list for my WW community, and I created an online version to share here. The online version has links to articles, videos, and tools. I hope you enjoy it:

More tomorrow readers, may we all reach goal in 2020!

My One Little Word. What’s yours?

Auld Lang Syne…

What does that song even mean? Whether old acquaintances should or should not be forgotten, most likely depends on who you’re thinking about I guess. I was thinking about my weight loss journey in this frame. Whether my weight loss journey one to be forgotten or remembered depends on my frame of mind. Lately, it’s be a rough road for me. This is hard to do all the time, and it’s especially difficult during stressful times. That is just the truth.

But I hold my weight loss journey close to my heart, and even when I falter, I believe I can turn it around. I will always choose to believe in me. There are lots of things I can do to help myself along the way. Here is what I’ve done today:

  1. I got seven hours of sleep last night.
  2. I went to 5:15 am spin class this morning.
  3. My kitchen is stocked with healthy food options.
  4. My inner voice is speaking to me with both honesty & kindness.
  5. I am writing this post to reach out and connect and share.

Even though 2019 is ending with some difficulty I am hopeful for 2020. The thing is, I want to remind myself that there are ups and downs along the way, and I expect them I won’t be surprised when they show up. In the meantime, I can look for ways to support myself. Sometimes it’s just a friendly face, a word of encouragement, a show of kindness. Other times it’s knowing I can be that person for someone else.

We all have the power to change ourselves, and make a positive impact on our own lives. Be brave, be bold and believe you can do this and you will. I believe in me, I can do this. So can you. Happy New Year readers! See you next year.

This song took us all into a cool down from 5:15 am spin. West Virginia isn’t home, but I love the sentiment and it felt right this morning. I left class singing.

Boo, Gobble, Ho…

The holidays are extremely challenging when it comes to weight loss efforts. There is so much great food around, that staying on plan becomes difficult. Right now, in my kitchen there is a lovely apple pie and sitting in my freezer is a full tub of creamy full-fat vanilla ice cream. I am going to a family function tomorrow and this is my contribution ( I’m also bringing fresh fruit salad).

Something is working though, because I am down another 1.4 pounds! This is the fourth week in a row that I have gone down on the scale. Down, during a time of year when I usually go up. My WW coach refers to this time of year as the Bermuda Triangle, the time between Halloween, Thanksgiving, and December Holidays. So actually experiencing success right now is especially sweet.

I’m doing this, 100% I’m in it to get results and it’s working, and that’s just what I wanted this year.

Mind Over Cookies…

Since it’s the day before holiday recess, I attended a nice festive breakfast during a meeting today. There was a great healthy option, Fage Fat Free Greek Yogurt with a nice fruit salad. It was really delicious. One of my friends had baked homemade cookies, and I decided that I would eat three (seriously they were tiny bite sized cookies). They were also delightful. Then I looked across the table at some bakery cookies that were cut up into wedges. Before I knew it, I kept looking at them, and all of a sudden I recognized what was happening, the want was back!

The only difference is something amazing happened, once I recognized it – it was quickly diminished. It was kind of freakish, it just went away. Maybe I’ve learned something extremely helpful through my challenging day yesterday. Not only didn’t I eat more cookies I said, “No thank you” to all of these foods:

I am thinking about my WW workshop tomorrow. I did not make my goal to get more sleep and activity. I think my time away from school will help me get my activity mojo going. I’m not giving up on that goal, I just need some more time to make it happen. I do think I’ll go down on the scale, but if I don’t I will try not to be discouraged because really, I’m proud of myself either way.

The Want…

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to get through that moment of, “I want..” It doesn’t matter what the “want” is, not really, the real problem is the feeling that comes with it. When the “want” comes on, it feels feels bigger and stronger than me. This happened to me tonight, I had that frustrating pull of “I want some candy.” I have candy in the house, and I kept thinking about it. I was able to keep it together until the moment passed.

Now that I am released from my desire to eat candy, really that sounds crazy, what is next? How do I learn from this experience? I think now that I fully lived in the moment of “want”, that I named it and let myself acknowledge its power – I can recognize it when it comes around again. This will happen again, and if I expect it maybe it will be easier next time. Maybe this is the thing I have to learn to get over my hump and make it back to goal.

So if you’re reading this post, and anything rings true with your own experiences, you know you are not alone. If you are feeling challenged, or if you are really struggling, it’s not your fault. This is hard, but your “why” is strong enough, you can do it.

Happy to be Home…

It was a weird day. I was starving and I ate my sandwich by 9:30 in the morning! I knew that decision had potential for trouble, but the day got very busy and I managed to pace myself with the rest of my lunch. Then after a quick drop-in at Stop and Shop, I cooked some turkey chili and quinoa. It was ok, and even better than that – it was quick and easy.

The holidays are making their way closer and closer and I’m feeling it. In my mind, I imagine what I want to look like, how I want to feel, and I know that I probably won’t be there. I’m not down on myself, I’m proud of my accomplishments. I am maintaining significant weight loss, and I am not that far from Lifetime. However, part of me is bothered that I allowed myself to lose my focus and be in this position. I have to keep reminding myself that this is a process and I’m learning as I go.

Spin at 5:15 am tomorrow, so I’m off to bed. Keep positive, be happy with yourself where you are right now. I promise I’m going to try to do the same.

A Little Goal Goes a Long Way..

Accomplishing a goal feels amazing! Today I did just that – 14 days no desserts, cookies, or sweets. It feels really good to know that I set a goal and achieved it. It’s especially true when I’m working on a bigger goal – getting back to Lifetime status.

Day 14! I did it!

A little goal goes a long way. The new goal is get to bed earlier and to get activity. I didn’t do that today… but I’ll try again tomorrow. Resilience, persistence, optimism, and patients. I’ll get there.

Hello Halo…

We had professional development today. With professional development comes snacks. The holidays are getting closer, the pressure is on, and everywhere I look I see some degree of challenge. Despite all of this, I am still on plan, and here are some great choices I made today:

  1. I drank lots of water.
  2. I snacked on halos instead of candy.
  3. I ordered a salad and got my salad dressing on the side.
  4. I packed a healthy lunch for tomorrow.
  5. I prepped vegetables to have on hand in the refrigerator.
  6. I remembered to breathe when I was feeling stressed.
  7. I monitored internal hunger cues today.
  8. I signed up for a spin class for tomorrow.
  9. I selected fruit instead of cake for dessert.
  10. I accepted a complement about my weight loss.

A word of advice, we don’t always have to live in the struggle. We can take a break from all that and just count all the good decisions we make along the way. Sometimes it’s just nice to acknowledge the good stuff.

Day 13 in the books!

Everyone Needs Love…

There were some landmines today with my Sugar Free challenge. We went to my favorite bakery and I didn’t get a cookie. I looked at them from the other side of the glass and some people did eat them. Not me, and I’m happy about that accomplishment. The next landmine? When I was at Trader Joe’s they were giving away little slices of lemon cake. It looked goo, but I just said, “I can’t, my sugar free challenge is still going on.” So I kept my resolve not once but twice.

Day 12

I’m going to start my activity and sleep challenge. I want to get at least three days of activity in for the week, and I want to go to bed each night no later than 10:30 pm or 9:30 pm (if I’m planning to get some activity before work). This would be a good 6 – 7 hours of quality sleep. I think that’s just what I need consistent quality sleep and some activity that will help give me that extra boost.

Well, readers, I think I’m fading. I have to say, “Good night. I’ll see you in the morning. :