I was reading my notes from past WW meetings. It’s very motivating to read about others’ success stories. Some members lost five pounds their first week, what a great way to grow momentum. Other members are feeling very motivated by the app and accumulating Wellness Wins points. While other members find themselves eating in more thoughtful and strategic ways. All of these reflections are seeds for changing habits around food. Reading my notes was the perfect midweek boost I need to stay focused on why I’m doing this.
I can control “My Why” that is my choice. I cannot control life. Life will come at me from every angle. When times get tough I need to separate the unpleasantness from the reality that food is not the answer. I can do this I believe it and that has changed the journey.
I’m in day three of my week (according to WW) and I am determined to get closer to goal this time around:
- My breakfast and lunch are packed and tracked for tomorrow.
- Tracking all my foods – check!
- “Jennifer, you are doing great!”
- I’m eating flounder, vegetable patties, rainbow carrots, and dark chocolate.
- Building a meal around a higher SmartPoint value with zero point foods – check!
- On target with my activity goal (I go to spin tomorrow morning).
- Does blogging count? I am sharing how I feel through my posts.
- Driving home, I was thinking about how I had started a habit of saving a portion of my lunch and snacking on it in the car. I don’t know if this is good or bad I’m just aware of it.
- Saturday I looked forward to my new candle. Sunday I looked forward to getting my eyebrows done. Monday hands down pajamas 🙂
- Beauty: I think my featured image is a beautiful display. Over the weekend I cleaned my curio and now I’m enjoying looking at it.
This is a journey of self-reflection, determination, and most of all kindness. Losing weight, changing how I deal with food, and finding time to get active is all challenging. This is especially true when life is so busy. I’m worth the effort and if this is a goal you want for yourself you are worth the effort too.
Today was a successful day on plan – go me! I prepped, packed, and tracked breakfast, lunch, and snacks for tomorrow. I continue to track any foods I eat. Insofar as getting more variety in the foods, I’m eating today was a small win there too. We had flounder and it was terrific:
Fish fry (very little oil) and homemade french fries cooked in the air fryer. It was very delicious!
I went to spin class and that’s a step in the right direction when it comes to my weight loss journey. I did a lot of other things too but it’s late and I have to keep this post brief. My point today is that even though I still have a lot going on I’m completely engaged with my weight loss efforts. More tomorrow.
I did it. I made it to the gym and I’m proud of that. Now, it’s late and I’m tired. I spent my night working away and I’m really glad it’s Friday tomorrow. I had a “blue dot” day. I just don’t know if this is my week to get to goal. I’m sure taking my time towards the end of this part of the journey. We shall see.
Two nice things…
We took Sadie for a walk:
I had wild salmon for dinner and it was delicious. Another good thing, I packed and pre-tracked my lunch and breakfast for tomorrow.
The plan is to go to bed early, I am determined to wake up and go to spin in the morning. Plus I really do need a good night’s sleep, I was tired today and it’s hard to teach when you’re tired. Getting enough rest is part of the journey to good health and wellbeing and it’s something that I tend to neglect.
Well, I just yawned as if on cue with this post! More tomorrow…
Tonight’s post is going to be even shorter than last nights because I am deliriously tired. However, there are TWO things I can celebrate about today:
- I am going to bed having accomplished my work goal for the day
- I rolled over two SmartPoints
I’ll take it and keep going tomorrow. A little beauty found me while I was working:
Food and memories are so deeply intertwined for me. I think of family dinners, holidays, and visiting relatives. I think of love and belonging when I think about food. I think of my little Italian Nanny, and my mother working all day in the kitchen to prepare the most delicious meals. Eggplant parmesan, escarole and beans, and pasta fagioli. Don’t even get me started on the pork sauce. Then there was the good sausage and Italian bread straight outta’ Brooklyn! I think of our kitchen table set for family and good times. It’s no wonder that food is so comforting.
Everything looked good to me.
These cookies are a guilty pleasure.
These looked yummy.
Even though I know these would be too sweet they were appealing.
I love pumpkin.
This is what I left with. A small win!
This blog is a place for the truth, and the truth is I am an emotional eater. The rational side of my brain says, “It’s just food.” The emotional side of my brain says, “Sweet relief! Yes, let me have another scoop of ice cream please.” However, the comfort is only temporary and is almost always followed with some regret. Since I began my journey, I am learning how to cope with emotions for what they are, and to deal with them without trying to distract myself with food. Somedays it is very hard to do, while other days it’s not an issue at all. It’s the self-awareness that I want to celebrate, getting to this point of really recognizing what has held me back in the past from achieving long-lasting weight loss.
Lovely outside my gym.
I’m in this for life, and that means I have to continue to work on this part of me until I really understand what it is and why it happens. It means knowing my triggers, and being more present. When I do go on “autopilot” and old habits creep back in, recognizing it and taking action. This stuff isn’t easy, and I think that’s why so many people give up on weight loss.
Just remember, it’s never too late for a “do over.” There is no shame in a fresh start even if it is every day or even every hour of the day. You are enough, and so am I we can do this, it just takes time.
No, I did not get to goal.
I will get there just not today.
I’m not worried, or disappointed. Well, when I first found out, standing there next to the scale that I went up.4 pounds, I know I made a “face” but after that, I was really ok. It’s not that 1.6 pounds are going to make a difference in what I’ve accomplished or how I feel it’s just a marker of the accomplishment. It’s to say, “Yes I did this.” That said, this is not to say this isn’t important to me. It is really important for me to achieve this milestone.
With all the many changes to the program, I am grateful that WW understands the value of keeping Lifetime Membership because it’s something that I’ve aspired to for such a long time – years. Just the word “Lifetime” means so much. This morning, as I attended my workshop, I listened carefully as a Lifetime member, Theresa, shared how she will always have to be mindful about her food choices. This is my truth too. My old habits are there and will never fully leave me. Last night I looked at the Klondike bars in the freezer and thought about how many points one would be. I didn’t eat it but the desire was still there. A desire that (for me) stems from living with so much stress.
Anyway, be well on the journey. Believe in yourself and know you can do this and then you will.
This is what living on plan looks like:
My husband and I walked around Town Hall while our son attended Youth Court. It was so nice to just appreciate some beauty.
I wonder if this is the week that I get to goal. We shall see on Saturday… Spin class tomorrow at 5:15 so I am off to sleep. More tomorrow.
My featured image is from September 2017. Back at the start of my earnest pursuit to get to goal. I think it’s so beautiful and that makes me happy. Right now thunder just sounded as if a giant egg is being cracked across the sky. The rain is pouring from the sky and I am safe in my room reflecting about my day.
I went to the food store after a late day at work and saw a WW member there. She looked great, and it always lifts my spirit when I see my “people” outside of our meeting, which we now refer to as our workshop. The changes to WW are new and new is a bit scary. There are parts of it that I like such as the addition of MIndspace. I like the idea of having a tool that can help me to refocus.
I had a special teaching moment today. I watched a little boy put together a sentence and read it. This may seem like a small thing but it’s not. What seems to be effortless for one person is a mighty struggle for someone else. I guess my last words for today are, keep it all in perspective. You can do this.