Every day is a chance to change my life for the better. I believe it is never too late for positive change. Whether that change comes in the form of inner enlightenment or an awakening to the perspectives of others – it all counts. I hope I never stop learning and aspiring to be my best self. In terms of my weight loss journey, here are some choices I made today that are going to help me get closer to my goals:
What are you doing to be your best self? How are you helping yourself to rise so you will meet the challenges you’ve set? Finding ways to stay engaged and to learn from others is a good start. My friend, Kathleen suggested a great podcast: @HalfSizeMe https://www.halfsizeme.com/category/podcast/ I listened this morning and felt very validated. Check it out.
If you are reading this and are like, “Oh no, day one again? I feel so bad for her, she is really struggling.” then I promise you – you are missing the point. Even though it is a struggle right now, this is not about the struggle. It is about the deep need to get back to goal. I am doing the work to to get my healthy lifestyle back in balance. Losing weight, committing to a healthy lifestyle is something that requires ongoing dedication and care. On its surface it doesn’t seem like it should be such a big deal. The truth is for many people it isn’t, they are able to manage this part of their lives with ease. Not me, I am still have a lot to learn.
In the spirit of learning, I participated in Oprah’s Your Life in Focus: A Vision Forward this morning. It was helpful, and I took quite a lot with me, Here are some of the words of wisdom I plan on keeping in my back pocket as I get back on track:
“In this moment, I am well.”
“Commitment is a daily thing.”
“To act with consistency. and intentionality is the way.”
“I will give to myself then give to others.”
“Will this choice move me forward?”
“I have decided to make a change.”
“Name it (your goals) be specific.”
“When somebody who has loved you, given birth to you, seeded you passes, their spirit abides with your spirit. If you allow yourself to stay open you have an angel you call by name.”
Today was a great day on plan. I’m rolling over points and feel good about it. I hope you are finding your way on your weight loss journey, and are feeling proud of what you’ve been able to do for yourself. Every positive choice you make for yourself is a victory for the good. Don’t be discouraged, keep at it, just think, I can do this, and eventually you will achieve your goals.
Weight loss involves an ongoing interior dialogue. Sometimes that “self-talk” is helpful, and sometimes, it isn’t What can be done with an unhelpful thought? Defusing those thoughts so they don’t ruin my progress is really important and was the topic o today’s WW workshop. Here is what I am going to do:
Pay attention to what I am thinking. Like right now there is a piece of chocolate in the kitchen that is 4 SmartPoints. I don’t have anymore SmartPoints for the day, But I keep thinking about it and then thinking, if I eat that piece of chocolate I will probably start snacking on other things too. I just won’t track those things.
How is that thought making me feel? Thinking about eating that candy, not tracking it, and possibly snacking on other food is very upsetting. This thought makes me feel small and weak. It makes me feel like I am losing control and I will fail at this. I don’t want to eat that piece of chocolate but I probably will.
Interrogate the thought and the feelings it evokes: Is this thought true? No, it doesn’t have to be true. I can decide not eat that chocolate. Or even if I did eat it, it doesn’t mean I have to lose control, not track the foods I eat. None that is true. I’m not even hungry.
What do I really want? I really want to get back to goal. The candy is there for another day when I have more SmartPoints or when I don’t feel like eating will trigger a snack attack.
My version of the WW strategy is a little different but it is very effective. It helped to push me through this moment, it really helped. If you find yourself dealing with some kind of nagging inner dialogue, try this it works.
Some good news, I lost 5.9 pounds this week. It was a big win for me and to be honest I needed a big loss to help me gain some momentum. Let’s all have a great week.
The word “glimpse” is tugging at my thoughts today. Not as a noun but as a verb: to see or perceive briefly or partially. A noun is fixed but a verb moves. A verb indicates action, a verb is life in the motion. A glimpse can be easily dismissed because they happen so quickly; however, when people are fully present in their actions a glimpse can be a cause for celebration. I wonder about all the people who are on a weight loss journey like me, what glimpses are they catching along the way?
In the mornings when I wake up, I catch a glimpse of that familiar energy that came from the many days of living a healthy lifestyle. My head is clear, I am just the tiniest bit hungry, and I feel ready to take on the day. In that way, that momentary perception that could be easily overlooked, but when I catch it, it encourages me to keep going.
I am going to celebrate the small victories and just say that I am hopeful for tomorrow’s weigh-in.
Living a healthy lifestyle in quarantine is hard and at this point I feel a little bit like the comeback kid. I was down for the count and now I have renewed energy to keep at it. I am in the midst of pulling myself out of my funk and into a good routine. That’s amazing, and I don’t take it for granted. Yet a nagging question persists, what am I learning from all of this? If I am not learning why this happens I am missing the point.
What am I learning?
I have the power to decide to change my behavior
I have the knowledge and tools to help myself live a healthy life
There are many people in my life who want to see me succeed
Caring for myself is not selfish it is necessary
Asking for help is a sign of personal strength
Having a community share my ups and downs keeps me grounded
If you are trying to improve your health, no matter where you are on that journey, GOOD FOR YOU! Treat yourself with kindness and self-care because there is no one in the world like you. You are irreplaceable, you are special, the world needs you. We are all a work in process and we need each other more than we know.
Yes! Almost through an entire week back on plan. Here is my day so far:
Do you like the little fire emoji for my 5 day streak? It reminds me of the old days when WW gave out BRAVO stickers. Being back on track on WW has a big impact on me. Food tastes better, I am more intentional, I am motivated to move more. It’s incredible. Complacency must be the root cause for the disconnect with my weight loss journey.
What made me complacent though? I suspect it is because I stopped putting myself first. Man just writing that is hard because as a wife and mother it sounds selfish. Putting myself first doesn’t mean I don’t love my children or my husband, it means I love me TOO. It is so easy to get caught up in bad news of the world. It is so easy to get pulled into personal drama. It is so easy to put myself last on the list when living and working from home makes me physically available to everyone else. These are the reasons, I fear, that is what made me gain back some of the 93 pounds I lost.
I hope I learn this lesson for real this time. Remember, hope is one of my “strength” words. If you find yourself in a similar situation, say it with me:
“I am worthy of self-care. I love me TOO. Everything I am doing for myself will also benefit the people I love the most in this world. I believe in me.”
I am just a traveler like you on a weight loss journey
Gratitude is at the heart of everything today. Catching my rhythm on my weight loss journey, being able to ride my bicycle, having healthy food available, a safe home to live in, a family to love, meaningful work. All of this is so easy to take for granted, when really it is all a gift. I just don’t know why I forget that sometimes.
Just like a switch that is flipped, a light comes on, and I can see what it is I need to do to be successful on my weight loss journey. It is amazing to me. Why does the switch gets flipped either way? I know that when I begin to feel overwhelmed, I shut down. and then I look for comfort food. Not being able to go spin class presents a problem too because spin class alleviates my stress levels. Put them together, bam the switch goes off and I’m standing in a dark room eating pop tarts from a foil bag.
How does the switch flip back up? The answer to that is more elusive. I’m not sure how I manage to get back on track. Habit change is built around belief, and I guess I just remember that I believe I can change, I do the things that I know work, and I reflect on everything. Plus, a little good news never hurts, big shout outs to my nephew Zachary who fixed my bike for me! You’re the best Zach! I have been getting good workouts and that makes me feel so much better.
I am so grateful that my healthy habits have flipped towards the light. it is day three and I am feeling in control and I am already getting good results. This phase is another hurdle in my weight loss journey. If you need a little support, let me know what’s going on. Sometimes it helps just to talk it out.