There were some landmines today with my Sugar Free challenge. We went to my favorite bakery and I didn’t get a cookie. I looked at them from the other side of the glass and some people did eat them. Not me, and I’m happy about that accomplishment. The next landmine? When I was at Trader Joe’s they were giving away little slices of lemon cake. It looked goo, but I just said, “I can’t, my sugar free challenge is still going on.” So I kept my resolve not once but twice.
I’m going to start my activity and sleep challenge. I want to get at least three days of activity in for the week, and I want to go to bed each night no later than 10:30 pm or 9:30 pm (if I’m planning to get some activity before work). This would be a good 6 – 7 hours of quality sleep. I think that’s just what I need consistent quality sleep and some activity that will help give me that extra boost.
Well, readers, I think I’m fading. I have to say, “Good night. I’ll see you in the morning. :
I lost 1 pound this week! This is a huge accomplishment and I am happy to be heading back towards Lifetime status. Any challenge in life is meant to change us. So I have to ask myself, What are you learning on your way back to goal? This what I’m thinking about:
No matter how great I am doing, I will never be done with this, and I need to expect struggle as well as success along the way.
Lasting weight loss stems from healthy food choices, regular activity, and a growth mindset believing I can learn and change.
There is no one “right way” to do this well and I can work on being flexible because how I do it will change over time.
Workshop gave me a lot to think about today. Many people shared about dealing with all the parties, holiday visits, and cookie swaps. We celebrated each other as we shared the choices we made, so we remained on plan:
Grilled chicken instead of a hamburger
Eating at home prior to the party so she’s not famished.
An apple instead of ice cream.
Some grapes instead of cookies.
Drinking water instead of wine.
I could understand it if when other people read this list they might be thinking, “Oh that’s so sad. These people are missing out on the fun.” Untrue. I say amazing! These people had fun, and made intentional choices so they may accomplish their goals. That is to be admired not pitied. It also would be just fine if someone decided to eat cookies instead of grapes. WW is teaching us how to live our lives in the real world, lose weight, and be healthier. So keep at this, take some time to tinker with the program whether you’re “Green” “Blue” or “Purple” see what foods satisfy you. Be really interested in you and your progress. You can do it!
I was a little hungry at certain points in the day today. I did have a nice selection of good healthy snacks and that was helpful. I brought vegetable sticks, grapes, and halos. Then when I came home I actually had to have a bowl of Corn Flakes with 1/4 cup fat free milk. I know because I weighed and measured my portions.
For me, this is what life-long weight loss looks like.
On Friday, during professional development, I used a quote from one of my favorite educator/authors, Vicki Vinton to spark some discussion:
If we’re serious about helping students become independent readers who seek to understand through their own agency, we have to be willing to release responsibility before we’re absolutely sure they can do it on their own.”
One insightful teacher said, “This is so true. It’s kind of like teaching your kid to drive. You have to let them go even though you’re not really sure they can do it yet.” My featured image is actually from yesterday. My son was driving. Fear smothers growth, and while it’s difficult to give up control it’s really essential.
I started thinking about control in terms of my weight loss journey. There really is a give and take. I am learning how to face that it’s not possible for me to control every single thing and to be ok with that. Yesterday, I went over my SmartPoints balance and even though that wasn’t the plan it’s still ok. I had pizza for lunch and went to the movies and then I ate some popcorn and that did it. Life is going to happen along the way and that means some spontaneous decision making will follow. That is why WW gives us those extra points. If I had pulled myself back from indulging in those moments this journey will become too stringent for me. I had fun going out with my sister for lunch, I enjoyed being at the movies with my husband. In those moments food was part of the experiences. Maybe another day I would have eaten a salad at the restaurant or maybe the movie popcorn wouldn’t have appealed to me. Maybe, but I wanted pizza and popcorn yesterday. And that’s ok.
So many of us are just so hard on ourselves. I know I’ve made up rules like, I am going to rollover four SmartPoints for the next week each day. Then if for some reason or another that doesn’t happen and I feel so defeated. Even though, I generally use kind words to myself and forgive my own failures and appreciate my own stores of resilience – negativity can still seep in.
When I think about control I really also have to think about choice. My choices do reveal my sense of control. I decided what I would or would not do yesterday. I did that, it wasn’t the food taking over. For me (and please this is just from my own lived experiences) having a history of being significantly overweight comes with some feeling of guilt and shame. It’s my sad sad truth and I have to deal with that. Yesterday, I used 10 extra SmartPoints by the close of the day, and none of those points were used on sugar by the way – so “Day 4” did go as planned. Letting go of my fear that I’m failing at this, is a huge victory. Even after all this time I’m still learning this lesson.
I had a great day on plan. It’s the first great day in a long while. It’s been a total of fourteen days since I wrote my last post and tonight I am writing from my heart. My weight loss journey is very important to me it has given me both confidence and energy. It has shown me that I can overcome obstacles and reclaim my personal sense of power. Since I’ve been on this journey, I have made important self-discoveries because writing these posts has pushed me to be more reflective. I am extremely grateful.
Even with all of these positive rewards, this is still hard. If you find yourself in a similar spot (thinking this is too hard) I hope you will give yourself the time and space you need to reengage with your weight loss efforts. You can do this, don’t forget that because it’s the truth. Thank you for reading. More tomorrow…
I have three days of posts to share. I was working on each and never got them out so get ready for some reading lol…
We went into NYC tonight and had a great time. I am guilty of taking the city for granted because it’s right here in my backyard. It was a gorgeous night and the world was full of vibrant color and sounds:
We went out to eat, I had a salad, but it was loaded with dressing. It would have been better to have a burger and not eat the whole bun. Lately, I think I’ve been eating more than I need, and this is something to take seriously.
One very positive thing to share, as we walked through the city, I felt as vibrant as the city itself. I could get around easily and felt in touch with my own sense of physical power. This was a fantastic feeling, a feeling that (in part) is possible because of my dramatic weight loss. I must try never to forget how far I’ve come.
Down another 2.2! Woo! Hoo! I just want to enjoy this moment. It feels good to see results when I’m putting in so much effort. Moments like these make me feel capable, and in control. For every positive there is a negative. Moments are funny because while the good ones seem to go so quickly, the hard ones seem enteral.
Sometimes a moment can seem like everything. The pull of wanting something can consume me, it’s like I want this… cookie, bread, pasta, or whatever it is and I lose perspective. My perspective becomes very narrow, and I think, I want it and that’s all there is. Then interior dialogue pipes up and begins to rationalize as if I’m playing, Let’s Make a Deal. Sometimes, the trajectory of a day lays in the balance of a single moment.
The Power of a Pause…
Learning how to pause, and think through a momentary craving or impulse is a big step on the journey. I believe learning how to do this is the work ahead of me now. While I’m not there yet, I am aware of the need to get there and that’s a good beginning.
You know when friends and family post old pictures on Facebook? Flashback Friday! they’ll write. I always pause to look at those posts. Their faces are younger, I see cute babies who have since grown, first cars, and childhood homes. Flashback Friday, gives us all a glimpse to remind, or imagine, what each other’s past was like. I think we all long to share our stories.
We share our stories in pictures. The problem with pictures, is that they are two dimensional. They only hint at the depth of our real lives. I could easily post a Flashback Friday pic that would tell my weight loss story. You would see the physical change. However, it would leave out the really important stuff and it would make it look easy.
As I write this post, it occurs to me that I am coming out of a… slump? Let’s call it that, this period of gaining and losing and gaining again. This fluctuation didn’t change my clothing size, so it would be hard to detect in pictures. However, it was a pivotal period I could have gone either way. I learned something important about myself, I learned to fully believe in my personal power. Whatever lever in my brain that needed fall, has, and now I actually feel my healthier habits taking over I’ve turned things around.
This period is just another chapter in my weight loss story. It’s important to look back at it and to try to reflect and learn what I can. I can use that information to help me grow. The journey is really about enlightenment, weight loss just comes with it. So, if you’re struggling my friend, try to look at it like just another chapter in your weight loss story. Look at this period as a chance to learn more about you. You can do this.
Night Owl, that is the name of my ring tone. It’s kind of a funny name for an early morning alarm, now that I think of it. Early morning means 4:20 am this morning. Wake up! it burst open into the quiet dark, I rolled over, sheets twisted around my torso and tapped it to silence. Darkness and silence filled the void again and I thought quickly, Just get up…
I went to spin class before work today and (to me) it was so worth the early morning wake up. Activity helps me to maintain weight loss and it also just makes me feel good. What activity makes you feel good? Think about it and try to figure out a way to make that activity part of your life. If you’re not sure, make a goal to try out different activities until you find something you really like.
There is nothing exciting about portion control. Most people already know that monitoring portion sizes is just common sense if you want to lose weight. Absolutely, it can be tedious to weigh and measure food every day. It can be especially hard to do if you’re really hungry. Just as it is with brushing your teeth, or waiting in line, monitoring portion sizes is a necessary albeit mundane thing.
Why pick this topic? Well, for one thing it’s on my checklist, it’s actually one of the top three habits that I attribute my weight loss success to. Taking the time to weigh and measure does a few important things for me (besides helping me to lose/maintain weight loss):
The accuracy of my portion sizes gives me a sense of control.
Taking just a minute or two to perform this task honors my goals.
It trains my brain to recognize what an accurate portion looks like.
Every Day Health published an article, 10 Easy Portion Control Tricks that was a useful read as I thought about this post. Here are some new strategies I’m planning on trying:
Try using smaller dishes
Adding milk first before pouring my coffee (that may be hard)
Asking for a take home box and halving my dinner portion while eating out
I am starting to think that maybe part of this journey is to find joy in the mundane habits that continue to contribute towards my health and wellness goals. Maybe it’s good to just slow down and find some deep appreciation for the simple things. I wonder if this makes sense to you. No matter what you’re thinking, I wish is that you believe you can do this, know that even if it’s hard, you can do it.
Just for fun…
Have you heard of something called, “Slow TV”? Apparently, this is huge in Norway. It is hours of TV devoted to things like knitting, train rides, and shearing sheep. Check it out I find it strangely compelling: