I did great today. Tracking, making good choices, getting activity. It was a very busy day, and I find myself feeling exhausted. I thought about going to bed and skipping my post, but I decided I could do better. So here I am writing and reflecting.
I was extremely hungry by the time I ate dinner, but I kept it together and kept myself to a portion size. Later, I had a cup of Half Naked popcorn and a frozen banana. Frozen fruit is a great alternative to a high SmartPoint dessert.
I’m good. I hope you are as well. Keep going, keep believing. Remember, most times, believing comes before achieving.
It’s funny how the days worked out, but Day 21 is also the day that we celebrated our daughter’s 21st Birthday. Their official birthday is really June 24th but we are close enough. The party went over as a complete success. They had a great time, our families and neighbors all came to help us celebrate. It was a good day.
Lately, I’ve been watching the TV show, This is Us, on Hulu. I think the appeal for this show is that at its heart, it is all about longing and belonging and a search for clarity. Every character is able to be fully articulate in the important moments. I wish I could do that, maybe that’s why I enjoy writing, I can reread my words in the attempt to capture my important moments. In the show, they use flashbacks to revisit the characters’ past in perfect detail. I wish I could do that too. I wish I could remember my daughters’ first birthday, with that kind of clarity, when my, and my husband’s parents were there. My dad was so sick, and I was just so grateful to have him there. We were on borrowed time, and he didn’t stay long but he was there.
Family events are emotional – whether it’s happiness or sadness it’s all still emotion. It’s so easy to overdo it with the food at these kinds of events. I used 30 SmartPoints for the day, and I feel good about that. I’m working my program, and no matter what my results on the scale are, I will know I did my best. Keep believing and eventually success will catch up.
Being open to the journey means that I am eager to find ways to participate in the process. I have been on this journey in earnest since September 2017, that is a very long time. How do I keep making this fresh? For one thing, I think it is very important maintain a “beginner’s mind”. I’ve written about this concept before. Having a beginner’s mind means lifting preconceptions about what to expect when approaching… well, anything. It is especially helpful, when it comes to weight loss, or maintenance.
So, how can I keep it fresh this week? I asked myself a question, What if I eat more whole foods? How would that impact my hunger levels? To answer that question, I’m experimenting with is eating more whole foods, and saving SmartPoints for dinner. I have been monitoring my hunger cues by setting my phone timer for 4 hours after I finish each meal. I am finding this challenge as helpful in the same way that giving up dessert was good for me last week.
In keeping with the theme of gratitude, today I am grateful for:
Physical Therapy (thank you, Dave you’re helping)
Fresh vegetables (colorful, cheerful, and satisfying)
Lemon juice (I know it’s weird but true lots of flavor 0 sp.)
I hope you are having a positive journey. I am on your side we can all reach our goals together.
Here is the truth about tracking, sometimes making the choice to track is a struggle. Sometimes I just want to eat something without recording it, because when I record it I am held accountable. Sometimes, I decide not to track when I go over my SmartPoints balance. Tonight, I’m not allowing myself that delusion that it doesn’t matter if I eat those fig bars (the package of fig bars has two and one bar is a serving… I ate both). Now my SmartPoints balance is 30 for the day. I’m over my range for weight loss, but still within the range for maintenance. I wouldn’t have known that had I not tracked and thought about it.
Here is another truth about tracking, tracking helped me lose the weight. It just works for me. If I’m avoiding tracking or are unhappy about the numbers in my tracker, then I have to consider why. I don’t like seeing 30 SmartPoints in my tracker tonight. Why’d I do it? I had eaten dessert, I was satisfied with dinner. I think the reason why I ate the extra dessert is because I had a giant bag full of work that had to get done. It took me from when I got home, (excluding making dinner, running my son to Nokado) till 10:45 pm. Obviously, this was frustrating and that probably had something to do with my choice to eat the fig bars.
It was a good week. I made my fitness goals, and I tracked everything. I am continuing to remind myself that I can do this – that even though I’ve slipped up here and there I am still good. This is my story and I’m sticking to it.
It’s Sunday and I already hit my fitness goal. I prepped a meal for later in the week, and I made homemade vegetable soup. I plan on getting up early prepping my food and having a good day at work. That’s me I’m accenting the positive. Try it, words shape our experiences and outcomes. Weight loss is hard enough so don’t beat yourself up for the mistakes you may make. Instead consider what is going well and build on that instead.
Tonight, thoughts of the journey and how it is always changing are crowding my brain. Yesterday was a struggle, today was a good one, I’m rolling over another two points; spin class was great this morning; and mindful reflection is slowly becoming a habit of mind. How about that for a word bender?
The other thing weighing me down tonight is that I’m trying to build up my confidence, I have to make a presentation to the school board tomorrow and I’ve written my remarks, practiced, and then rewritten them. I’ve recorded myself and listened back to it and I’m afraid that I sound like someone is sending me away to a dungeon! My hope is that when the time comes I sound more natural. That’s my story Im sticking with that.
I think weight loss fluctuates because life fluctuates. There is a lot going on in all our lives, so why make this harder than it needs to be? Say this with me, I’ll believe it if you believe it too:
You can do amazing things. You have proven this time and time again. Keep going because you are worth it.
Revising a goal doesn’t mean I failed, it means I reflected. There is a difference. Sometimes I set goals that sound good, but in reality are not so practical. It’s been a stressful week for me and I don’t really want to be so hard on myself.
Even though I will not make my goals this week, I have not rolled over any points, and I have exceeded my weeklies to boot. i have had some good moments. Saying no to second helpings, being mindful about my choices, and reflecting on when I gave into cravings. I believe this is how I will continue to grow.
March is one of those fickle months that fluctuates from wintry cold to warmer hints of spring. Today, is one of those rainy, grey, and icy cold March days. But I know that old man winter is shuffling around packing his bags and making his plans to move out to make way for the spring. Now is the time to think about what kind of spring and summer I want to experience.
As I am getting ready for a new week, I am thinking about what I can do to continue to grow. But before I can do that, I have to take stock of where I am right now. Although, I am still within my margins for Lifetime status I do want to lose about 3 pounds. My reasons for this is that my waist-to-hip ratio can still be improved. Click on the link if you want to read more about waist-to hip-ratio what it is, and why it’s important. For me, beginning the process for goal setting involves three steps…
I want to reinforce the rituals that have been helping me to maintain my weight loss.
I want to clearly name my intention by answering three questions: What goal do I want to develop? How how much time will I give myself? How will I monitor my progress?
I want to think about what would come next, or what would be a reach goal that I might think about for the future.
So I need visuals and a way to engage and organize my thinking to help myself. Here is the work plan I created called, Got Goals? Planning Intentional Goals.
As I go forward this week, I’m going to try to remind myself that I am taking this bit of time to help myself achieve my goals. I am going to try to honor this process and value it because I am worth the effort. If you decide to take this on, I hope you will do the same.
When I accomplished my weight loss goal and made it to Lifetime I felt so powerful. I did something really difficult that eludes many smart, talented people. I did this by showing up every day doing my best – succeeding and failing. The thing that made the difference, was that I kept at it. I learned how to be patient and how to turn kindness inward without deluding myself along the way. In other words, I kept my cool, kept it real and I kept it kind and I think that’s how I lost 93 pounds.
I think this should be my attitude when it comes to Maintenance as well. Keep cool, keep it real, keep it kind – there are going to be difficult days. Thankfully, today is not one of them. Today has been a great day on plan. I’m not so hungry and I feel energetic and positive. So, yes, there is always a flip side – for better or for worse being on a weight loss journey is just like life I think. There are good days, bad days, and all kinds of days in-between. Expect that and you can go wrong.
I hope you feel as encouraged reading this as I do writing it. Keep at this – it’s worth the effort!