I had a great WW meeting. I went down .4 pounds and and that felt pretty great. I went to the gym, worked out for an hour. I ate sensibly all day, and that made me happy too. Then I made Easter Baskets and colored eggs. That’s when the trouble started. I started picking at Easter candy (I didn’t even buy that much) but since I have not eaten this stuff in a long time, I now feel sick to my stomach. It’s that holiday haze that lulled me into some less than stellar food choices.
Remember, this is just one day. I am in control and can make better choices tomorrow. I am living my life as #WW member and there will be ups and downs.
Yesterday, I noticed a pattern and today I’m taking action. I am the kind of person who turns to experts in books, blogs, and articles when faced with a problem. I make it a goal to learn as much as I can so I can make more informed judgments. I find the process breaks down when I spend too much time thinking about my failures, without reflecting on what to change. Sometimes, that little voice pipes up, “Well, it’s been a good run, but it’s only a matter of time before you start gaining again.”
What’s different this time, is that I don’t believe that little voice anymore. It’s like a benign protester who’s urgency has been diminished by my success. I have been on Maintenance now for six months. This is what I have learned about myself over the past two days. Each time I ate too much, it was because I was either preoccupied or allowed myself to get too hungry.
Today was different. At 5:30 pm I noticed I was feeling very hungry. I stopped and thought about it. It had been over four hours since I ate, I was hungry for any food (not craving something) andI had a slight headache. This means internal hunger was the culprit. Now I’m eating slowly, mindfully, and I’m not going to make the same mistake as yesterday.
I am beginning to think that it’s easy to kick old habits back into action if I’m not reflective about what I’m doing. Like so many of my other big discoveries on this blog, this one sounds obvious, but this is a revelation for me. I hope you are learning about yourself too. I hope you are feeling strong and capable. I hope you are firmly squared within your resolve that you can do this – because you can.
I am on spring break and I feel like it came just in time. I had my last day of work for the week. When I came home, I went to spin class. Then by the time I was cooking dinner, I was extremely hungry. I ended up making poor food choices by picking on whatever was convenient or were things I have not eaten in a while. Yes, I’m looking at you peanut butter. I was just so hungry while I was waiting for dinner to finish cooking. I did that (on a much lesser scale) last night too. This is worrisome to me because I know old habits never really die they just go dormant until something kicks them into gear again.
I see the beginning of a pattern. That time from 5:30 pm – 7:00 pm is a very hungry time for me. This makes sense, because that is dinnertime for most people. It seems no matter how hard I try (more often than not) dinner doesn’t get to the table until 7:30 or even 8:30 at night. That’s just too late. I’m going to have to give this situation some time and attention because I’ve worked so hard to build healthy habits and I don’t want to sabotage myself by eating too many SmartPoints because I’m legitimately hungry.
I picked on two pieces of Dove Chocolate tonight. I wasn’t hungry I was making my lunch to get ready for tomorrow and just ate them. What the heck? Now, I have a little remorse. I am happy to share that I did track them so I kept myself accountable (4 Sp). It was a long day and I guess I just wanted a little sweetness.
This journey is a long one and I don’t want to spend it feeling guilty or inadequate because of one choice. This is a process and I am learning to trust it and myself.
Sometimes I like to just sit with a really beautiful magazine. I like the feel of the glossy pages under my fingertips. The exquisite detail found in the close up photographs intrigue me. The artful fonts that invite me into its pages and I am hooked. This is especially true when it’s a topic I am really interested in. Time magazine’s 100 Healthiest Food to Satisfy Hunger does not disappoint.
Learning more about what foods are the best is another way to build up my maintenance skills. When you know better, you do better…
Just remember it’s never too late to try again. Never too too late to make a different choice. It’s never too late to be kind. Every decision is an opportunity that can lead to a better outcome. Even if things are difficult right now, it doesn’t mean there isn’t still a chance to turn things around. It’s never too late to be extraordinary.
You are worth all the effort maintaining weight loss takes. It is ok to take time to plan, to weigh and measure foods, to focus on you and what is important to you. The stronger you are, the better you can take care of yourself and everyone else that relies on you.
In times of stress and worry it’s easy to put your needs on the back burner. Try not to do that, because you are important too. Treat yourself as you would someone who you really love. Self-love is not selfish – it is kindness turned inward. You can do this and just remember how remarkable you are.
This note is for me, and you. Weight loss is a difficult thing, maintaining it is also difficult, so remember that if you get down on yourself. You are doing something difficult but it’s something you are doing just for yourself.
Knowing how to maintain weight loss is something I’m interested in. So, I was very happy to listen to the wisdom of others at my Saturday workshop. I so value the collective wisdom of other WW members, and here is what they had to share:
Weigh and measure portions
Eat without distractions
Track all the foods eaten
Know triggers what foods trigger binging
Pause and take a breath
Check how many zero point foods are being eaten
Mix up activity, get out there and move
Keep positive fill your head with good thoughts
All of this advice is so helpful. It may seem somewhat obvious; however, following this advice in the moment is not so easy. This week, I’m going to make my goal to keep it positive. It’s been a particularly stressful time for me and I think that goal would be kindest one I can set for myself this week.
Under an onyx sky the wind is a prankster swirling around the house restless and full of errant energy. It jostles the wind chimes that hang from the eves of the garage. Undulating clanging that is sometimes loud kicking up a big fuss and then muted and remote as they falls quiet. My mind whispers back, “I hope I never forget to appreciate the mystery of the world.”
Noticing the beauty in the everyday is a surprise gift I have rediscovered on my weight loss journey. The more I look for beauty in the world, the more I find it. Finding beauty helps in so many ways because it fills me up and gives me strength to keep going. The more I find it in the world the more I find it within myself. There is no other person like me, or you. That has value and worth and that is something important to remember.
What if today was the first day of the journey? This was a strange and unexpected thought I had as I was getting ready for the day. l was thinking about all the ambition and hope that gives me the boost to take on big work. Life is so consuming, so hectic and it’s really easy to to take my health goals for granted. Ironically, taking my health goals for granted, would be a big mistake.
When life gets hard, that’s just when I need to dig in and bring my best self to the table. Eating berries and non-fat yogurt is an act of self-love precisely because it is good for me. It’s something beautiful that I am eating to make me stronger. Going to spin class is the thing that helps me to be strong for the challenges ahead. Working together, these are the actions I can take to run into the fights that life doles out.
We fail because we forget about ourselves. Weight loss, living a healthy lifestyle is becoming a practice I keep, not a means to an end. I couldn’t have had these insights without all the experiences I have had. My perspective is earned and has been shaped by my community. The people I trust and share with on Saturday mornings, and in this virtual space.
My heart is light, and I filled with gratitude and appreciation, and that helps take on the heavy burdens that we all are given. Thank you for walking this path with me, thank you for inspiring me, thank you for helping me to see beyond myself.