The day was busy, there was so much to do at work that I barely had time to eat. I ate most of my lunch on my ride home. It was not a “blue dot” day but it wasn’t a disaster. I had my basic breakfast (greek yogurt and fruit), and lunch (sandwich, fruit, 1/3 cup pistachios, cut up vegetables, mini baby-bell cheese, low-fat Triscuits). Dinner – two tacos, a chocolate graham cracker from Starbucks with a tall nonfat skinny latte. So, I used 29 Smartpoints (one over the limit). I really enjoyed the graham cracker, unlike yesterday’s sugar-free ice cream, it was a big ticket item at 7 points.
As far as activity goes, I have been signing up for (and canceling) spin class. I have not gone because of all the late nights. When it comes to spin or sleep, sleep has to win. However, I did sign up for tomorrow, and I really want to go. Fingers crossed I get what needs to be done tonight at a reasonable hour so that happens. There is still so much work for me to do so work is taking priority. However, this is a temporary (albeit extremely demanding) situation that will eventually come to an end.
So in the meantime, I am grateful for the latte and chocolate graham I enjoyed so much. I am grateful that I took Sadie for a walk the other day. I am even grateful for washing my face before I go to bed. These may be very simple things but they help. I am learning that even though I can’t control everything that comes my way, I can always appreciate what I have. It feels good to take this moment and think about the good because I want the good to grow.
My last words for today are I am rooting for your success on your weight loss journey. This is a day-in-day-out kind of endeavor. It’s hard to see progress sometimes, and other times you wake up and feel totally different. I am 89.2 pounds and I made this happen. You can do this too,
Successful, long-lasting weight loss is not only informed by numbers on a scale. I could not have been more strategic this week, I should definitely have lost weight. However, I’m dealing with some inflammation and that is slowing up my weight loss.
I’m very honest and diligent about tracking so this really is my week. Sunday was Jimmy’s barbeque and it was a great time and well worth all my Smartpoints. However, the rest of the week is all true as well. So you can imagine my disappointment. Had this have happened earlier in the journey I might now be here, 87.8 pounds lighter, at all. Now I know that it’s all the habits and belief I’ve put into this that is really important.
I went to spin for the first time in a few days. I’m having some health issues and I’ve been reluctant to go but today I went and I am so happy I did. Going to spin class makes me feel good in a bunch of ways. It clears my head and makes me feel stronger. It gives me some relief from my stress. It’s something I can work at and it’s just fun for me. As the class was winding down, my spin instructor, Mike yelled …
“You live a charmed life. I promise you, believe it.”
I was overwhelmed by gratitude at that moment because lately, I’ve been feeling so concerned about my situation. It’s easy to get a fixed perspective and sometimes a message will come through that makes it possible to see things differently. Mike is right, our lives are precious and being here is a gift. Find some kind of activity you love and do it because it makes this journey lighter.
It’s fantastic to lose weight and feel good about yourself. But that is almost like a side-effect of this process. I’m losing weight, but I’m really learning so much about myself. I’m beginning to think that is the real journey.
My week in numbers…
What I’m learning…
I am grateful that I lost a pound this week. However, I still maintain that the more important thing is that I’m coming closer to demystifying weight loss. I am not helpless, I’m not just “lucky” if I go down on the scale. My actions matter. Through my actions, I can control this process.
That doesn’t mean I can control the numbers on the scale – like it’s crazy to for me to say, “Next week I want to lose two pounds.” Crazy, because there are too many things outside of my control. If I drop .6 pounds, is that not a success? Of course, that’s a success! If I happen to be bloated and I don’t see results in terms of weight loss, does that mean I should give up? No that’s just ridiculous. My body runs on its own clock and the number on the scale is not part of my control. However, the things that are within the auspice of my control, food, activity, and mindset are so powerful.
We had a great meeting today. We talked about so many good topics that make this journey better:
- Daily goals: set daily goals to keep yourself invested in the process.
- Positive self-talk: conversations in your head influence your actions.
- Gratitude: Before going to bed pick a random letter of the alphabet and list all the things you are grateful for, “B” my bedtime routine is helping me destress at the end of the day and get a better quality of sleep.
- Habits: Recognizing that habits are so powerful. When we make new habits to support our weight loss goals we are changing our lives. Also recognizing that our old habits (that supported weight gain) still exist and knowing we can decide which one to grow.
- Beliefs: Getting rid of clothes that are too big for us. When we get rid of those clothes, we are making a statement that weight loss is permanent.
There is no one else like you and so you are a gift to all of us. Whatever you are doing to better your life, I say, “Go you!” You are making choices to help yourself be the best version of yourself. Keep going. Some days on the journey will be difficult. It may help to know on those difficult days, you may learning the most about who you are and what you need. Every time you overcome something you are growing wiser. When you decide to open yourself up to this process, you are waking yourself up to your own potential. Keep going.
It’s late. I am going to share a list of things I am grateful for:
- My son saw that I was working the day away, sat down next to me and lent a hand. Then he made me a cup of tea.
- Later, my daughter saw me at my post behind the computer screen, bought me a seltzer and helped me with my work for a while too.
- My husband encouraged me to keep going and did all the other things that have to be done when you have a house and family.
- I cooked a healthy dinner and we ate together.
- I met my first deadline.
AY 20: Positive self-talk is a very important part of this journey. Speak to yourself as you would a loved one. You would not reprimand the person for gaining weight one week or not tracking the weekend. Concentrate on complimenting yourself today.
I am happy to say that the habits I’ve developed over these past 353 days have helped me to avoid these kinds of slip-ups. Yes, I have gained some weeks but that’s just the body – I can’t control that and I’m ok with it. I’ve said it before, my body doesn’t know it has to perform because it’s Saturday morning at 8:15 am. I can compliment my perseverance. Even though these past days have been extremely challenging I have not given up. I’m proud of myself for sticking it out even though it’s hard. More tomorrow.