Day Thirty-Five…

This is yesterday’s post (my blog wouldn’t let me post it last night):

So… I gained four pounds this week. I don’t know what to say about that. If you read my blog you know that I’ve been struggling. This is what maintaining weight loss is. I am trying to rewire my brain to understand that there are limits when it comes to food. I’m pretty disappointed about the gain. I know there are lots of people who understand how I feel. They understand because maintaining weight loss can be difficult. However, when I think about my life, I have accomplished many difficult things so really, why not this?  

I am determined to accomplish this goal. The rest of my life cannot be “less than” it could be. I want to have as much energy and physical strength as a possible. In order to make that happen, a big part of my  “why” has to do with maintaining my weight loss. I want to be able to wear clothes that I like and feel confident and (for me) that involves maintaining my weight loss. These are very good reasons to keep at this.

I am very proud of myself for making my weight loss journey happen. It took a lot of effort, care, and attention to get to goal. I worked hard at this, and manged to enjoy the process throughout my ups and downs. Having goals to work towards is great, but it is also very important to recognize and appreciate “the now” and where I’m at right now is pretty good.

My plan for the week:

  • Track all my food
  • Meet my fitness goal
  • Monitor my emotions
  • Eat mindfully

Hopefully this time next week, I’ll be celebrating “Lifetime” status. Fingers crossed wish me some luck because a little good luck never hurt anyone.   

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Day Thirty-Four…

Today was a way better day. I’m rolling over four points and that feels very good.  I appreciate all the positive messages and likes, you are helping. Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I will let you know how it goes. Either way, I’m grateful. Even though things are not easy, I am blessed. I am so fortunate to be on this journey, to be writing this post, and to be spending a little bit of time each day to reflect on how it is going. I hope you get the benefit of doing this too, it’s important to appreciate what it had as much as it is to have dreams to aspire to. More tomorrow.

Day Thirty-Three…

This week is shaping up to be a rough one. Lots of stress, and poor choices. It’s time for a reset. This is a journey for life, so I don’t know why I’m surprised that I’m struggling it’s just unrealistic to imagine that there wouldn’t be some struggle along the way. The questions I have to ask myself are: What do I do next? How do I handle this?

I don’t really have all the answers. I wish I could make a quick bulleted list of next steps to deal with this that would help me and others too. I really just want to share that I’m having a hard time this week. Sometimes this is very hard and especially when there is a lot going on. I think just admitting that truth is a sign of some personal growth.

Thank you for reading my post and know I am here rooting for you and your success.

Day Thirty-Two…

Today was a better day than yesterday. It was a “blue dot day” so that feels much better. Yesterday was such a rough day I’m glad it is behind me. I am looking forward to spinning tomorrow morning so I have to go to sleep soon.

Learning how to maintain versus losing weight is different and requires a new set of skills.  I am supposed to be eating more, but how much more?  I’m trying to learn how to listen to my body and to stop eating when I have a sense of being satisfied. However, doing that is hard for me.

Onward down the path to better health and maintaining weight loss! It helps to know that you are out there doing this too. Yes, this requires some attention. Yes, this is not so easy. Yes, new habits have to be formed. Yes, you are worth all of that and more. You can do this, so let’s get moving.

Day Thirty-One…

There are times when I wish I could just start over and “do over” some of my choices. Today is one of those days. I started out strong, I went to spin at 5:15 am and that was awesome. I packed my breakfast and lunch and both were very good.  Then during professional development, I started thinking about having a piece of candy, but I decided not to eat one.

After that, it all went downhill. I made poor choices, and I picked on foods while I was making dinner. I ate late and then I had dessert. Now I feel sick to my stomach. I plan on drinking a glass of water, brushing my teeth and going to bed. Tomorrow is a new day to start over.  That’s the way it goes sometimes. I really don’t want to beat myself up, but I also don’t want to ignore the tendency to overdo it when it comes to food.

What can learn from today? I still need strategies when I find myself reaching for food. I am underestimating how stress affects me because I had a couple of stressful moments today and clearly the food was an attempt to elevate some of that negativity.  So tomorrow, if I I feel this same tug of wanting to eat when I’m not hungry – I will engage the internal/external hunger exercise that has been so helpful in the past. I will also eat more mindfully.

I’ll let you know how it goes. I hope you had a good day on the journey. If you didn’t don’t give up!

Day Thirty…

I made good choices today. I avoided eating bread at lunchtime and as a result, I am rolling over 2 SmartPoints. Another positive, I am scheduled for spin class tomorrow morning. These are small choices but important ones, these little choices are the stuff that makes weight loss possible.  I encourage you to reflect on your day. What small (important) choices did you make? What do you plan on doing tomorrow? Just remember you can do this. Believe it.

Day Twenty-Nine…

Exhausted. Christmas is here and thankfully it all looks beautiful. I ate three Christmas cookies, and I did think about each one. I tracked them and needless to say this was not a “blue dot day” and now I feel a little remorse.  Learning how to manage cravings and bad choices is all part of the journey.

Sometimes (most of the time) I wish I didn’t have to think so much about this. To someone reading this blog they may say, “So what? She ate three cookies, big deal.” It’s not about the three cookies it’s the desire to eat them won over my better judgment. Anyway, it’s ok it’s only Sunday I can get myself together for the rest of the week.

Thank you for reading, and sending your support. Know that I send it all back to you as you travel your path to better health too. More tomorrow.

Day Twenty-Eight…

This week's loss

Every time I think about the journey as a challenge, I want to shift that perspective to a more positive stance. It’s not to say it isn’t challenging because (sometimes) it can be really difficult. But being able to accomplish this goal is an amazing thing too and I can decide to celebrate that instead.

So many people give up because they have not yet figured out how to make this work for them. I promise it is worth this figuring out, losing weight, and regaining my energy has completely changed my life. So… you already probably know what I’m going to say – you can do this too. Keep at it!

Change is inevitable and at times it’s sad. we are saying goodbye our local Hardware store. It’s been around for many years, and I think we are losing something special in its own way.

 

Day Twenty-Seven…

The Christmas season has begun in our household. We bought this beauty tonight…

We went with the Fraser Fir. I love the color, the smell, and the whole ritual of picking out the tree. All of it, the music, the decorations, and let’s not forget the cookies! Well, moderation is better than no cookies at all.

This time of year is so thick with nostalgia and I am grateful for my childhood memories of home and family. I do my best to make the season festive and happy for my own children. They are starting to leave subtle hints about what they may like to find under the tree this year.

I’m thinking about how special it is to give the people you love a special gift that they will truly enjoy. I love making them happy and am willing to wait on lines, save up money, and search out the deals just so everyone gets what they want.

As I reflect on this year, I realize this time I’ve spent on my journey has been a gift I’ve given to myself. Getting to goal and working towards Maintenance is my ultimate gift because I got back my own sense of self. Sometimes, it doesn’t seem real, and sometimes I can forget how I once felt. It’s very strange to be so transformed.

My wish for you is that you are feeling well as we enter into a season that is marked by love, generosity, and faith. Believe you can do this because that is the truth.

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I forgot one more thing! I did make my 5:15 am spin class and it was so much fun. People were happy to see me and I felt amazing for the rest of the day… Find some kind of activity you enjoy it really helps.

 

Day Twenty-Six…

Ever eat something first and then scan it for the SmartPoints values? Well, I was on my way home after an extremely long day (7:30 am – 8:30 pm) of parent-teacher conferences and I ate a snack bag of almonds that my husband bout me. Then I scanned it, 8 SmartPoints! Tomorrow is another day.

It’s looking like I’m going to get enough sleep to go to early morning spin class, and that is very exciting to me. Before I sign off for the day, I’d like to leave you with these words, I think it’s better to think about this journey as a choice, not a fight. Yes, some days are very hard, and yet if I always think about it as a fight it makes this so much harder. When I think about this journey as a personal choice it shifts from being a burden to a form of enlightenment.

So make a choice that gets you where you want to go. Be kind to yourself. Honor all your efforts even when things don’t work out as planned. More tomorrow.