Tonight was a night for reflection, celebration, and good-bye. I went to a retirement party for a lovely teacher who is a kind-hearted person – she is someone I will miss. Many changes happen gradually over time. We aren’t even aware that we are changing and then one day, BOOM, everything speeds up and you find yourself racing to the end of one phase to embark on the next.
I think the most important thing we can do is appreciate who we are and what we have right now at this moment.
Someone asked me tonight, “So, how did you lose so much weight?” This question has become a familiar one to me. I answered, “Weight Watchers.” and yes that is the truth the program is amazing. However, there is more to this thing than SmartPoints. If we do not push ourselves to grow we are missing the point. .
If you do nothing else for yourself today read this and believe it:
“I am worth the effort. I matter. I can do this because I deserve to live my life in a healthy body for as long as I can. Stress is temporary, feelings come and go, but my “why” is resolute.”
Let me be the voice that tells you that gives you strength to carry on. If you want it, you can have it, just believe it.
It is the final ten days till my countdown clock runs out! How is that possible?! It finally feels like summer, or should I say… “summah!” is coming. I’m looking out the window and everything looks vibrant there is a cool breeze it’s a perfect day.
I just finished playing with Sadie… that was fun.
I am thinking about transformation and what it means. Well, it literally means “a dramatic change in form or appearance.” Transformations are not that common really. So when you dramatically change your appearance, it causes some disequilibrium. People don’t know how to react. Know what I mean? So this really happened to me…
- I was at a wake, of all places, and there were people I hadn’t seen in a while there. I was saying hello and making small talk. “Jennifer?” I turned around smiling, “Hello.” I say, “It’s nice to see you. I’m sorry for your loss.” He looked at me shaking his head back and forth as if to say no, “Woooow. Woooow. You look SO much better! You lost a lot of weight!” I smiled incredulously “Thank – you.” He continued to shake his head, “I like it when this happens, I’m so proud of you.” I felt my eyes open wider and my eyebrows were now scrunching together, “Oh, thanks so much.”
I realize that he meant these words in the best possible way and that he was just trying to be supportive, acknowledging my accomplishment. I think that when we go through a weight loss / healthy lifestyle journey it changes fixed ideas about people. This happened to me as well…
- I was standing with a group of colleagues in school. We were talking about a 50th Birthday Party we recently attended. My friend looked at me and said, “You know Jenn, James didn’t recognize you. He didn’t know who you were.”
This felt surreal. I’ve been out with them We (Day 40) went to an escape room with them. So weird.
I think the important thing is this. Yes, I’ve changed a lot since September, and now I look different. However, as I have gone through this journey, I have felt great, I felt so good about myself every step of the way. Even on the hard days and there were quite a few of those. If I stopped to concern myself with how others perceived me it would probably not have been helpful – at all. It’s so important to love yourself throughout all the phases of this. The story you tell about yourself is the story that matters. Hold onto that and remember it because that is the truth. That is an essential piece if you want to “get to goal”.
Thank you for reading my random thoughts. If you’re so inclined, come back. I’ll be here tomorrow.
Over the weekend, another Weight Watcher member (you know who you are) and I talked about how hard it can be to have the “conversation” with family members and friends when it comes to weight loss. Well-meaning spouses, sisters, brothers, or “besties” who try to be supportive and the words just come out wrong. They say things like, “Can you eat that?” or, “How much more do you have to lose?” or a personal favorite, “You’re losing weight again?”
I think that it’s really important, to be honest when people inadvertently say something insensitive. Instead of saying nothing, and letting these stray remarks bother you – let it go and tell people what you need. I think part of the reason I gained so much weight, is because I would constantly put my needs last. So that got me thinking… What do I need?
- Supportive listening – letting me talk out my feelings.
- Kindness – showing me love and care.
- Trust – knowing that I can do this and it’s not necessary to question my actions.
I think just these three examples would go a long way to turn around a bad day into a good one.
I had a good day on plan. I kept thinking about getting an ice cream cone on my way home and I decided not to get one, In the past, I certainly would have given in and gone off plan. I think it’s these small moments that what strengthen my resolve.
I went to a friend’s 50th Birthday party tonight. It was a lot of fun. There were lots of great people, there was music, and delicious food and drinks, You may be wondering, “So, how does one go to parties and still lose weight?” Strategize!
If you read my blog, then you know, I am a Weight Watchers. member, and here is how I handled today. I ate very intentionally – I kept my points lower during the day and saved up for the party. Once I got there I had to make some choices. I decided to have a half slice of cake instead of a drink. Could I have had both? Yes, having both is an option. For me, for today, I didn’t want to have both. I was good having one or the other.
Later in the evening, a friend asked me, “How do you keep your motivation to stick with it?” My answer, “I know my why. I want to get goal more than I want a drink and a half-slice of birthday cake. Plus, why shouldn’t I live my life in the body I want?” I don’t feel as though I missed anything by exercising my control during the party. I feel like I was making good choices for myself. That is a very good way to feel!
I went to the movies with my family tonight. We enjoyed the show, and had some fun together. At one point, I looked over at my son and daughter and saw them laughing at something together and that made me very happy. I sat comfortably in my seat holding my husband’s hand and it struck me how confortable I was. I snacked on pistacios and drank seltzer, not popcorn, candy, and soda. I didn’t miss it.
I am thinking about how much distraction food can cause. I takes you out of yourself and puts your focus on, well, food. However, it also brings us closer together. There is something so special about coming together around a table to share a good meal. On the other hand, it’s not only the food it’s the people who are seated around the table that make these times so special. It’s complicated. i am looking forward to my meeting tomorrow. I feel like I lost weight and I am that more closer to to goal.