Feelings versus Reality

Yesterday, I met with my Kindergarten Team and we talked about teaching kids to say the word, “slug slowly” so they would hear all the discrete sounds embedded in words. This discussion ended with me, searching for videos of slugs (yuck, but the kids will like it). This got me thinking about where I’m at in my weight loss journey. Bet you couldn’t see that coming, wink wink.

Everything is going in the right direction, but my weight loss feels slow. That, and the challenge of feeling a bit hungrier lately, are making my journey feel like walking uphill. I’ve always prided myself on being an “uphill kind of girl.” When things get rough I put my head down, and… m o v e. In this case, the way to move past this phase of the journey is to take a closer look at my feelings.

When I start using words like, “feel” I know it’s time to look at my data to see if my feelings are in check with my reality. It turns out, they are not. My data shows I’m very consistent. Knowing this, and being able to prove it to myself is a relief. I’m so glad that I made friends with the scale because I know myself, I could have spun these “feelings” into a full-on why bother negative talk fest.

Beware self-sabotage when you’re on a weight loss journey. Sometimes you may feel like your moving, “slug slowly” but really, you’re doing the important work that needs to come first if you want to reach your goal. Keep it together, and just keep moving forward.

A Taste of Home

The topic of my weekly Weight Watchers meeting was, Emotional Eating, and as if right on cue, I cried when I attempted to share my thinking. It’s not that I’m struggling with emotional eating right now. On the contrary, I think I’m a lot more self-aware than I once was when it comes to this topic.

The other day, I made peppers and tomatoes over eggs because I recognized that I’d been missing my mom lately. She has been gone for nine years, she passed on August 11, 2014. She was special, and people naturally gravitated toward her because she was beautiful, smart, and hilariously funny. That is quite a combination plus – she was an amazing cook. I grew up eating good food. Now, one way I can connect with her is by cooking some of the foods she used to make me.

I don’t know why I couldn’t say all that during the meeting without tears. I suppose I must have needed a good cry, and that is the point – we need to allow ourselves to feel our feelings instead of feeding them. I’m still learning, and doing my best to continue to evolve on this journey. I hope anyone reading my posts is in a good place on theirs. But if you aren’t remember you’re not alone, and the brave thing to do if you need help is to ask for it. Thank you to my WW community for all the support and care you’ve shown me, I am all wholly better for knowing all of you.

Follow Your Heart

It has been an emotional few days. I am the kind of person who has unconsciously used food to soothe negative emotions like stress, fear, or sadness. Now that I am more self-aware of this misguided habit, I can say I have grown wiser about emotional eating. However, this wisdom does not help me with the pain I feel at this moment.

For better and for worse emotions are part of life. Maybe the best thing I can do is to name what I’m feeling. Right now, I am sad because I miss my son. He is living his life. He is happy, safe, and loved, and for all of this, I am (truly) grateful. This is helping me because now I see that it’s not just sadness I feel it’s also gratitude; but more than that it is love.