I Cannot Tell a Lie…

At my last WW workshop my leader, Bonnie, said that we make over 200 food related decisions per day. No wonder yesterday’s post was “Tried & Tired”. A weight loss / wellness journey takes quite a bit of effort. I think you have to really want it to make it stick. I can say that because I am living the life of someone who has lost a significant amount of weight so I know from experience.

Having more energy, feeling more confident, and actually appreciating and enjoying my food more provide big motivations for me to keep at this. In this case, more is more. These are all compelling reasons to keep at it. Ironically, the very habits that grant me the freedom to live this way every day are the same habits that can feel obligatory and oppressive at times. Like tonight I struggled a little with weighing and measuring my portions at dinner. I measured out my 1/2 cup of linguini to mix in with my zucchini noodles. Then I really should have weighed my pork tenderloin (I made pork sauce I cooked the tenderloin in the crock pot and then just added it to tomato sauce). I tracked it at 2 SmartPoints for the pork and 3 SmartPoints for the jarred sauce (shortcut because I’m cooking after work). Then I added a dollop of ricotta cheese, which I should have measured. I eyeballed it and and counted it as 3 SmartPoints. Then when I was filling out my checklist, I really wanted to check off that I weighed and measured everything but I really can’t because I didn’t. This isn’t a gotcha, and I don’t feel bad about it, it just is what happened.

I’m not writing all of this as a confession, I’m writing to be objective. It’s worse to convince myself that I’ve done everything “right” and then weigh in on Saturday and not understand why I didn’t get the results I want on the scale. I am writing all this down to keep me honest with myself. My goal is to want to get back to Lifetime.

As always, thank you readers. You help, and I hope that as you read my posts, you get something that helps you in return. We are all powerful beings who can achieve our goals. Believe it.