Feelings versus Reality

Yesterday, I met with my Kindergarten Team and we talked about teaching kids to say the word, “slug slowly” so they would hear all the discrete sounds embedded in words. This discussion ended with me, searching for videos of slugs (yuck, but the kids will like it). This got me thinking about where I’m at in my weight loss journey. Bet you couldn’t see that coming, wink wink.

Everything is going in the right direction, but my weight loss feels slow. That, and the challenge of feeling a bit hungrier lately, are making my journey feel like walking uphill. I’ve always prided myself on being an “uphill kind of girl.” When things get rough I put my head down, and… m o v e. In this case, the way to move past this phase of the journey is to take a closer look at my feelings.

When I start using words like, “feel” I know it’s time to look at my data to see if my feelings are in check with my reality. It turns out, they are not. My data shows I’m very consistent. Knowing this, and being able to prove it to myself is a relief. I’m so glad that I made friends with the scale because I know myself, I could have spun these “feelings” into a full-on why bother negative talk fest.

Beware self-sabotage when you’re on a weight loss journey. Sometimes you may feel like your moving, “slug slowly” but really, you’re doing the important work that needs to come first if you want to reach your goal. Keep it together, and just keep moving forward.

A Little Update

People are noticing my weight loss. It’s nice to know others think I’m looking good. Feeling more confident, and happy with my appearance is definitely part of this journey for me. I feel physically better like it’s easier to move, I feel stronger, and I have more energy. That is something I am very grateful for.

My habits are ticking along and require very little effort on my part. I’m in the zone and I can promise you that if you dedicate yourself to habits, that serve you well, the same will happen for you. How does that sound? In my mind, I imagine you shaking your head, yes, and I hear you say, “I’m ready to do this for keeps this time.” In my mind’s eye, I can feel your resolve to be the changemaker in your own life.

I’m cheering for you. We can all do this, it’s not easy but it’s also not always hard. Please remember, you are worth the effort! Come with me, do this with me, because it’s something you want for yourself.

Already There

Do you believe that the pursuit of a big goal can change your life? I tell you, it can, and even though I have not accomplished my weight loss goal yet (from a numbers standpoint) I feel like I’m already there. Really, in the most important ways, I am. Actions speak louder than words, and as I reflect on my day, I see that I already have what I want for myself. My big reason for wanting to lose weight was to have more energy and to feel stronger:

  1. I did a spin class before work – and it felt great.
  2. I made a delicious dinner – no diet food here!
  3. I am part of a generous community – full of inspiration.

You get there by realizing you are already there.

Ekhart Tolle

Eventually, I will reach my weight loss goal, and when that happens, I feel so accomplished. However, that future success does not diminish today’s joy.

Stay Steady

Here are some things that are absolutely true about weight loss:

  1. Losing weight is something you do for yourself.
  2. It takes a long time to see results.
  3. It requires care and attention to detail.
  4. There will be setbacks
  5. Reflection on how it’s going helps the process.

Welcome to the work of weight loss. It’s not glamorous, and it takes patience but it offers the chance to transform my life for the better. My journey is more than physical – having perseverance, optimism, and the flexibility to stick with it are qualities that remind me to believe in myself.

A Taste of Home

The topic of my weekly Weight Watchers meeting was, Emotional Eating, and as if right on cue, I cried when I attempted to share my thinking. It’s not that I’m struggling with emotional eating right now. On the contrary, I think I’m a lot more self-aware than I once was when it comes to this topic.

The other day, I made peppers and tomatoes over eggs because I recognized that I’d been missing my mom lately. She has been gone for nine years, she passed on August 11, 2014. She was special, and people naturally gravitated toward her because she was beautiful, smart, and hilariously funny. That is quite a combination plus – she was an amazing cook. I grew up eating good food. Now, one way I can connect with her is by cooking some of the foods she used to make me.

I don’t know why I couldn’t say all that during the meeting without tears. I suppose I must have needed a good cry, and that is the point – we need to allow ourselves to feel our feelings instead of feeding them. I’m still learning, and doing my best to continue to evolve on this journey. I hope anyone reading my posts is in a good place on theirs. But if you aren’t remember you’re not alone, and the brave thing to do if you need help is to ask for it. Thank you to my WW community for all the support and care you’ve shown me, I am all wholly better for knowing all of you.