This post has to be a short one tonight because I’m pretty tired. I have to celebrate because I am very proud of myself, I accomplished something important in my work and it looks like I’ll have another grade level completed by tomorrow. This is one of the hardest assignments I’ve ever had to complete and I’m not giving up. I think I will have discovered new reserves in my ability to keep going under pressure. To be able to say I did this will be a remarkable accomplishment. I really want to contribute something of value to the world.
If so much attention is going into this one part of my life, it’s only natural I will have to make sacrifices in other areas. I wasn’t able to get any activity points today because I spent the entire day working. I’ll have to pack my meals tomorrow morning and that takes time. So it looks like I’m going to have to cancel my spin class. I wish there was another way but I’m going to need the sleep and the time in the morning. I’m going to try for Thursday and Friday classes this week instead.
I had a decent day on plan. I thought I was going to roll over four points but I decided to eat dessert so I used them. Tomorrow is another chance. I’m going to set a mini-goal to roll over 12 points. I’m going to have to be strategic to do it. I’m going to save some fruit and tea for an after-dinner sweet. I have fat free Redi-Whip I can add to it. Another option is to plan in a savory evening snack. I have to think about that little more.
I hope you are doing well on your journey. I hope you are accomplishing things that are surprising you and that reveal your personal power to make changes to your life. You can do this, and so can I.
I am still getting used to my body. I am wearing a size medium or small in dresses and shirts and a size six or four in pants and jeans. Sometimes when I look down I at myself, I do recognize who I see. Today I was able to walk around someone easily with room to spare and that still blows me away! I feel more confident and so much more energetic. Being this close to goal is an amazing feeling.
Since I begin this journey in earnest I have been very connected to my “why”. My “why” has entered my thoughts daily throughout this process. Now things are a little different. Different because my “why”, what I imagined for myself, has come to fruition. I am living in the body I wanted to have. I don’t think my next “why” can only be about keeping this body. I think it has to be about something more than that.
I want my motivation for living a healthy lifestyle to come from a generous place that makes my life about what is next instead of just trying to hold on. The reward for this body is about living and moving with ease. It’s about feeling strong and confident. It is about a path to growth and self-awarenesses. My next “why” may have something to do with making a plan to face the hard stuff that I always try to avoid or hide from.
On that note, I am also thinking about what I will share when I do finally reach goal. I am a believer in the power that words possess to change us. I am indebted to my family, my Saturday Morning friends, and all my virtual friendships. All of these people have been messengers of hope, inspiration, and wisdom. So, more to come on this one.
I hope you had a good day on plan. If you didn’t don’t wait to start again, think it through and get your bearings. Think about what it is you really want to believe about yourself. I believe you can do this.