I am thinking about what influences me. As I reflect on my interactions with my family and friends, the books that I read, my colleagues at work, and all the media I consume all have an impact. The decisions I make influence me also. Every choice leads in towards or away from success:
- Do I pre-pack and track my meals for the next day the night before?
- Do I go to bed early so I can make a spin class in the morning?
- Do I stay up later and keep working?
- Did I plan what we will have for dinner?
- Do I have dessert tonight?
It’s all the little choices that have a big influence on the direction I take. So I plan on celebrating every choice I make that will render a positive influence. Tomorrow is weigh-in day, and of course, I am more than a number on the scale! However, I also believe the number is feedback on how I am doing.
I blog the truth. The truth is I really hope I make it within my two-pound range tomorrow. I will have 39 roll over points at the close of this week. That’s amazing. I made my fitness goal. That’s amazing! I included a variety of foods and made smart choices that left me feeling satisfied and not deprived. That’s amazing! I even took time to get a manicure on the way home from work today because I wanted to do something nice for myself. That’s amazing too!
If I don’t make it. I will be disappointed but I will not be deterred. I will keep working and doing my best. Right now, I’d love it if you promised to do the same. In my mind, I imagine that you say, “I will too!” We can do this, let’s go.
After an especially stressful day, I am looking forward to a big glass of water and bed. I went over on my points and it’s silly I didn’t have to, I think I have to be wary of bad habits creeping in again. This holiday season is proving very challenging to me. I think as long as I am writing and thinking about it I’m going to figure this out.
It was really hard to get to this place in my weight loss journey. I think it’s the quiet ambivalence that’s the thing to worry about, not the big holiday meal. It’s the day-to-day choices that will make or break my resolve. It’s easy to forget all the work it took to get into these jeans. So what’s next?
Here is what I have to say to me… You are amazing and have done something that many people struggle to accomplish. Think about what it is you want, and why you began this journey. Has your why changed? It is a slippery slope when you decide to venture off a path that has brought you a lot of success. That said, it doesn’t mean that there is only one path to success. Be intentional and make sure you are making choices that reflect what you really really want. Sometimes you may need that scoop of ice cream, and sometimes you won’t. I think it’s time to read your emergency letter (Day 200).
I have to say, yes! That letter worked. If you’ve never written an emergency letter, write one. It is a gift to listen to your stronger self who is writing from a position of success and strength. Today, was stressful, I know what is happening in my life that is making the journey rocky right now. There is plenty of good solid reason for a setback. I’m having a rough time. It helps to know we all do sometimes.
What should I do now? I am choosing to drink some water, pack breakfast and lunch for tomorrow, wash my face, brush my teeth, and get some rest. Keep at it – you can do this.
It was a better day today. I was less hungry and didn’t have so many cravings. I think I’m getting over my rough patch. I’m rolling over four points and I’m proud of that accomplishment. It’s very weird how one day can be an incredible challenge and the next day it is easier.
Pushing through struggle is rough but getting through it feels pretty good. So the next time I’m feeling overwhelmed or like I’m losing ground, I’m going to do my best to remember today. I hope you’re having a success on your journey. Don’t give up, and if your feeling like your beginning to slip up… double down on your habits and just see what happens.
I am enough. I am doing the best I can and I am enough. If my mom were here she would say, “I’m so proud of you Jennifer. You are amazing. You can do anything you set your mind to and I love you.” I really hope whoever you are, if you’re reading this post, you take some time to say some positive about yourself.
Live your life in the body you want, believe it, you can make it happen.
A year from the month that I started my journey I am officially one pound away from goal. I almost can’t believe it. My message to you is this, power through the challenges. Sometimes you may have a perfect week and not lose an ounce or worse gain! Other weeks you may lose when you were sure you would gain, and you feel like you’re getting away with something. You cannot ever control the scale. When you understand (and believe) this the journey becomes about something greater than the numbers. It sounds so phony, but weight loss has very little to do with the scale. Next week if I don’t lose my pound, it will be ok. It will be ok because I know I eventually will lose it. This is really happening. Amazing.