Today a teacher’s assistant made a joke that maybe I should gain some weight. Yes, that happened. I don’t think she meant to be insensitive, sometimes people don’t realize how their words may be received. I include myself in that crowd. I’m sure if you were to go through my posts, you’d find things that could be misinterpreted. Words are powerful. Sharing my story is one way I was able to get to goal and achieve Lifetime status. Now it’s an important part of how I manage maintenance. This is where I try to be completely honest about how it’s going.
So… how’s it going?
I’ve been struggling lately, I have found myself picking at food and not tracking. Eating some foods that are not helpful and tend to make me hungrier. For example, I love cereal but it’s not a good food choice for me. I’ve been finding myself in the kitchen on the hunt for something to eat when I’m not really hungry. It’s only just recently over the past few days, that I’ve been able to turn it around. I’m tracking and I’m rolling over points. I’m being thoughtful about what I eat and how much. I’m working on being mindful and that helps a lot.
I guess I’m learning not to be so fixed with my story and to just be open to what is really happening now. I can do this, I can do this. I can do this. So can you.
Tonight I want to remind myself to keep going. I spent all this time and effort to regain my life back by losing 93 pounds. I did it so I could live the rest of my life as the best possible version of myself. For me, that had to involve weight loss. I did all of this as a gift to myself, because this was a gift that only I could grant. If I wanted to make a big change in my life, it had to begin with me. Jennifer, remember to…
Keep going – you can maintain your weight loss
Keep going – you can accomplish your professional goals
Keep going – you are a loving wife and mother who is what they need
Keep going – you have everything you need and you are enough
If given a choice, would it be better to change or stay the same? Sometimes change can be completely daunting. It implies more work, it can make people feel unsure if they are up to the challenges change may bring. Change is a departure from what is known to a more uncertain future.
A chance to change is also an incredible opportunity. In many ways change is a gift that has the potential to redefine life itself. Change is the stuff of growth, it reveals inner strength and flexibility. Change flips old habits into better routines. Change is the very thing that can boost our relationship with ourselves and each other.
Weight loss, careers, relationships all of these things can rest on a chance to change. The most reassuring thing I can share is that the choice is up to us. Will you change your life? Or, will you embrace your life as it is now? I am voting for change. I’m going to remind myself to work from a positive spirit, to celebrate what is good about me so I may aspire to be more than I am now. Change, it’s scary but it’s also wonderful.
One definition of faith is “to have complete trust and confidence in someone or something”. Another is “to have allegiance to duty or a person, or fidelity”. Perhaps my favorite definition, “something that is believed especially with strong conviction”. This may sound bold, but I have faith in myself.
Trust & Confidence
I trust that I know what to do. I have confidence in myself because I have proven that I know how to make the WW process work for me.
Allegiance & Fidelity
If I can’t have allegiance to myself how can I dedicate myself to anything? My fidelity is for my good health, and I am worth all of this effort and attention.
Belief & Conviction
The story I tell myself wraps up my beliefs. So, I am telling myself a story of success because I am convinced that I can make that story happen.
I tell you this, because I want you to know that that words really matter. Every day we are writing a story. Will your story be one of success? Will your story be one of defeat? Only you get to decide. It’s not that it will be easy but it can be done and you really do get to decide.
I am on spring break and I feel like it came just in time. I had my last day of work for the week. When I came home, I went to spin class. Then by the time I was cooking dinner, I was extremely hungry. I ended up making poor food choices by picking on whatever was convenient or were things I have not eaten in a while. Yes, I’m looking at you peanut butter. I was just so hungry while I was waiting for dinner to finish cooking. I did that (on a much lesser scale) last night too. This is worrisome to me because I know old habits never really die they just go dormant until something kicks them into gear again.
I see the beginning of a pattern. That time from 5:30 pm – 7:00 pm is a very hungry time for me. This makes sense, because that is dinnertime for most people. It seems no matter how hard I try (more often than not) dinner doesn’t get to the table until 7:30 or even 8:30 at night. That’s just too late. I’m going to have to give this situation some time and attention because I’ve worked so hard to build healthy habits and I don’t want to sabotage myself by eating too many SmartPoints because I’m legitimately hungry.
If change is something you’re after then you need an “action plan”. A goal comes in the form of two parts, a “why” and an “action plan”. The why is the endurance it keeps you striving so it’s really important! The action plan is the muscle, it’s the thing that keeps you moving forward. This is how you get across the finish line.
I made my second goal – I went to 5:15 am spin class and I had a great workout. Everyone who goes to that class is friendly and into fitness and they make me feel like one of them. As always it’s a great feeling to be part of a community. It was a lot of fun and I felt strong all day long. I am so grateful that I found an activity that I really enjoy. It makes a difference.
What’s up for tomorrow? Well, I’d like to roll over another four points. I did not roll over any points today. I ate every last one. Maybe I can stagger my food/fitness goals for the week. That might be fun to see if I can make that happen. My attitude about this is pretty much let’s try and see what happens. I want to keep it light. Know what I mean? If I don’t meet a goal, I don’t want to feel bad. This whole journey is about improving the quality of my life, not to make me feel inadequate.
I hope that you are setting goals and creating action plans to make them happen. I hope you are feeling good about your journey. I hope you are being kind to yourself. If you are trying to lose weight, no matter what your progress, you are doing something amazing.
What is it about the Super Bowl? It’s as much about the snacks and food as it is the game I was mindful of my portion sizes and snacked only on the things I wanted. I kept it together and didn’t go out for ice cream. These are the day-to-day choices that are making it possible for me to maintain weight loss. Honestly, it drives me crazy that it’s still so difficult to keep it together sometimes.
Old habits are there and they never seem to go away. I don’t want you to think that it’s not worth the effort, because it really is worth it. I feel very healthy, I can move easily and I have a lot of energy. I have my “why” it’s here right now. I don’t have to wish for it, I have it. It wasn’t given to me it was something I had to get for myself. Plus, now I have all these new habits and I can lean into those so I can manage the old ones.
The thing is I want to progress and keep building momentum. I’d like to lose four pounds. I think the best way for me to do that is to follow the WW program. I had a goal to stay in my healthy eating zone for the full month of February. I didn’t keep that goal close enough today because I exceeded my healthy zone. So, I’m just going to have to revise it. Instead, I’m going to try to roll over four points tomorrow. It’s a fresh start and it will help put me back on track. I’m going to keep my goals small and assess them from day-to-day.
My parting words… I’m going to keep working on my mindset. Even when I make choices that don’t help me out with my goals I’m going to be accountable and track them. I’m going to be more strategic with my food choices. Of course, I will track and measure, and I’m going to keep finding ways to fit in activity that I enjoy. These are things I can control.
Busy, busy, busy. Today moved along at a brisk pace. A lot of things came together and jived from morning till now:
I made spin class at 5:15 am. There were three people there waiting to get in – isn’t that amazing? So many people are so dedicated to their health goals. This is very inspiring to me.
Work moved along well and I felt productive and good about what I was able to complete.
Dinner went over well, 9sp chicken with pasta and tomatoes. Everyone seemed to enjoy it. Plus, I am in the Blue Dot zone, that always feels good.
I am doing some great work keeping my goals in the forefront. I am working out, tracking, eating mindfully. I am prepping my foods and trying some new recipes. These are all choices I am making to help myself. What have you been doing for yourself lately?
In case you’re wondering about my featured image… it is Brooklyn, New York. At the end of the month, I’ll be going to school there for training. I’m nervous about it because it’s something I’ve never done before. I am working on a plan for how to handle it. Right now, I just feel a little queasy about the whole thing. Anyway – Brooklyn, I’ll see you soon.