I felt in charge and in control today. I went off plan a few days this week; however, I am very happy about achieving my activity goals I wanted to go to spin at least three times and I went four!
I fully embrace that I am not perfect and I am confident at the same time. I am not afraid to fail publicly – if some good can come out of it. The only regret I would have would be if I missed an opportunity to grow – this journey is about personal growth.
The truth? There is no good or bad in my pursuit for lasting weight loss. It is not a success or failure sort of endeavor. There is only a continuous inner search for balance. Today I tapped into my balance reserves and I felt in control and empowered for most of the day. That is a gift and I am grateful.
I weigh-in tomorrow, I’m feeling good. Reflecting on my week I can say that it’s been hard to focus on myself. I’ve had to put my needs on the back burner while I handle everything life is throwing at me. It’s a pretty safe bet to say if you’re reading this post you can understand.
I had a few small wins this week. I went to spin two times, I was mindful about my food choices, I tracked even when I knew it would put my weeklies at -4 SmartPoints. I’m ending the week with a +2 so that makes me happy. I had some cravings for comfort foods that I didn’t indulge. When I thought about how far I’ve come and why I’m doing this it was easier to say no to temptations. The rational part of my mind understands that it’s not really the food I want as much as a reprieve from stress.
So either way, no matter what, I am better off today than I was a year ago. Even if I don’t make goal tomorrow I’m proud of myself because I’m not giving up. So, stay at this with me, ok? Believe it, I can do this and so can you.
I will be donating the food in my featured image towards the Weight Watchers Good campaign. I am glad to be part of something that makes a positive contribution. As I think about my weigh-in tomorrow I am hopeful. I am ending this week -1 Smartpoint, The point is I know what I ate this week because I tracked weighed and measured everything. That’s good news and more good news? I went to spin class today and had a fantastic ride and a nice cup of coffee afterward.
Now I’m back with the books. I’ll be posting tomorrow, I’ll let you know what happens. But before I go, I want to take a moment to appreciate how far I have come. Both of these pictures were taken at a local festival, Cow Harbor Day. They are about six years apart. I am almost at goal. If I’m up tomorrow, I am just going to power through it. I can do this and (if you really want it) so can you.
Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I am reflecting on my week. I have taken action to keep going, even though it’s been difficult for me lately. I went to spin two times, I packed my lunch and breakfast, I tracked everything, I weighed and measured everything, I practiced mindful eating (especially when I waited too long to eat) so I didn’t just wolf down my food I tried to really show my appreciation for having food to eat. I helped a friend who was struggling by going through a hard time on her weight loss journey (I went through the three steps for taking a strategic stance for weight loss and they worked Day 374)!
So… if my results do not show up in numbers this week how will I feel? I have decided this stall before goal is like a test. How much do I want to get to goal? I really want to get there, as much as I have since the beginning. Once in a while, I will also really want to eat two scoops of gelato, I can have both – the gelato and goal I just have to understand my choices at the moment. There will be times when health issues may interfere with weight loss, that’s life. There will be weeks like I had this one that will be extraordinarily stressful, that’s life too. This is not easy, and that’s why a lot of people give up.
I’m not going to give up, and maybe I’m thinking about goal as a destination when it’s really the path. In some ways, I’m already there because my goal was to change my lifestyle I’ve definitely done that I live my life completely differently when it comes to food. Even though I (really really) want to see a particular number on the scale, the number itself is really secondary. I’ll let you know.
It was a challenging week. The day before weigh-in is here again and I am dedicating myself to the plan. I am afraid my efforts won’t match my result in numbers because, although, there is so much within my control, I don’t control everything!
So instead of focusing on these last 3 pounds to goal. I’m going to celebrate that I have radically changed my life for the better. By doing the work, and making the choices I’ve made I am doing something that remains elusive for many people.
If you are on this journey, keep at it. Sometimes you’ve got to keep your head down and keep working whatever program (I do love Weight Watchers) and stay positive inside. Be your own light and change your life.