I went to spin class and the thing that’s funny about that is that it was a Pulse class. A Pulse class shows your heart rate up on a shared screen and everyone can see how they are doing in relations to the group. Usually, it’s pretty anonymous – not today. Today I was up on the board with only two other people. Since there were so few people who opted to participate the instructor kept encouraging me and so did all the other people. In the end, I had a great workout and now I’m feeling very accomplished.

I reached my goal and it’s only Monday!

Then I came home and made a delicious breakfast. I think one of the reasons that WW works so well for everyone (who follows the program) is because I am eating real food. I’m learning how to manage portion sizes, and I’m being intentional about eating a balanced diet. For anything to work for me it has to teach and support my efforts – that’s why I am loyal to WW.

4 SmartPoints

Just like that… the sugar cravings are gone. I think pushing through last night was really important. Weight loss is so full of challenges, and I think that’s why so many people quit. Who can blame them? This can be so frustrating! There are times when this journey can just make me want to put my head down and wait it out. Then there are days like today where everything seems to be coming together. So strange.

Please don’t feel discouraged if it’s not going that well, say something kind and acknowledge your efforts. This can be an emotional journey and it’s so hard to want something and have to wait so long to get it. I really understand.

One last thing – here is a product that can help you along. This is amazing bread at just 1 SmartPoint per serving:

Amazing bread I don’t know how they do it!

Sweet Tooth…

Today is the kind of day that drives me crazy because I just want to eat ice cream, cookies, cake, or (and, who am I kidding, it’s and) candy. Yes, I can have any these (but not all of them) so long as I am accountable. The way I hold myself accountable is by tracking, weighing, and measuring. I hold myself accountable by paying attention to what I’m eating – to really experience the food. I hold myself accountable by being mindful, not mindless.

What Kind of Monster? A Muppet or an Orc…

There are times when it is a good idea to indulge in the craving. Sometimes, if that craving goes ignored, it comes back with a vengeance! Otherwise, what began as a mischievous little muppet, just have an Enlightened bar; will come back as a great big scary Orc, just eat the whole box of Enlightened bars! A sugar craving has the power to chase me right into the kitchen where I may be likely to lose control.

Stop Running… There are No Monsters…

The truth? I am creating my own monsters. Why am I craving sugar? I went to spin class this morning. I have worked hard all day to track everything I ate. I want to stay within my “Blue Dot Zone” so why would I want to sabotage my efforts? What do I really want? I want to reach my goal. I want to say “No” and mean it. I want to understand. Why does this happen to me?

I don’t have the answer to that question tonight but I think it’s kind of special that I asked the question in the first place. I think the question and the attention to the craving have deflated it so I am saying “No” and I mean it. Honestly, that feels pretty amazing. I have talked myself out of my sugar craving instead of convincing myself it’s ok to indulge it. Wow. That’s a new one. Pretty cool.

You know, Cookie Monster was always one of my favorites. He made me belly laugh just now. I also think I have to remind myself not to take it all so seriously. I hope you are finding joy on the journey. You are amazing don’t forget it.

Day Three Hundred Fifty-Three…

The day before weigh-in is here and I’m pretty sure I will go up on the scale tomorrow.  This was a challenging week because I felt the pull of old habits,

  •  wanting to turn to food after having stressful encounters.
  •  strong food cravings for ice cream, and pizza.
  •  picking at foods and thinking about not tracking.

Any of these could have triggered for old habits. That is why it is important that I take some time for reflection and self-care. It all comes down to food, activity, and feelings.

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Food: I exceeded my weekly points balance. I was craving sugar for most of this week. I think it’s because I overindulged at my nephew’s party. I ate sugary foods and that’s not typical for me anymore. Over the course of the week, I ate two and a quarter of those delicious scones. At the party, I ate a quarter of one, then I ate a whole one on Monday, and the last one, Tuesday. Also, during the party, I ate two small pieces of cake. Then I had a slice (2 ounces) of cake last night for my husband’s birthday.  I did track it all, so that’s how I know I’m over my weekly allotment of extra points.

Activity: I went to spin class two days this week: Sunday and Thursday.  The classes were really good and I am feeling much stronger. I also did yoga two times, Monday, and Friday. Yoga is very good for me because it is making me feel more flexible, strong, and balanced. I love that I enjoy doing these activities and that doing them, is becoming part of my self-identity. I am also enjoying the Polar Heart Monitor I got for my birthday. It is a tool that is helping me to work way more efficiently and it gives me great insight for training while making me more self-aware.

Feelings: Right now, I feel really empowered. I saw the potential to fall back into old habits before it actually happened. I saw it coming and went in a different direction.  I elected not to turn to food when feeling stressed. That’s a big deal. I tracked, weighed and measured all the foods I ate. There was not unconscious eating, I tracked even when I didn’t want to face it. That’s a big deal too. I disrupted my habit loop. So, even if I go up on the scale tomorrow, I learned something vital. I am in control of me.

There is no mystery or superstition at play here. There are only my choices.  My choices that are rooted in my “why”. I am doing all of this so I can feel good about myself physically and mentally. I want to grow wiser about who I really am living an energetic lifestyle. It is very important to me that I enter this next phase of my life with a sense of grace and gratitude for the body that got me here.  Thank you for listening to my story. I encourage you to write yours as well because it really does help. Wishing you joy on the journey.


DAY 23: Revisit (and do) an activity that you loved as a child, whether it is finger painting, playing a sport or a video game, Rollerblading, or twirling.

Hands down, it’s riding my bicycle.  I’m going for a bike ride at some point today!