Day Thirty-Three…

This week is shaping up to be a rough one. Lots of stress, and poor choices. It’s time for a reset. This is a journey for life, so I don’t know why I’m surprised that I’m struggling it’s just unrealistic to imagine that there wouldn’t be some struggle along the way. The questions I have to ask myself are: What do I do next? How do I handle this?

I don’t really have all the answers. I wish I could make a quick bulleted list of next steps to deal with this that would help me and others too. I really just want to share that I’m having a hard time this week. Sometimes this is very hard and especially when there is a lot going on. I think just admitting that truth is a sign of some personal growth.

Thank you for reading my post and know I am here rooting for you and your success.

Day Thirty-One…

There are times when I wish I could just start over and “do over” some of my choices. Today is one of those days. I started out strong, I went to spin at 5:15 am and that was awesome. I packed my breakfast and lunch and both were very good.  Then during professional development, I started thinking about having a piece of candy, but I decided not to eat one.

After that, it all went downhill. I made poor choices, and I picked on foods while I was making dinner. I ate late and then I had dessert. Now I feel sick to my stomach. I plan on drinking a glass of water, brushing my teeth and going to bed. Tomorrow is a new day to start over.  That’s the way it goes sometimes. I really don’t want to beat myself up, but I also don’t want to ignore the tendency to overdo it when it comes to food.

What can learn from today? I still need strategies when I find myself reaching for food. I am underestimating how stress affects me because I had a couple of stressful moments today and clearly the food was an attempt to elevate some of that negativity.  So tomorrow, if I I feel this same tug of wanting to eat when I’m not hungry – I will engage the internal/external hunger exercise that has been so helpful in the past. I will also eat more mindfully.

I’ll let you know how it goes. I hope you had a good day on the journey. If you didn’t don’t give up!

Day Twenty-Two…

The holiday season has begun and I am feeling conflicted.  I am in a rut and I think I have to change some things up. Today began with a great spin class but it was a struggle most of the day to stay on plan. I went food shopping yesterday, and I bagged all my vegetables today.  After I finish writing this post, I am going to pack and track my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow.

Thanksgiving marks a tricky time of year for me. I struggled this time last year too, and I pushed through it. I just have to gather up my resolve and keep moving. I love feeling energetic, and I also enjoy wearing a smaller size, and I know this is a much healthier way of living. Everything has a price and the cost of living this way is paid through constant effort and reflection.

It would be easy to fool myself into believing that this is my natural way of being. That it doesn’t take work to get to goal and to maintain it.  I could just turn off the reflective part of me and just ignore the warning signs that lead me to gain and lose and gain and lose and continue to the cycle.  I’ve come too far for that now.  I’ve seen the truth about myself and I can’t unsee it – so, here I sit writing these words for you to read.

I’m struggling but I’ll get through it. Want to know why I say that? I believe I can do this. I truly believe in myself. When I feel the tug of old habits I am going to lean into my newer ones. Habits are both a prison and key. Sometimes, they bore you into submission; while other times they set you free. It’s complicated.  If I can keep going, so can you. Just believe in yourself and trust that you can do it. Ok?

As always, thank you for reading and sending me your support. It feels good to know there are others who understand, and also know that I am sending my support back out there to you.  Go us! We can do this… together.

Lunch Box
Breakfast: 0sp Lunch: 4sp Snack: 1sp