Tonight was brutal. It really was. There will be no spin class for me tomorrow morning because it’s far too late for that. I still have work to do and it’s very late for a school night. My lunch isn’t made and I am getting sick. This not self-care!
This is true…
Stretching myself beyond what I am right now to what I hope to become is difficult. I can do hard things. I accomplished a lot and I didn’t give up. This is a remarkable quality I am tenacious! Here is what I’m going to do next, am going to finish what needs to be done and then I will get some good sleep.
Sometimes the right thing to do acknowledge both sides of the same reality. I think I gained weight because I didn’t know how to manage my stress levels. There is no magic strategy but I am becoming more self aware.
Worries followed me like my shadow today. Plus, I was very unlucky and lost my seat at the 5:15 am spin class. I left my breakfast and lunch home. On top of that, I dealt with some difficult conversations at work, and then I ended up staying late to help manage a situation after school. It was a stressful day.
On the other hand, my husband took the 40 minute ride dropped off my food at school. What a guy. I had a great day coaching and teaching. I was there or my colleagues when they needed me. Even if I can’t please everyone I am still worthy and good. I am enough.
Today was another crazy work day! And tomorrow is going to be another. There is no time for me right now. I can’t imagine why I did this to myself. Oh yeah… money. Ok, so I’m in the thick of it right now.
I used all my points today but I did make some very good food choices. For breakfast, I had nonfat Greek yogurt and berries and banana. A few hours later I had some vegetable sticks and a cheese stick as a mid-morning snack. For lunch, I had one cup of three bean chili with cheese and diced tomato on top. Later, I had a small sweet potato with 7 grams of butter (yup I weighed the butter) as a late afternoon snack For dinner,. I ate a cup of rice with black beans and cilantro and 5 oz of turkey kielbasa. For dessert, I ate two sugar-free dark chocolate jellos (yeah, I probably only needed one but I wanted two) with fat-free whipped cream. As I look back on my day I could’ve eaten less cheese but either way, I would say it was a good day on plan.
I’m turning in because I’m tired. I did do my little nighttime ritual, washing my face with my favorite soap, applying my facial cream, and (of course) flossing and brushing my teeth. These small acts are a way to practice a little self-care amidst my professional chaos. I am so grateful to be where I am right now even though I’m not at goal yet. Every day I remind myself that I can do this. I tell myself every small step gets me closer to goal. I can do this, and so can you.