Days Eight, Nine, Ten…

With summertime comes graduation parties, and quick getaways and they are culprits that have pulled me out my blogging. It is an overall lack of commitment that I have to battle these days. I’ve written about strong starts and stops and that kind of captures where I’m at. It’s not all doom and gloom over here but it’s also not the way for consistent maintenance success either. Here are my food confessions…

Day Eight

I went to a graduation party and celebrated my nephew’s high school graduation. It was a beautiful party and it was great to be with my family. Of course with family comes food! And there was a lot of food! I ate small portions but I did try a lot of different things. I didn’t drink, and I didn’t eat dessert so those were wins. I did eat a piece of chicken cutlet hero that was very good. I toyed with the idea of not eating both pieces of bread but in the end I ate the entire slice. I also had a hot dog because it really appealed to me. Then I tried some macaroni salad, green salad, eggplant rollatini, and penne a la vodka. I did not eat a cheeseburger, chicken wings, french fries, or any of the other mayo based salads. Day ten goes to the negative column.

Day Nine

I went away – I saw Blondie and Elvis Costello at Mohegan Sun and they were terrific. I got dressed up, I bought a concert shirt, and I was relatively good on plan but I didn’t track. I said, “No” to the really bad choices like cake, onion rings, bagels, and processed foods in general. I did have a couple of drinks but overall, Day Nine goes to the plus column.

Day Ten

My weekend getaway was over and I was on my way home, and truthfully, I was pretty miserable. I can’t believe that on the ferry home there were no healthy choices, no yogurt, not even a piece of fruit. In the end I ate an apple cinnamon scone which made me feel hungrier. I over indulged later because I was too hungry. I wanted to track, but my WW app was down and I couldn’t get into my account. I’m not blaming WW, my choices are my choices, I could have just used a pen and paper or even recorded it here. Day ten goes the negative column with a bullet.

There it is the bad, the good, and the bad. Two bad days, one good one. Today is headed in the positive column and I’ll be posting on that later. Readers, I am struggling a bit. I don’t really want to write about struggle because, I don’t want that to be my story but I have to be honest. I had to reinstate my membership fees with WW because I’m outside of my range, and it’s dumb to keep paying week-to-week as though I can catch myself up quickly. I can’t, it is going to take time to get back to Lifetime status. I am not happy but I have no choice but to keep going. Anyway, if you’re reading this and are finding yourself in a similar spot, just know that failure doesn’t mean over. Failures open the doors to new beginnings. This is a process embrace it and just keep going.

Day Three Hundred Sixty-Nine…

This post is coming at you late because it has been a long day of work. I spent most of today writing on my computer. I found myself thinking about food a couple of times. Two times were because I was experiencing internal hunger. Time had slipped by and I had not eaten in over four hours and I wasn’t craving anything, in particular, I just wanted to eat something. However, one time I was thinking about a Carvelite Ice Cream Cone and that was a desire to alleviate some stress. I didn’t go for the cone because I had a chocolate chip cookie after lunch. I’m ending the day with one rollover point. Breakfast 2sp; Lunch 8sp; and Dinner was 10sp.

So while I have this tremendous workload going I decided, I needed a boost. So I did two things to help myself…

One: I prepared a really delicious dinner. I cleared my dining room table of all my books and the whole family sat and enjoyed the meal together. It was homemade sauce (with pork) and pasta. A true comfort meal for me and I was able to eat it, enjoy it, and still stay on plan. I did weigh and measure my serving, and I had a piece of bread to dip in my leftover sauce. So darn good.

Two: I needed a visual anchor to remind myself of how far I’ve come in terms of weight loss. On my right, is my mother’s ring sparkling up at me. There to remind me of all the years it was tucked away in a draw because I couldn’t wear it.  On my left, my engagement ring, and wedding ring which were at one time, too small for my fingers. Now they are so loose they turn to the side. I did that.

I think it’s important to give yourself a chance to be successful. When you know you are going to be up against it you’ve got to plan in some relief. Celebrate all the victories none are too small. Believe you can do it even when your circumstances aren’t ideal. You are worth every ounce of effort. I’ll be back at this tomorrow. Do this with me we can all get to goal.