In November 2018 I made it to my WW goal. My motivation for getting to goal was to get my energy and confidence back. I wanted to get back that sense of “lightness” that sense of ease I used to have moving around in the world. That why was enough to sustain me and carry me through over a year of effort. I was elated.
Since achieving goal, I have gone on to be a Lifetime member. In WW world that means you no longer have to pay so long as you maintain a two pound range. I was able to maintain that until August this year. Right now, I am above that two pound range and have some work to get back to my “free seat”.
Things are a bit different this go around though. Even though I’m outside my range, I still have the energy I strived for, and I do feel that same sense of confidence. My clothes fit; although some of my jeans are a little tight, which I don’t care for that very much… I am 13 pounds away from Lifetime. This time, getting back to goal has to be driven by a why, it has to be one that fits my current situation.
I don’t want my why to be driven by fear of gaining back the weight. I want my why to be a positive thing, something that will inspire me and (I hope) others. I want to learn how to be mindful, someone who understand herself better. I want to try to grow beyond this struggle. I’m not sure exactly how I will do this yet… but this is what I’m thinking. My why is a work in progress but I think I’m getting closer.
There are so many things outside of my control that sometimes I have to just step back and breathe. I have a big job and I have big professional goals and together, they create a lot of pressure for me. This is not an original problem. Lots of us deal with stressful situations and people at work so handling pressure is something we all have to learn.
I am not rolling over four points today because I went to lunch at a Mexican restaurant in NYC. I had to go into the city and it was decided that Mexican food was on the menu. So I rolled with it because being a member of WW means that I know how to be flexible. I ordered a chicken burrito bowl and had kale instead of rice. It sounds weird but it was really good. So by the end of the day today, I’m rolling over 1 point, not 4 – that’s the honest truth.
I can say, I had an added bonus I walked the city at a high pace for many blocks. I would say I spent a 1/2 hour walking. So, I can put that in my “wins” column. So today, I am rolling over one point, and accumulated 7 “fit points”. I am scheduled for spin class and if I make it – I will have achieved another small goal. You know having these mini-goals is helping me to stay on track. I could have eaten a 3sp rice pudding for dessert but I decided against it because at least I’m rolling over the one point. See how that works?
Anyway, thank you for reading and for your likes and comments. It helps me to know that there are other people out there who are like me. As I close out today’s post, I want to share a picture I posted on #connect. This is one of those #TuesdayTransformation posts:
Even though today was hard I have a lot to be thankful for, good friends, loving family, a career I care about, a chance to do some good, and a family who loves me. Writing really helped me tonight to count my blessings. I recommend it if you are feeling overwhelmed.
I am pushing myself to grow. I am traveling on my own for work. I’m not an experienced traveler. I am attending an institute at Teachers College so I’m going back and forth from NYC and Brooklyn. Plus, I being pushed to work hard to learn and be more than I am now. This is all very daunting and in the past, I might have rewarded myself with a big bag of M&M peanuts when I finally returned back to my hotel. I do enjoy those 🙂
However, I changed that story today. Instead, I checked in, ate dinner and got in a workout in the hotel’s fitness center. I used the Active app and it was a lot of fun. I found it an encouraging experience that helped me to boost my activity to a higher level of fitness. I’m grateful for that. I have to say #WW was really smart with the suite of apps they include as part of being a member.
I think I’m learning that this is how maintenance is going to be. There is going to be an ebb and flow to this lifestyle. It is not going to be a fixed destination. One where I set myself on autopilot and I arrive. No. This is more of a get a map and learn how to read the stars, gauge the currents kind of journey. Maintenance requires all hands on deck let’s turn this ship around. Yes, I’m looking at you my Saturday morning friends. (thank you).
Here are some ways I helped myself today. What are you doing to help yourself? I hope you’re having a great week.