My Kindness Mantra…

You are worth all the effort maintaining weight loss takes. It is ok to take time to plan, to weigh and measure foods, to focus on you and what is important to you. The stronger you are, the better you can take care of yourself and everyone else that relies on you.

In times of stress and worry it’s easy to put your needs on the back burner. Try not to do that, because you are important too. Treat yourself as you would someone who you really love. Self-love is not selfish – it is kindness turned inward. You can do this and just remember how remarkable you are.

This note is for me, and you. Weight loss is a difficult thing, maintaining it is also difficult, so remember that if you get down on yourself. You are doing something difficult but it’s something you are doing just for yourself.

Failure…

I ate too much yesterday and now I feel like a failure. I let old habits creep in and I ate mindlessly. Failure isn’t fun. My rational mind says, “Don’t be ridiculous, you’re being dumb.” While my emotional mind says “Yep, you blew it. Back to old habits.” The two vacillate back and forth as if it’s a vengeful tennis match and my neck hurts from whiplash as I watch the volley.

Me and my rational/emotional mind games.

Hey, did you notice that neither voice was very kind? I just did reading this back to myself.

As my friend, Regina would say, “I’m going to throw myself a pity party.” This is so damn hard sometimes. I wish, wish, wish it weren’t but it is and I don’t think it will ever get easier. I think I’m always going to have to think about this and fight my natural predisposition about food. That sucks, that really sucks, boo-hoo… That’s it. That’s all I have to say about that. It actually helps to say that here because this blog is my place to always tell the truth about what it takes to lose weight and maintain my weight loss. It just plain old sucks.

I put in “beauty” in my media library and this image showed up – it is truly beautiful.

So what’s next? Well, I printed my action plan. The one I wrote the other day – and I’m putting it up and am going to carry it around with me. I can try that. I can forgive myself because this is hard, and I have done something amazing – I lost 93 pounds. That’s literally a huge accomplishment. Today I entered my code for my #WW #LIFETIME status and that is something to be really proud of – I did that – me. I can remind myself of all of this as I write this post sitting in my kitchen, cooking homemade sauce in my size four jeans. I’m doing this for me and I am hoping my words are reaching you and inspiring you to do the same.

Day Forty…

Thank you to everyone for all the support and love. This was a cool message to get…

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Full confession, some of those likes are my own because (especially when I was starting out)I see it as a kind of positive self-talk.  Kindness counts and it meant to be given freely and generously so why not lavish it on yourself?

Saturday is my day to see if I make Lifetime and I’m starting to get a little nervous that it may not happen. I hope I’m wrong because I would really love to make this goal right out of the gate. That would be great, plus it would be awesome to (finally) sit in a free seat.  In the scheme of things, the more important part of this is that I am learning how to live my life in a healthy way.

Yes, you can do this and so can I.

 

Day Four Hundred-Five…

I am enough. I am doing the best I can and I am enough. If my mom were here she would say, “I’m so proud of you Jennifer. You are amazing. You can do anything you set your mind to and I love you.”  I really hope whoever you are, if you’re reading this post, you take some time to say some positive about yourself.

Live your life in the body you want, believe it, you can make it happen.