Today a teacher’s assistant made a joke that maybe I should gain some weight. Yes, that happened. I don’t think she meant to be insensitive, sometimes people don’t realize how their words may be received. I include myself in that crowd. I’m sure if you were to go through my posts, you’d find things that could be misinterpreted. Words are powerful. Sharing my story is one way I was able to get to goal and achieve Lifetime status. Now it’s an important part of how I manage maintenance. This is where I try to be completely honest about how it’s going.
So… how’s it going?
I’ve been struggling lately, I have found myself picking at food and not tracking. Eating some foods that are not helpful and tend to make me hungrier. For example, I love cereal but it’s not a good food choice for me. I’ve been finding myself in the kitchen on the hunt for something to eat when I’m not really hungry. It’s only just recently over the past few days, that I’ve been able to turn it around. I’m tracking and I’m rolling over points. I’m being thoughtful about what I eat and how much. I’m working on being mindful and that helps a lot.
I guess I’m learning not to be so fixed with my story and to just be open to what is really happening now. I can do this, I can do this. I can do this. So can you.
My featured image was from Saturday. Saturday was full of blue skies and leisurely walks through the park. It was bright and cheerful and I felt free to do as I pleased. Today was full of commuting in the rain, gloomy weather that was unseasonably cold. By the time I got home I was soaked. I can focus on the bad, or I can focus on the good. Either way, I think it’s important that I acknowledge them both.
This reminds me to remember there are good days and bad days on the journey. What I elect to focus on will help me to shape my attitude. I had a good day on plan, I’m signed up for spin, I believe in me. That’s how I see it.
But it got worse as the day went on. I’m officially in a bad patch on plan. I’m going to my WW meeting tomorrow but I’m not getting weighed. I just can’t face it. I don’t think it will be helpful. It’s not that I’m in denial I know I’ve gained this week. At this point it won’t be feedback it will be a beating. I will start over tomorrow.
Today, is the day I read my emergency letter I’ve read it before, and it really helped me. One piece of advice I gave to myself is to think through what happened before these old habits came back. I am worried that I squandered my time over the break and did not do enough to prepare for the week ahead. I have quite a lot of work to do and now the clock is ticking. A better way to deal with this is to just get started.
Tomorrow is a new week and another chance to start again. I’m not giving up on me. I see what needs to change, and I’m good at making change happen. I’ll write a list that helps me and I’ll start tomorrow.
Thank you for reading, thank you for supporting me on this journey. I am grateful to have this space to share. I hope it helps you too.
I did a good job this week. St. Patrick’s Day was challenging because I went way over my SmartPoints allowance that day. I do love my sister’s Irish Soda Bread, and my sister-in-law’s corned beef! I did recover from that and I’m ending my week with SmartPoints in my bank, and I have exceeded my fitness goal. I practiced my goal for being mindful about bedtime routines each night this week and it certainly helped me. I have to think on what would come next, I am not sure yet.
I hope I go down on the scale tomorrow but either way, I had a great week. I hope you did too. Please be good to yourself because weight loss is already hard enough.
Today was a sick day. I mostly felt bad about being sick but I can’t help it I just am. I need to get some rest and hope I’m feeling better tomorrow. Some days are better than others today was a rough one. Either way, I hope you had a good day on the journey. More tomorrow.