I’ve been on track with my fitness goal this week. and I notice that I’m feeling fit. I feel agile, I have lots of energy, and my posture seems better. I have good control over my breath and when I raise my heart rate during very challenging parts of my workouts, I can bring it back down. This is very neat, because lowering my heart rate is a work in progress.
It’s easy to take progress for granted. It’s easy to get down on my failures. I think for today, I just want to celebrate what is going well. I’m feeling healthy and fit today- it’s really nice to feel this way.
It’s the day before work begins again, and I have packed and tracked my breakfast and lunch. I know what I’ll be making for dinner, chicken, and potatoes with a vegetable. I might go to spin class at 6:30 PM tomorrow but I have to see how the day goes. I go to spin for fun, not for an obligation. This is my “new normal” These are the healthy habits that have helped me to lose 93 pounds.
Is my weight loss going to be permanent? On the surface it’s simple. If I maintain these habits and don’t let my old ones resurface – yes. If I let myself fall into old habits then no. I know the truth, and the truth is I cannot sustain eating the way I used to and maintain my current weight. I realize it may sound crazy but it would be so easy to fall back. It helps that I am self-aware of this truth. It helps but it doesn’t solve it. The only person who can decide my fate is me and that is pretty daunting.
I tracked everything I ate today. I am carrying over two SmartPoints and that feels good. If I get through the next two days maintaining my healthy habits I think I’ll be in good shape. I’m going through this rough patch and it has lasted longer than I’d like. It’s almost like I’m trying to absolve myself of my past discretions by writing them down here for you to read. But that’s not really it – I think I’m doing this because I hope that you can understand how difficult this is for me. I hope that you can relate to my struggle. This is definitely hard, but it’d be worse if I thought I was the only one. It helps to know that others are able to overcome their old habits. When I think about it that way, it makes me feel like I can do it too.
I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself, but I think my rough patch is ending. I think I’m on the way back to the routines that have served me so well. I don’t think I could get myself back if I had stopped writing. If you read my posts I hope there is something of use in them for you too. If you are feeling like you lost your way on the road to better health know that the trail is waiting for you to find your footing. Take my words as markers to find the way back. You can do it. I know you can because I know I can do it too.
I began the day at spin class and spent the rest of it working.
I went to the library and worked for hours. When I came home, I wanted to do something before making dinner. So I took Sadie for a walk. She loved it…
For dinner, we made Birdballshomemade tomato sauce and pasta. I had two slices of bread, it was really delicious ciabatta bread from my favorite bakery. Well worth the extra points. Also, the birdballs are very satisfying and are a nice change. I’m glad I took the time to make and enjoy dinner. It helps.
Anyway, that’s it for today. Tomorrow will be challenging because I did not get to go food shopping (too busy working). So, I’ll have to get up a little earlier to make a plan. Making a plan is the thing that keeps me on plan.
I am rolling over one point and I am happy about it. I made a conscious decision to say no to some foods and yes to others. To anyone who does not understand what it’s like to have to lose weight, it must be hard to understand the power of that statement. It has been over a year since I began my weight loss journey in earnest and I am still very challenged some days to stay on plan.
This is no joke. Losing weight, maintaining weight loss, and finding ways to build myself up as I went through this process. During this time, I have experienced a lot of joy, a deeper appreciation for beauty, and a greater sense of my personal strength. In my past, the goal of weight loss had become so far away that it shook my personal conviction that I could really do this. I saw myself getting older, and being unhealthy, and living as a lesser version of myself. I, like so many, have a lot of serious health issues in my family history and I certainly am better off being 91.6 pounds lighter.
If you’re on the fence, or if it just seems too impossible to begin a weight loss plan; pause, take a timeout. Answer this question, “Why do I want to lose weight?” When you have that answer, ask this question, “What are my expectations?” Be honest because that is the seed that will help the process grow.
I hope my words today leave you feeling inspired, hopeful, and thoughtful. Know that I believe you are worth the effort. You are an important person who deserves to live life in the body of your choice. I believe this for you because I believe this for me.
I didn’t make my goal of rolling over four points. I had pizza for dinner and went over. Then I had a low-fat ice-cream cone and went over even more.
I know I am the kind of person who will always have to be vigilant about watching my weight. I was really disappointed about tracking the pizza, and then the cone tonight. It was upsetting to see the number go up on my app and that’s the truth. I believe tracking is a very important habit to cultivate. s what helps me to make my next move. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Today was a hungry day, some days just are, I can’t say why. Maybe it was cool weather, or maybe it’s because I’m a pound away from goal. I do feel good about how I handled it, I made good choices all day long. Also, I am rolling over one point so I’d say that is a victory all things considered.
I took the advice of other members too. When I went food shopping I bought things that are helpful with food prep like cut up fruits and vegetables. I mixed up my menu and made some fall favorites. Tonight we had butternut squash with apples. It was so delicious. I made mashed potatoes with the skins that made prepping dinner go a bit faster too. I am truly grateful for the collective wisdom of my Saturday morning Weight Watchers group.
What is a trigger for you? I’m thinking a lot about triggers and how they influence behavior. I caught myself reaching for food when I was really feeling stressed. It doesn’t matter if it’s a bag of vegetables or a slice of chocolate cake. The point is, am I hungry or not? This is a big lesson for me because I didn’t make the connections between my actions and behaviors. Or, if I did I didn’t really understand it. I think intellectually I understood I did these things, but when it was happening I didn’t see it. I was on auto-pilot. Now I see it and I know I can change the path I take. That is really something amazing to me. That’s empowerment.
Speaking of empowerment. I tried on an Oscar Della Renta dress at a second-hand store today, and it looked amazing. I didn’t buy it but it was pretty fabulous.