Day Thirty-Five…

This is yesterday’s post (my blog wouldn’t let me post it last night):

So… I gained four pounds this week. I don’t know what to say about that. If you read my blog you know that I’ve been struggling. This is what maintaining weight loss is. I am trying to rewire my brain to understand that there are limits when it comes to food. I’m pretty disappointed about the gain. I know there are lots of people who understand how I feel. They understand because maintaining weight loss can be difficult. However, when I think about my life, I have accomplished many difficult things so really, why not this?  

I am determined to accomplish this goal. The rest of my life cannot be “less than” it could be. I want to have as much energy and physical strength as a possible. In order to make that happen, a big part of my  “why” has to do with maintaining my weight loss. I want to be able to wear clothes that I like and feel confident and (for me) that involves maintaining my weight loss. These are very good reasons to keep at this.

I am very proud of myself for making my weight loss journey happen. It took a lot of effort, care, and attention to get to goal. I worked hard at this, and manged to enjoy the process throughout my ups and downs. Having goals to work towards is great, but it is also very important to recognize and appreciate “the now” and where I’m at right now is pretty good.

My plan for the week:

  • Track all my food
  • Meet my fitness goal
  • Monitor my emotions
  • Eat mindfully

Hopefully this time next week, I’ll be celebrating “Lifetime” status. Fingers crossed wish me some luck because a little good luck never hurt anyone.   

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Day Twenty-Nine…

Exhausted. Christmas is here and thankfully it all looks beautiful. I ate three Christmas cookies, and I did think about each one. I tracked them and needless to say this was not a “blue dot day” and now I feel a little remorse.  Learning how to manage cravings and bad choices is all part of the journey.

Sometimes (most of the time) I wish I didn’t have to think so much about this. To someone reading this blog they may say, “So what? She ate three cookies, big deal.” It’s not about the three cookies it’s the desire to eat them won over my better judgment. Anyway, it’s ok it’s only Sunday I can get myself together for the rest of the week.

Thank you for reading, and sending your support. Know that I send it all back to you as you travel your path to better health too. More tomorrow.

Day Twenty-Seven…

The Christmas season has begun in our household. We bought this beauty tonight…

We went with the Fraser Fir. I love the color, the smell, and the whole ritual of picking out the tree. All of it, the music, the decorations, and let’s not forget the cookies! Well, moderation is better than no cookies at all.

This time of year is so thick with nostalgia and I am grateful for my childhood memories of home and family. I do my best to make the season festive and happy for my own children. They are starting to leave subtle hints about what they may like to find under the tree this year.

I’m thinking about how special it is to give the people you love a special gift that they will truly enjoy. I love making them happy and am willing to wait on lines, save up money, and search out the deals just so everyone gets what they want.

As I reflect on this year, I realize this time I’ve spent on my journey has been a gift I’ve given to myself. Getting to goal and working towards Maintenance is my ultimate gift because I got back my own sense of self. Sometimes, it doesn’t seem real, and sometimes I can forget how I once felt. It’s very strange to be so transformed.

My wish for you is that you are feeling well as we enter into a season that is marked by love, generosity, and faith. Believe you can do this because that is the truth.

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I forgot one more thing! I did make my 5:15 am spin class and it was so much fun. People were happy to see me and I felt amazing for the rest of the day… Find some kind of activity you enjoy it really helps.