Day Thirty-One…

There are times when I wish I could just start over and “do over” some of my choices. Today is one of those days. I started out strong, I went to spin at 5:15 am and that was awesome. I packed my breakfast and lunch and both were very good.  Then during professional development, I started thinking about having a piece of candy, but I decided not to eat one.

After that, it all went downhill. I made poor choices, and I picked on foods while I was making dinner. I ate late and then I had dessert. Now I feel sick to my stomach. I plan on drinking a glass of water, brushing my teeth and going to bed. Tomorrow is a new day to start over.  That’s the way it goes sometimes. I really don’t want to beat myself up, but I also don’t want to ignore the tendency to overdo it when it comes to food.

What can learn from today? I still need strategies when I find myself reaching for food. I am underestimating how stress affects me because I had a couple of stressful moments today and clearly the food was an attempt to elevate some of that negativity.  So tomorrow, if I I feel this same tug of wanting to eat when I’m not hungry – I will engage the internal/external hunger exercise that has been so helpful in the past. I will also eat more mindfully.

I’ll let you know how it goes. I hope you had a good day on the journey. If you didn’t don’t give up!

Day Thirty…

I made good choices today. I avoided eating bread at lunchtime and as a result, I am rolling over 2 SmartPoints. Another positive, I am scheduled for spin class tomorrow morning. These are small choices but important ones, these little choices are the stuff that makes weight loss possible.  I encourage you to reflect on your day. What small (important) choices did you make? What do you plan on doing tomorrow? Just remember you can do this. Believe it.

Day Three Hundred Ninety-Four…

This greeted me when I logged into Facebook:

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That is crazy, that was five years ago! I have been doing this for a long time. It’s strange to think about how much I’ve been able to change over the course of this year. I am now down 91.4 pounds. I don’t know if I will get to goal this week. I have one point left in my bank. Now, of course, I wish I had made that extra spin class or passed on dessert. Yet, the whole thing about my #WW journey is to integrate these habits into my life. So when my husband said, “Let’s go out to dinner, it’s Columbus Day weekend.”  I said, “Great idea!” I really want to get to goal but I also want to go out with my family and have a nice dinner. This is about long-lasting change and every day and every choice is a lesson in making it work.

I will let you know what happens on the scale tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Day Three Hundred Ninety-One…

My featured image is from September 2017. Back at the start of my earnest pursuit to get to goal.  I think it’s so beautiful and that makes me happy. Right now thunder just sounded as if a giant egg is being cracked across the sky. The rain is pouring from the sky and I am safe in my room reflecting about my day.

I went to the food store after a late day at work and saw a WW member there. She looked great, and it always lifts my spirit when I see my “people” outside of our meeting, which we now refer to as our workshop. The changes to WW are new and new is a bit scary.  There are parts of it that I like such as the addition of MIndspace.  I like the idea of having a tool that can help me to refocus.

I had a special teaching moment today. I watched a little boy put together a sentence and read it. This may seem like a small thing but it’s not. What seems to be effortless for one person is a mighty struggle for someone else. I guess my last words for today are, keep it all in perspective. You can do this.

 

Day Three Hundred Ninety…

I went to work, and then I went to the library and worked until 9:00 pm. I came home and worked for another half hour. Then I ate salad with grilled chicken on top and a piece of Italian bread.  After that, I ate an eight-point dessert.

As I reflect on today, all I can write is that I have to continue to be mindful about my choices and my reasons for eating. Especially when I am under so much stress.  I have to keep it all in context. I know that this is a temporary situation and all I have to do is to keep working and eventually, I will get through this difficult time.

I know I can do this. Thank you for reading.