Here are my pros and cons for today:

I tracked everything I ate
I am reflecting on my choices.
I was aware of my choices at the
I went out of my points zone
I allowed old habits to come back

All in all, it could be worse it could be better. I wish this were easier but I’m not going to waste a lot of time thinking about that. If I were going to give myself a pep talk, it would go like this:

Maintenance is difficult, but you can do difficult things. You have accomplished an amazing goal. This is a life long goal so challenging days like today are going to come your way from time to time. It’s not forever, it’s just for today. Keep working the program. Keep it honest. You can do this.

That’s what I’m thinking about today. I hope you had a good day on the journey. When things don’t go so well, try giving yourself a pep talk. Think about why things happened the way they did, by asking, “What happened right before I made that choice? Why do I think it happened that way?

I am very grateful that I can start again tomorrow.

Sweet Tooth…

Today is the kind of day that drives me crazy because I just want to eat ice cream, cookies, cake, or (and, who am I kidding, it’s and) candy. Yes, I can have any these (but not all of them) so long as I am accountable. The way I hold myself accountable is by tracking, weighing, and measuring. I hold myself accountable by paying attention to what I’m eating – to really experience the food. I hold myself accountable by being mindful, not mindless.

What Kind of Monster? A Muppet or an Orc…

There are times when it is a good idea to indulge in the craving. Sometimes, if that craving goes ignored, it comes back with a vengeance! Otherwise, what began as a mischievous little muppet, just have an Enlightened bar; will come back as a great big scary Orc, just eat the whole box of Enlightened bars! A sugar craving has the power to chase me right into the kitchen where I may be likely to lose control.

Stop Running… There are No Monsters…

The truth? I am creating my own monsters. Why am I craving sugar? I went to spin class this morning. I have worked hard all day to track everything I ate. I want to stay within my “Blue Dot Zone” so why would I want to sabotage my efforts? What do I really want? I want to reach my goal. I want to say “No” and mean it. I want to understand. Why does this happen to me?

I don’t have the answer to that question tonight but I think it’s kind of special that I asked the question in the first place. I think the question and the attention to the craving have deflated it so I am saying “No” and I mean it. Honestly, that feels pretty amazing. I have talked myself out of my sugar craving instead of convincing myself it’s ok to indulge it. Wow. That’s a new one. Pretty cool.

You know, Cookie Monster was always one of my favorites. He made me belly laugh just now. I also think I have to remind myself not to take it all so seriously. I hope you are finding joy on the journey. You are amazing don’t forget it.