Day One…

This is the first day on my way to maintenance; so, it is a new “Day One” It’s kind of exciting to be starting off on a new path. One day after reaching GOAL (sorry, I still have to shout it, I almost told a stranger in the store about it until my frontal lobe kicked in and stopped me) and this is what it looks like:

I had an amazing time at spin class and ate a really delicious breakfast that kept me satisfied for a long time. Then I worked for a long time (truth is I have to get back to work so this post will be short).

Work Work Work

After that a little shopping because I think I earned something fantastic.

Plus, guess what I got back… Yes! My coat!

My Coat!
I got my coat back! Don’t ask me how, but the bartender worked some magic. Kind of a funny sentence, but either way, I’m happy.

Yesterday, my coach, Bonnie posed a question that I became too emotional to answer. Now that I’ve had some time to let it sink in I think I can put my feelings into words. She asked,

“How does it feel being 93 pounds lighter?” 

Yesterday, all I kept saying was “It feels really different.”  Today, I can tell you that I feel like someone turned the light on in my own life.  Getting to goal has given me this very special feeling of joy and personal satisfaction because I had to work so hard to get here. Although, it wasn’t an unpleasant journey. As a matter of fact, I’d say 90% of it was very empowering, 10% was daunting. Now, everything is different, I feel like I’m not just living inside my head, I feel more fully present in my body too.  It feels like it used to, like when I was a kid, free to just be present in the world without feeling uncomfortable.

Please understand, these are my reflections on how I am feeling. This is not to say, that 93 pounds ago another person would have felt differently.  Throughout my journey, the one constant was that I always spoke to myself with a kind voice, my mother’s voice, or my sister’s voice. I don’t think I could have made it without that one thing, self-love, and acceptance at every step.

A special thank you to everyone for all the good wishes, encouragement, and congratulations.  Your words mean more to me than I can express. I send all that back to you as you read this post. I send you love, encouragement, and hope for the future. Love yourself as you are, and keep taking steps to get you to where you want to go.

Me
This is me. I started my journey in 2015. I lost 75 pounds and gained back 50. Then in September 2017, I decided to go for it again. This time was different. This time I learned so much more about myself along the way. I understand who I am and so I can become who I want to be.

G O A L!

Day four hundred Twenty-Four was the day I got to goal.  It is an incredible feeling, I hugged everyone in the room when I first found out. Getting to goal has been my priority for over a year and my incredible WW community were amazing.  Everyone applauded and I shared my story. This is what I know for sure.

  1. Believe in yourself – you can do incredible things
  2. Know why you want to lose weight – and think about it every day.
  3. Writing helps to build a habit for reflection and that is helpful
  4. Be an active member of a community of supportive others.
  5.  Kindness and patients are something to practice every day.

So thank you for all the well wishes and support it means more than I can say:

Day Four Hundred Twenty-Three…

Last week I was .4 away from GOAL! Now, it’s the day before weigh-in and I am wondering if this will be my week. I just don’t know. I don’t feel that different than last week.  So my husband and I went for a walk with ou girl, Sadie. She enjoyed the walk as did we.

Rainy Autumn Day on a Walk 2018

I had a good week but that doesn’t mean that tomorrow will be my day to get to goal. i feel great, and I can’t believe how much change has happened over a little more than a year. I’ll let you know how it went.

Day Four Hundred Twenty-One…

Happy Halloween…

I actually rolled over points! I did not eat all the candy you see in the picture. I had the little box of Milk Duds and a lollypop. The rest of it I put back. This is one tricky week to try to reach goal!

It’s a family tradition to watch Meet Me In St. Lois on Halloween. I just love the costumes, the music, and of course a young Judy Garland in the lead role. I’m really proud of myself for not indulging in the candy. It was hard to stop after eating the pop and the Milk Duds. That’s a victory for sure.

Day Four Hundred-Six…

I was reading my notes from past WW meetings. It’s very motivating to read about others’ success stories. Some members lost five pounds their first week, what a great way to grow momentum. Other members are feeling very motivated by the app and accumulating Wellness Wins points.   While other members find themselves eating in more thoughtful and strategic ways. All of these reflections are seeds for changing habits around food. Reading my notes was the perfect midweek boost I need to stay focused on why I’m doing this.

I can control “My Why” that is my choice.  I cannot control life. Life will come at me from every angle. When times get tough I need to separate the unpleasantness from the reality that food is not the answer. I can do this I believe it and that has changed the journey.

Day Four Hundred-Five…

I am enough. I am doing the best I can and I am enough. If my mom were here she would say, “I’m so proud of you Jennifer. You are amazing. You can do anything you set your mind to and I love you.”  I really hope whoever you are, if you’re reading this post, you take some time to say some positive about yourself.

Live your life in the body you want, believe it, you can make it happen.

 

Day Four Hundred-Three…

Today was a successful day on plan – go me! I prepped, packed, and tracked breakfast, lunch, and snacks for tomorrow. I continue to track any foods I eat.  Insofar as getting more variety in the foods, I’m eating today was a small win there too. We had flounder and it was terrific:

I went to spin class and that’s a step in the right direction when it comes to my weight loss journey. I did a lot of other things too but it’s late and I have to keep this post brief. My point today is that even though I still have a lot going on I’m completely engaged with my weight loss efforts. More tomorrow.