I feel like I am in a groove. I am making progress. I tracked everything I ate and continued to keep a photo journal. I used 28 SmartPoints for the day:
A challenge for working from home is that I am here and so is everyone else. They all understand that I’m working, but since I’m right there in the dining room, I am very available to them too. I am going to clean up my office and move in there. It’s a more removed part of the house and I think that will help the situation.
Here are some things I am missing today:
I already miss spending time with my sister.
I miss being able to go to spin class and my in person workshop.
I miss feeling secure walking around with other people.
I miss dropping off my son at school – his last year of High School.
I miss working in classrooms of students.
Being afraid takes a toll and today I am feeling it more today than yesterday. I am scared for myself, my loved ones and friends, and for everyone else. Acknowledging how I really feel helps. Uncertainty is all around but the best thing I can do is be real with myself.
Keep trying. There is something powerful about naming this as grief. It helps us feel what’s inside of us.
There are no boundaries for my life these days. My work has infiltrated my home, and kept me busy all day and into the evening. I am happy to be of service but I feel out of whack. I really need to get a schedule and stick with it. So that is something I am going to focus on.
On a positive note, I am very grateful that my husband colored my hair today. There is a sentence I never thought I’d write. He really did a good job, now maybe he has to learn how to cut hair?
Another good day on plan, I tracked everything I ate and even kept the photo journal like the one I shared yesterday:
Little victories, and small moments of gratitude – this was today.
I was working in a quiet corner of my bedroom when the phone rang. It was Dave’s sister needing to talk. I put the computer aside on the ottoman and left the warm yellow embrace of my room, and went into the hallway past the blue lights seeping out of a gaming consul in my son’s darkened room. Down the wooden steps past the stained glass windows into the living room where Sadie pawed at a ball and did that cute growly bark I so adore. Then through the kitchen, where my daughters were playing Asian music, cooking tofu and vegetables. “Where’s daddy?” I asked. “I dunno upstairs?” Hayley offered, “No, I was upstairs…” I said as I headed down another set of stairs. I past the washer/dryer and walked into the office. There was Dave, laying on his back stretching out his back on a mat on the floor. “It’s for you.” I handed off the phone and thought for a moment, there is so much life in the house.
Comfort is waiting there in plain sight, all I have to do is to notice it. I really want to remember this moment I want to appreciate how it made me feel. I am home with my family – I love them and for this I am filled with gratitude and I want to make that feeling linger.
I took a picture of everything I ate today because I am putting in the effort to build up my healthy habits:
Here are somethings I did today to help me :
I tracked my food and planed ahead
I ate my meals without distraction
I wearing jeans, not sweatpants or workout clothes
I put on makeup and did what I could with my hair
I danced in the kitchen with my kids just for fun
I played with Sadie
I am appreciating my husband and all that he does for us
What are you doing to help yourself mange this crazy time in our lives? If you are looking for something engaging to do – here is a fabulous opportunity, The Science of Wellbeing:
It is a really interesting course, and if you sign up, let me know. I’d rather spend my time finding comfort and thinking about personal happiness if I am able to.
One last thing, I got lucky today look what I found with my school books: