Day One: A Clean Slate…

We use movies to make sense of our lives sometimes. Everyone I know keeps saying how this pandemic has made it feel like the movie, Groundhog Day:

If you have not seen this one it’s pretty funny.

I must confess, if I were in touch with my healthy habits, I wish I felt like this were Groundhog Day. That would mean every day I would be connected to my healthy habits, I would be be on my way back to goal and I would be feeling in control and full of energy.

My reality is this – I’ve slipped and that morphed into a slide, and now I am on the floor staring up at the ceiling. I have written about this movie before, but now (more than ever) I think the movie that captures my narrative during this terrible time needs to be Captain Marvel:

Now is when I get back up and try again. I am only human, and I forgive my lapse and I believe I have the power to shape my experiences at least in terms of my weight loss goals moving forward. My name is Jenn, and today is my “clean slate day”, This is how I am going to start again:

  • Gain inspiration from others, I am going to attend a daily meetings
  • Write a post each day so I connect with others who understand
  • Track every meal because it works, and I can help myself
  • Checkin & and find ways to help me deal with stress
  • Start a bedtime routine to decompress and rest

I am feeling a lot of gratitude for my sister, Virginia, and my friend, Beth. They have both reached out to me and helped me in ways they probably don’t even understand. Virginia checks in and encourages me to do the things I don’t want to but I know I need to hear – weigh yourself… how are you doing on plan… Beth reached out after a meeting and let me know that it’s not just me there is struggle everywhere. Then she suggested I try other digital workshops, I did that today. Today, I attended a meeting in NYC hosted by Annie S. who was amazing. I left feeling very inspired.

As I reflect and consider what I am going to bring with me today, it is that although no one can forge my journey except me, I can connect with community to help myself get back on track. In a crazy world where everything feels out of control, I still have that power over this part of my life, my health and weight loss journey, and that helps. You help, thank you for reading.

3 thoughts on “Day One: A Clean Slate…

  1. This is absolutely, positively, exactly what I am going through right now, too! I especially loved where you wrote you slipped, then you slid, and now you’re on the floor staring up! Perfectly said! This journey we are all experiencing right now has been a real learning eye opener for me, and I love your honesty, raw feelings and yet positive, compassionate and self caring you express. It is always, when I read you posts so spot on, and exactly what I need to hear, what I also am feeling, and the acknowledgment that I am ok, and not the only person feeling this way right, and going through this alone. Thank you for sharing this with us. I look forward to your reflections.

    Nina Martin

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