I feel like I am in a groove. I am making progress. I tracked everything I ate and continued to keep a photo journal. I used 28 SmartPoints for the day:

A challenge for working from home is that I am here and so is everyone else. They all understand that I’m working, but since I’m right there in the dining room, I am very available to them too. I am going to clean up my office and move in there. It’s a more removed part of the house and I think that will help the situation.

Here are some things I am missing today:

• I already miss spending time with my sister.
• I miss being able to go to spin class and my in person workshop.
• I miss feeling secure walking around with other people.
• I miss dropping off my son at school – his last year of High School.
• I miss working in classrooms of students.

Being afraid takes a toll and today I am feeling it more today than yesterday. I am scared for myself, my loved ones and friends, and for everyone else. Acknowledging how I really feel helps. Uncertainty is all around but the best thing I can do is be real with myself.

Keep trying. There is something powerful about naming this as grief. It helps us feel what’s inside of us. 

David Kessler