There are many versions of myself when it comes to my weight loss journey. Sometimes, I am “On Point Jenn” I’ve got things squarely under my control and the plan is humming along like a well oiled machine. Sometimes, I am “Fly By the Seat of My Pants Jenn” I’m improvising as I go and I’m doing my best to keep it together. Other times, I am “Checked Out Jenn” when old habits come back for a spell and I’m not engaging with WW. I don’t know how many of you can relate to this, but I think it would be a safe bet to say that quite a lot of you out there understand these scenarios.
Here’s the thing, I’ve got to learn how to love, really love unconditionally, the version I am of myself right now. Right now, by the way, I’m somewhere in between flying by the seat of my pants, and on point… Weight loss is difficult because it Is unrelenting. There really is no victory lap, touch down, or even GOAL! Weight loss is not a game, it’s a way of living my life. If I’m doing this for life, then I have to be very intentional as to why I’m doing this: I want to be in the best possible health I can be, I want to have the most energy, and I want to feel good about the way I look. These are the reasons that define my why. Another thing I know, love the path that will lead me to living my why.
I listened very carefully during my workshop, and I heard people celebrate what was working, commiserate about the struggle. I know I am not alone, and that helps. I also know that I’ve done this journey better in my past, but it’s not helpful to long for that version of myself. Doing that, longing for my past success, makes me feel weak. Instead, I what to build myself up and love that I am taking this on even if I’m not as confident as I have been in the past. Love is the thing that makes me strong so why wouldn’t I indulge those feelings for myself? My wish for you is that you are love the person you are right now – love the one you’re with. 🙂