It’s funny how the days worked out, but Day 21 is also the day that we celebrated our daughter’s 21st Birthday. Their official birthday is really June 24th but we are close enough. The party went over as a complete success. They had a great time, our families and neighbors all came to help us celebrate. It was a good day.

Lately, I’ve been watching the TV show, This is Us, on Hulu. I think the appeal for this show is that at its heart, it is all about longing and belonging and a search for clarity. Every character is able to be fully articulate in the important moments. I wish I could do that, maybe that’s why I enjoy writing, I can reread my words in the attempt to capture my important moments. In the show, they use flashbacks to revisit the characters’ past in perfect detail. I wish I could do that too. I wish I could remember my daughters’ first birthday, with that kind of clarity, when my, and my husband’s parents were there. My dad was so sick, and I was just so grateful to have him there. We were on borrowed time, and he didn’t stay long but he was there.

Family events are emotional – whether it’s happiness or sadness it’s all still emotion. It’s so easy to overdo it with the food at these kinds of events. I used 30 SmartPoints for the day, and I feel good about that. I’m working my program, and no matter what my results on the scale are, I will know I did my best. Keep believing and eventually success will catch up.