Keep it Positive…

It’s Sunday and I already hit my fitness goal. I prepped a meal for later in the week, and I made homemade vegetable soup. I plan on getting up early prepping my food and having a good day at work. That’s me I’m accenting the positive. Try it, words shape our experiences and outcomes. Weight loss is hard enough so don’t beat yourself up for the mistakes you may make. Instead consider what is going well and build on that instead.

Believe in Yourself…

I’m reflecting on my progress with goal setting. Last week was to focus on mindfulness and it was an up and down kind of week. There were some successes and some failures. I’m just trying to sort it out – trying to learn. So far all I really know for sure is that maintaining weight loss can be very hard some days.

Taking a page from the Gin Blossoms remembering 1996…

I’m feeling ok, I woke up with a headache and missed my weekly WW workshop and that’s a real bummer for me. I love going and touching base with my people. Part of being a WW member means you’ve got people, how cool is that? If you’re reading this post, you’re my people too, and I am yours – together we can think of ways to make this lifestyle thing work.

I am in week four of weekly goal setting. Here is how that’s looking:

  • Week 1: crash and burn setting a goal to rollover points did not work.
  • Week 2: huge success setting a goal to reinforce night time rituals was a big win for me.
  • Week 3: Fresh Start thinking (practice mindful choices) was up and down as I said earlier.

My goal this week is to get some activity each day. I feel better when I’m active. That helps me to stay focused on plan and to be successful. I went to the gym today, and walked the dog:

I hope you did something that makes you feel good today. Believe that you can do this, because you can. Keep the faith and keep it moving along.

Running the Race…

Sometimes I just have to pace myself. I have to remember that this weight loss journey doesn’t have a finish line. I will always be in training for this race. It is a marathon not a sprint. There will be lots of hurdles and that’s ok.

Today was not a perfect day. I made some poor choices, and I was not present and mindful as I had hoped to be. Why not? I had a lot of running around, I had an argument with someone. I was not able to cook the dinner I thought I’d make and ended up snacking on a bunch of stuff instead and I tried to meet a work deadline. There are lots of reasons. Now that the work is done, the errands are over, and everyone in the house is fast asleep it is easier to think through why I made the choices I did.

What could I have done differently? I guess I could have taken a step back in the thick of it. I could have made myself stop and cook dinner. I could have changed my clothes and practices some self-care rituals I have come to rely upon. I could have just stopped: and taken care of me. That was a possibility but it didn’t seem like one at the time. You know, this weight loss journey isn’t going to be one revelation after another. I’m going to be repeating my mistakes because in the moment I don’t always see them. Or, sometimes I do see them and I decide to make them anyway because it seems too difficult to pull away from them.

I will keep writing, and reflecting with the hope that I will continue to grow my awareness and refine my skills for healthy living. This is a process and knowing that helps.

Exhaustion…

I did something pretty stressful tonight. It went well, and now I am just bone tired. I came home ate a bunch of pistachios, and cheese-it mix and I was not mindful about it. The trouble began when I forgot my lunch at home this morning. I only got back home after 9:30 pm and so next time I have to be more careful to make sure my lunch gets out the door with me.

Thank you to my friends who reached out and sent me some words of encouragement. I am deeply appreciative of your kind gestures. You helped me, thank you.

The Journey…

Tonight, thoughts of the journey and how it is always changing are crowding my brain. Yesterday was a struggle, today was a good one, I’m rolling over another two points; spin class was great this morning; and mindful reflection is slowly becoming a habit of mind. How about that for a word bender?

The other thing weighing me down tonight is that I’m trying to build up my confidence, I have to make a presentation to the school board tomorrow and I’ve written my remarks, practiced, and then rewritten them. I’ve recorded myself and listened back to it and I’m afraid that I sound like someone is sending me away to a dungeon! My hope is that when the time comes I sound more natural. That’s my story Im sticking with that.

I think weight loss fluctuates because life fluctuates. There is a lot going on in all our lives, so why make this harder than it needs to be? Say this with me, I’ll believe it if you believe it too:

You can do amazing things. You have proven this time and time again. Keep going because you are worth it.

Jenn Hayhurst

Fighting the Battle …

Somedays are harder than others and today is one of those days. There was this delicious Carvel chocolate dipped ice-cream cone in my freezer. This blog is a place for the truth so I decided to that I should go ahead and have it. This is not a diet, there are no foods off limits. I can eat it if I want to. As I was taking out the cone from the paper bag, I was thinking, “I’m having it I want it.” Then I heard myself say, “Eat it but track it.” I laid it out on the table and looked at it, as I was keying in the letters…

c-a-v-e-l-i-c-e-c-r-e-a-m-c-h-o-c-o-l-a-t-e-d-p-p-e-d-c-o-n-e

I wasn’t able to find it so I began to scroll down checking out some of the other comparable choices 12, 14, 20 SmartPoints… I sighed, and thought about it because my goal this week is to be more present and intentional about my choices. I thought about how I practiced mediation this morning before getting out of bed. I thought about how I’m not really hungry. I thought about how far I’ve come, and how hard it was to get here. I put the cone back into the brown paper bag and slid the freezer door shut.

Why did I want the cone? Could be that I have some work to do that I don’t want to do right now. It could be that since I am feeling good physically I can fool myself into thinking that I can just eat whatever I want in whatever amounts. I might be thinking it’ll be fine, I can eat that because look at me I look good. It could be so many reasons. I think the more important thing for me to consider right now is how hard it was to say, “No.” to it. That was really hard in the moment. The moment is passed and now it feels easier, but in that moment, I had to really work hard to maintain my composure to think through it.

Hungry Days…

Some days I am hungrier than others. Today is a hungry kind of day. I don’t know why, but it just is. I started the day making pancakes, and I ate them and then I went back for seconds. That was not very helpful. Now I have that too full feeling and I’m trying to understand the behavior. Why’d I do that?

Maybe I am just hungry today. Maybe it’s because I have not had homemade pancakes in a long time. Maybe by making them I was reminded of a time when I didn’t have the same perspective on food as I do now. Maybe it’s some other reason I haven’t uncovered yet. Either way, the most important decision I have to make is the next one. Do I keep snacking and eating as if none of this already happened?

The answer is “No.” Instead, I want to make myself be present in this moment and deal with whatever feelings come next. I am self-aware and I can decide what to do next. Today is going to be a good day even though I had a slip up.

A Little Help…

Being part of the WW community has become very important to me. Saturday morning workshops have become something I look forward to because I care about the people, and I learn so much from everyone. Today I was inspired by their stories, and informed by their wisdom.


There is something beautiful about Saturday. It’s my fresh start day, and I love that feeling. My goal for this week, is to take that “fresh start” feeling for Saturday and extend it through the week. Every day, every meal, every activity, every mindful encounter is a fresh start. There is always room to feel good about my choices, and to improve. If I can achieve that goal I think it would do a lot for my sense of wellbeing. What’s the action plan?

  • Mindful mediation thinking about the new day each morning (BASICS on Headspace)
  • Being present in my choices thinking about each as one part of the whole day (not defining the whole day)
  • Positive self-talk and honest reflection about choices throughout the day
  • Mindful mediation thinking about the end of the day (END OF THE DAY on Headspace)

So now I’m wondering what goals will you set this week? What are you willing to share? If it helps, feel free to leave a comment. Your suggestion may be food for thought for someone else. A community is a wonderful place to think, share, and grow. We could have that here if we want it.

Go Me…

I did a good job this week. St. Patrick’s Day was challenging because I went way over my SmartPoints allowance that day. I do love my sister’s Irish Soda Bread, and my sister-in-law’s corned beef! I did recover from that and I’m ending my week with SmartPoints in my bank, and I have exceeded my fitness goal. I practiced my goal for being mindful about bedtime routines each night this week and it certainly helped me. I have to think on what would come next, I am not sure yet.

I hope I go down on the scale tomorrow but either way, I had a great week. I hope you did too. Please be good to yourself because weight loss is already hard enough.

Renewal and Transformation…

My husband is a painting contractor. Whenever I watch him work I am witness to an experienced craftsman. He is so nimble so skilled he can take what was once old, and make it seem brand new. I think about the people who will live in these spaces, and how his careful work will shape their house into the home they imagined. The home, that will hold their family. Then without hardly any notice he packs up his brushes and tools, his drops, and his lights into tidy bundles and is gone leaving something of value behind.

There are so many ways to make an impact in this life. For better or for worse our actions have the capacity to change the world and each other. And maybe, it’s the changing seasons from winter to spring but I am thinking deeply about renewal and transformation. The world will always be in a state of flux and so we will always be changing too. How are we supposed to manage this? If change is inevitable what is steady and true in this life? What can we count on?

We can count on ourselves and each other. We can count on the rhythmic patterns that trace a path through our lives. I am learning to appreciate the inherent beauty in this truth. Understanding that there will always be a wavy path, there will be challenges and celebrations; boredom and excitement; fear and safety and so it goes. Knowing this, helps to frame a better perspective of my weight loss journey.

Mockingbird Song

There is no one solution. There is no rigid rule. There is only mindful presence and a promise to honor your “why” for improving your health. The thing of value, the thing you are becoming more skilled at, the thing that you are working on is yourself. Happy Spring.