Today is the kind of day that drives me crazy because I just want to eat ice cream, cookies, cake, or (and, who am I kidding, it’s and) candy. Yes, I can have any these (but not all of them) so long as I am accountable. The way I hold myself accountable is by tracking, weighing, and measuring. I hold myself accountable by paying attention to what I’m eating – to really experience the food. I hold myself accountable by being mindful, not mindless.
What Kind of Monster? A Muppet or an Orc…
There are times when it is a good idea to indulge in the craving. Sometimes, if that craving goes ignored, it comes back with a vengeance! Otherwise, what began as a mischievous little muppet, just have an Enlightened bar; will come back as a great big scary Orc, just eat the whole box of Enlightened bars! A sugar craving has the power to chase me right into the kitchen where I may be likely to lose control.
Stop Running… There are No Monsters…
The truth? I am creating my own monsters. Why am I craving sugar? I went to spin class this morning. I have worked hard all day to track everything I ate. I want to stay within my “Blue Dot Zone” so why would I want to sabotage my efforts? What do I really want? I want to reach my goal. I want to say “No” and mean it. I want to understand. Why does this happen to me?
I don’t have the answer to that question tonight but I think it’s kind of special that I asked the question in the first place. I think the question and the attention to the craving have deflated it so I am saying “No” and I mean it. Honestly, that feels pretty amazing. I have talked myself out of my sugar craving instead of convincing myself it’s ok to indulge it. Wow. That’s a new one. Pretty cool.
You know, Cookie Monster was always one of my favorites. He made me belly laugh just now. I also think I have to remind myself not to take it all so seriously. I hope you are finding joy on the journey. You are amazing don’t forget it.