The holiday season has begun and I am feeling conflicted. I am in a rut and I think I have to change some things up. Today began with a great spin class but it was a struggle most of the day to stay on plan. I went food shopping yesterday, and I bagged all my vegetables today. After I finish writing this post, I am going to pack and track my breakfast and lunch for tomorrow.
Thanksgiving marks a tricky time of year for me. I struggled this time last year too, and I pushed through it. I just have to gather up my resolve and keep moving. I love feeling energetic, and I also enjoy wearing a smaller size, and I know this is a much healthier way of living. Everything has a price and the cost of living this way is paid through constant effort and reflection.
It would be easy to fool myself into believing that this is my natural way of being. That it doesn’t take work to get to goal and to maintain it. I could just turn off the reflective part of me and just ignore the warning signs that lead me to gain and lose and gain and lose and continue to the cycle. I’ve come too far for that now. I’ve seen the truth about myself and I can’t unsee it – so, here I sit writing these words for you to read.
I’m struggling but I’ll get through it. Want to know why I say that? I believe I can do this. I truly believe in myself. When I feel the tug of old habits I am going to lean into my newer ones. Habits are both a prison and key. Sometimes, they bore you into submission; while other times they set you free. It’s complicated. If I can keep going, so can you. Just believe in yourself and trust that you can do it. Ok?
As always, thank you for reading and sending me your support. It feels good to know there are others who understand, and also know that I am sending my support back out there to you. Go us! We can do this… together.