Day Four Hundred Twenty…

Waking up at 4:30 am may not sound that appealing, but I have to say, I do love working out before I start my workday. It’s a little bit of time that is just for me. Plus, I really do enjoy the other people who go to my 5;15 am spin classes. This morning’s class was a fantastic time and in by the end, I felt very strong.

It’s a little startling how different I feel these days.  I have this sense of wellbeing and balance that I didn’t have before. I read a post on #Connect from another member who posted a picture and wrote that she was fed up and was now ready. Today was her “Day 1” As a member who began counting the days over a year ago (420 and counting) I can appreciate where she is coming from. For those of us who either have or had a lot of weight to lose, the first day of the journey to better health can be overwhelming.

Nothing about weight loss is easy. There is no one right way to do this. So for me, I am definitely a #WW girl through and through. I’m happy to be on this team. The thing that makes #WW work is that it is designed to be customized to us as individuals. Everything has to start with who we are and our specific needs. More and more research is showing that food is processed differently from person to person, so knowing how to best use our SmartPoints is an important personal choice that leads to permanent change.

#WW members have conversations about making activity enjoyable and part of our daily lives is a powerful conversation. Acknowledging how to manage emotions without resorting to overeating is equally powerful. Understanding the value of a growth mindset and establishing good habits are also discussed. Powerful, life-changing stuff!

So tomorrow is Halloween… what is your action plan for the candy situation?

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Day Four Hundred-Eighteen…

I went out to a Halloween party last night and had lots of fun. My husband was Groucho Marx and I was a pirate…

It’s funny how the little things really take me by surprise. I could go to a party store and buy a costume without worrying that they wouldn’t have something to fit me.  It has been a long journey but the truth is everything still feels brand new.

I said no to this today… I said yes to this today…

On a sad note, after the party, I realized that someone stole my jacket. It’s true, I went to a bar in Northport Village to see a friend’s band, and had a great time. But at the end of the evening, it turned out that someone had left with my jacket and my phone was in the pocket. Thankfully, the next day the person returned the phone but kept the jacket. The thing is this is the jacket my husband bought me as a surprise gift a year ago. I was so happy about because I could finally fit into a regular size…

Nice surprise
I love this jacket.

I will really miss it.

On the brighter side now that Halloween is this week, I am going to do something with baking pumpkins… but I don’t know what it will be yet. I’ll keep you posted.

Pie Pumpkins vs. Carving Pumpkins: How They’re Different & Why It Matters

Day Four Hundred-Seventeen…

I am .4 pounds away from goal!

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I am so close. During the workshop, many members shared how our time and support system is what is helping them to stay on track. I completely agree. This is a challenge but it can be done.

The other day a colleague told me that when she saw me in the hallway she didn’t recognize me. She looked at me with astonishment because I have been so transformed.  In many ways I am different but on the other hand, in some important ways, I’m exactly the same. I had a piece of lemon pound cake after lunch today, and I immediately wanted another slice. I actually stood with my hand on the refrigerator and told myself, “No. No more, you’re done. You already know what it tastes like, and you don’t need anymore.” This worked today. I walked away from the refrigerator.

So even after all these weeks of care and attention, I am still vulnerable to overeating. It’s ok because knowing that about myself actually helps me. Honest reflection makes this possible. I am in this for life and I am grateful that I am learning more about myself.


Day Four Hundred-Sixteen…

Happy 16th Birthday David! We had a party tonight to celebrate our son’s special day. We had the family over and had so much fun. I am very happy to say, David felt loved and that’s what a birthday is all about.

In terms of being on plan… it was a challenging day. It began with professional development, (I was attending not facilitating) and then, of course, there was the party.  Professional development comes with an assortment of snacks. With the party? Well, lasagna and birthday cake of course.

I’m happy to say I did not have any candy, and I was very strategic about what I ate. I used very few points and “saved up” for dinner. I did really enjoy what I ate and now I just feel good.  Will I get to goal? I don’t know, I really have no idea but I hope so. I did not reach my fitness goal, I only went to spin one time this week. I did recover my points from my overindulgence from last Saturday. I am rolling over 8 SmartPoints. I have been planning and tracking.

I will let you know how I did!


Day Four Hundred-Thirteen…

It was a great day at work, I did a training with a really nice colleague who I enjoy working with. Everyone got a lot out of our time together and that is a very rewarding feeling. However, with professional development (PD) comes the awful temptations of snacks.  So here is a tip to avoid eating the snacks and staying on plan. If willpower is a muscle, and having a plan helps to train that muscle, this is what I do:

  1. Acknowledge that the snack is something I would enjoy eating because I would…
  2. Take a picture of the snack and pass it on down the line knowing that I would be sharing my “win” here later…
  3. Post the picture and celebrate!

I know to a “civilian” this seems so basic, but believe me, I’m doing my happy dance. I have made up for my over indulgences from Saturday and that feels fantastic. I do like that I can “recover” with the rollover points because it’s something I always thought about and it helps to see the number decrease.

I have another thing to celebrate, I am almost at “low risk” according to my Waist to Hip Ratio…

I’m in this to feel more confident, to increase my energy level, and to improve my overall health. The Waist-to-hip ratio is better than the BMI as far as predicting serious health issues such as cardiovascular disease, diabetes, breast cancer, and fertility.

This journey has changed my life for the better in so many ways. I can’t encourage you enough to give yourself a chance to be successful.  I know it’s hard when you have a lot of weight to lose. You may be feeling hopeless and that it’s all too much and you don’t even know how to begin.  You’re not alone I understand. This is hard. However, I can also say that it also puts you in touch with your inner power. That is an incredible feeling and it is only possible because this is hard.  Vulnerability sucks.

Embrace it, run to it, be vulnerable so you can be brave. When you are ready to begin that will be an amazing day because that means you are kindling the hope for change. In the meantime,  I am sending you my best hoping these words will be the kind words in your head that you decide to listen to. So, listen… You are spectacular, there is no one else like you and you matter. You deserve to live your life in the body that you want for yourself. Start small but start, and celebrate every little thing.

Day Four Hundred-Twelve…

At dusk, the sky was beautiful.

It has been a while since I stood snapping pictures, thinking about how lovely the world can be even if I am just standing in the Stop & Shop parking lot. There is no reason not to appreciate this, and the truth is beauty makes the journey so much better.

I am happy to say I went to spin this morning and I felt great. I love owning a part of my day before the demands of the workday begin. It’s not that I don’t love my job, I love teaching, but it’s amazing to have that small bit of time that is for me, and me alone.

I’m still thinking about willpower. I read that every time you have a stepwise plan for how to handle a challenge you are building your willpower muscle. So when the alarm goes off at 4:30 am I know I have to…

  1. Turn off the alarm.
  2. Swing my feet out from under the covers.
  3. Get up, and go into the bathroom

If I follow those three steps I am on my way to spin class. That strengthens my willpower muscle. Another example, when I come home from work I…

  1. Empty my lunchbox.
  2. Put a new water bottle inside.
  3. Get out the scale and containers.

If I do that, I’m on my way to pre-packing, pre-tracking my breakfast and lunch for the next day. This is just how it goes. It’s not so hard and it does get easier. So think about your willpower muscle. Think about your “why” these are two important parts to a successful journey. You can do this, and I can too.

Day Four Hundred-Eleven…

There are some days that feel as though my life is the real – “hunger games.”  Lately, I have had to circle back to gauge whether I’m experiencing internal or external hunger. If you are on a weight loss journey, this is really a game changer (sorry couldn’t resist). Taking a moment to use this as a reflection guide is very helpful:

External Hunger / Internal Hunger
Taking a few minutes to consider where those hungry feelings are coming from changes a lot.

Whenever I do this, it helps me to act in accordance with what I’m really experiencing when it comes to feeling hungry. It’s so simple and it really helps to stay on plan and stay on track.

Words of Wisdom

I don’t know if this helps you or not but I really hope it does. A weight loss journey can feel like a lonely path but it doesn’t have to be. If you read my blog regularly, you know I’m a fan of #WW because it builds community. I am stronger on this journey because of the people, who so generously share their stories with me. I am part of something and I hope I make you feel that way too.

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I like this picture even though it’s nothing too special. Just an autumn day at the firehouse.


Day Four Hundred-Ten…

Many of us have that pair of jeans we hold onto even though chances are slim that we will be wearing them again (no pun intended). Hello, 1987…

When I was a kid, I saved up $75 (a fortune from my job at the soft yogurt store) and went to Woodbury Commons to the very elite Guess Store and bought these fabulous jeans. I remember the recessed lighting that seemed to make everything look better. Opening the door and stepping inside the fitting room. Trying them on and looking at myself in the wide mirror. It felt so good to pay for them and leave the store with my Guess bag.  I was so happy driving back home to Northport in my friend Samantha’s Chevette. These jeans, I can fit into my vintage 1987 Guess jeans.

Know that losing this weight, and going on a journey to improve my health has been (and at times continues to be)  difficult.  It is a complex problem one that will always require my attention. I am the kind of person who has a tendency to turn to food when I am under stress. It’s just the way it is for me. However, that doesn’t mean that I can’t do this, and it doesn’t mean this journey is absent of joy. There has been a lot of joy along the way.  I want to thank Kim for this beautiful and unexpected gift…

Kim bought this for me because she knows I journal during my WW meetings. xo

Kim is part of my Saturday morning WW crew and I am touched by her generosity and thoughtfulness. I really love this notebook. xo

I am going to keep at this, so why not do this with me? Eventually, we will get there, it’s worth the effort. You are worth the effort and so am I. More tomorrow.