It was pretty crowded in the faculty room today. People were sitting in their regular seats, eating their lunches and chatting. I put down my lunch bag and looked at the items the others were eating, and I had to laugh, the girl next to me had Cape Cod Chips 40% less fat variety, and Mini Babybel Lite Cheese just like me! When I unpacked my lunch, I said, “Check this out.” and she immediately laughed too, because how weird is that pairing?  Until, she said, “Well, I’m a Weight Watcher” I smiled and said, “Me too.” 

It turns out she has lost over 70 pounds and looks amazing!  I really love that now I have a new friend with whom I can talk about the journey.

I went to 5:15 am spin class this morning and had a great ride.  I notice that I’m getting stronger and that is a very cool accomplishment:

I think the light is beautiful.

Just before sunrise, it was beautiful.

So lovely.

Many people are starting to notice my weight loss. It is really nice to have their admiration for my accomplishment.  In the past, I would have just been embarrassed, but as with everything else, it’s different this time around.

What hasn’t changed is my need to be self-deprecating.  Today, someone said, “Hey Jenn, you are getting so skinny!” Instead of saying, “Thank you.” I said, “Thank you, it’s a lot of work.”  Sure, doing this takes some effort, but the truth is (for me right now) it’s not a lot of work. Why did I say that? Do I have some kind of need to downplay my dedication and success?  I think I have to watch that so I don’t undermine myself. Does any of this make sense?

I hope you had a great day on the journey. Any day on plan, even a rough one, is better than a day off plan. Just remember why you are doing this, and hold that reason in your heart – your head will follow. More tomorrow…