Day Forty-Nine…

Let me just begin my post sharing how grateful I am for my Saturday Morning Weight Watchers (WW) Meeting. I am part of a supportive and caring community and that makes all the difference. I am blown away by the generosity of the group.  We trust each other to share our ups and downs as we all follow our own paths to get to goal (or to stay at goal).  Plus, I get to do this all with my sister, who I love more than I can say. It’s strange to write this, but if I didn’t have to lose weight, I would be missing all this quality time with her and my WW friends. So, maybe needing to lose weight is a blessing:

I lost weight again this week and bit by bit I am getting closer to my goal every week.  After the meeting, my sister and I went to Trader Joe’s and then I bought myself a cool new pair of Adidas sneakers (truth is my sister encouraged me to do it). I’ve been telling her for weeks that I want them. Hey, I’m all for a little retail therapy once in a while (a topic of discussion at my WW meeting :D):

I keep thinking about the ups and downs of a weight loss process. For me, recently, it’s been more “ups” than “downs.” Why? Is it this blog, refocusing me to reflect on my feelings? Maybe. Is it because I’m feeling better? Possible. Is it because I see the scale moving down? It could be.

Then I think about whether this time (you see, I’ve lost a lot of weight in the past) is different. I think it definitely is.  I think the difference is that I’m totally opening up my heart to the process of what it takes to get to goal. Opening up your heart means letting others in, and not being afraid to be vulnerable.  What I’ve learned from last time to this is time is that I know that I will never totally beat this. I will always have to be mindful about healthy living. That said, I now believe that can learn how to live in a way that I can be successful.

Anyway, thank you thank you for reading. My wish for you is that you take some time to reflect on your journey, then find someone to share your thoughts. Be unabashedly vulnerable because that is real empowerment and ownership – that is how you really go beyond the scale.

Day Forty-Eight…

Happy Friday! I began the day dropping off my son at school. I was feeling generous and bought him a breakfast sandwich at Starbucks. Boy, it did smell delicious. Let’s just say, double smoked bacon…  The strange thing was, I did not feel tempted – at all! I did get a Grande Skinny Latte (4sp)  which I enjoyed immensely:

Today was not only Friday but it was a staff breakfast day. The teachers who did breakfast put out a beautiful elaborate spread.  There were little breakfast sandwiches, baked goods, pudding with chocolate chips and whipped cream. Homemade banana chip muffins, candy, pumpkin bread. Honestly, you can’t imagine how much food was there. I thought to myself, “What a nice gesture, how nice of them to go to so much trouble for all this for all of us.” I took a halo (it was ripe and sweet) and went on my way.

I wanted to do something nice for myself so I got a manicure-pedicure after work.  I offered to take my daughter but she wasn’t interested. So I went on my own, and it was  such an enjoyable relaxing experience:

You know when everything on you WW plan starts to click? You have a sense of control – and you think to yourself, “I’ve got this.” That is where I am at today. Day forty-eight came and now I feel like I can handle anything that comes my way.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day. I hate to say it, but I have a good feeling that I will be down this week.  Then I think to myself, “What if you’re not, will it ruin your meeting? If your the same, or worse than that UP, will it stifle the positive feelings and send you into a spiral?” The thing is these anxious thoughts and feelings don’t help and won’t change a thing if it turns out that way.

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I know that I have done an excellent job this week:

  • I got to Spin twice
  • I went walking with my sister twice
  • I prepped my foods, made healthy meals
  • I reflected on my progress every day

If I don’t have a BIG NUMBER on the scale, that doesn’t detract from any of my progress. I can’t control the number that will greet me tomorrow morning. I can do help myself to see the BIG PICTURE – I can be happy with all my accomplishments. Eventually, I will get to goal.

My parting words for this post for today are to please be kind to yourself. Give yourself the time and space to try, mabe fail and then try again.  Give yourself permission to feel successful be proud of everything because you’re doing the work and you deserve to feel good about yourself – no matter what!